Chapter 23 – in which Toby and Seraphim join the dots...

Dear beloved readers, g-nomers one and all – what a lot of dots there are, floating around in this story. You’d have thought that I’d have filled things in for you, putting more flesh on the bones, but no, all I’ve given you are a load of old dots.

Here, as we say goodbye to the modern age and enter the quantum age with g-nome portal providing technical assistance, we find ourselves a little reluctant to part with the scaffolding that enabled us to construct the new age.

It turns out that each age is like a being, or a body, that not only grows and learns, but also forms within itself its own replacement, and by inferral its own demise. In order for this transfer to happen, the old king has to die – and that can happen gracefully, lovingly, consciously, or with a bitter, twisted struggle, desperately hanging on to what cannot, ultimately be preserved. For every age has a sell-by date. Every age has a natural limit beyond which it becomes exponentially more difficult to continue. The new has to grow forth from within the old, just as new seeds grow from last year’s crop.

So the Modern age which replaced the so called Middle ages which replaced the so called Dark ages – oh these names are only names so please don’t attach any significance to them; the Modern age is already dead. We already talk about post-modernism in art, but little understand what the new age might be – for how can anything be more than “modern”, when in our lexicon “modern” means “latest” or “most up-to-date”, which it was until recently – but now no more.

So, we’re calling the new age the Quantum age – because that seems to be the most appropriate name for it – but really – you’re free to call it what you will.

Step this way, bbgs, step this way and follow me through g-nome portal into the new Quantum age. The revolution has already happened, we’re just a little slow to perceive what is unfolding, assuming as we do that nothing fundamental has changed.

Well, if you’re willing to suspend your disbelief and accept my Story – then you now find yourself walking through the golden gateway of g-nome into a new multi-dimensional Earth.

Note – I’m not saying 4 or 5 dimensional – no, no, no – I’m quite categorical in this matter, because when people add another dimension they immediately start screwing up their mind, trying to visualise what 4 or 5 dimensional reality would look like... They start trying to add vertices to existing shapes and the mind, it does clever things but fails to recognise the simple truth – that fundamentally nothing has changed.

 “Er... Seraphim – I thought you said that we’ve moved into a new age – that sounds like pretty fundamental change. And if the new age is 4^th or 5^th dimensional – that means we’re going to have a completely new relationship to matter and space – doesn’t it?”

Yes, yes it does. And yet no, no, nothing has fundamentally changed, because fundamentally all is one. E-n-b.

“How convenient. You have an answer for everything – but...”

But yes, intellectually my answer is neither sufficient nor satisfactory.

“Precisely, so why don't I try for a change. I saw a fascinating programme about this the other day... when you start imagining 4 dimensional space or beyond – weird things happen – cubes change shape and objects can pass through walls...”

Yes, when you imagine 4 dimensional space from a 3 dimensional mind you’re doing a mind bender – trying to imagine fire from the perspective of water, or grass from the perspective of snow. Instead of projecting into an imaginary additional dimension, why not accept the simple truth, that all dimensions, all of space and time are here, right now.

“And what does that achieve?”

It means that anything is possible.

“And what of it? We all know theoretically anything’s possible...”

If we can accept the simple truth, that anything is possible – that a square can be a cube, or that the Earth can be hollow with another Earth inside it – we’re starting to loosen the apron strings of the 3D mind, we’re starting to allow our imagination to connect with a greater isness... we’re pulling down the Berlin Wall of I-mind/what matters, which spends the whole time telling us what’s allowed, what isn’t, and trying to define things in an attempt to fix sufficient points to get a grip of life, the universe and everything.

“But isn’t that good – haven’t we made enormous strides forward scientifically doing just that?”

Absolutely. We grew within the 3D mind. We explored the modern age and built mechanical machines, then computers, and nuclear bombs, we made beautiful classical music and then worked backwards to pop and rock and heavy metal.

“Look – just because you don’t like modern music doesn’t mean you have to knock it.”

Oh, I love it, but if you compare Bach, Mozart or other Rachmaninov to what we have today – it’s like comparing modern architecture to the mean dwellings of the Dark ages. Our music has, in a sense, regressed, as have other areas of our culture, and that’s no “bad” thing – merely reflecting that ultimately there’s no gain – that as one part moves forward, another moves back.

“But isn’t that depressing – I mean, there has to be gain – we have to keep on advancing...”

Have to?

“Yes, otherwise what’s the point? We may as well give up.”

Ah, now you’re talking. Supposing that’s what we actually need to do?

“What, you think we’re supposed to give up? That’s outrageous. We have to believe in progress. There’s always a way forwards.”

Yep – there’s always a way forwards, but sometimes it involves going backwards, retracing our route and taking the turning that we missed a few hundred years ago.

“Oh, I wish you wouldn’t say that – it sounds so depressing.”

Well, you can deal with these feelings very easily right now. I suggest you do – because we’re never going to learn anything as long as we’re terrified of being wrong, or of having to retrace our steps. A healthy mind is happy just being in the process – and can enjoy each moment fully, regardless of which way it needs to go.

“But how, I feel so gloomy at the thought that we’ve been living a lie – believing we’re on top of the world but actually we have our nose in the dirt.”

Hold on a minute – what on earth’s wrong with the dirt? You do realise that everything we experience matters. You can’t say this experience is good and that is bad. We’re constantly learning.

“Yes, but I want a sense of moving forwards, of bigger and better and brighter – of reaching for the stars.”

Excellent. Then it’s time to make some adjustments.

“Like what?” [sounding suspicious]

Well first of all in how you deal with the idea of making adjustments. You’re too attached to the way things are now. You’ve built a lot of inertia into your system. You’re top heavy, self important and worse still, proudly disdainful and dismissive of all the other ages. You have to realise that every age has always been on top of the curve.

“Hang on – how can you say the Dark ages were anything but backwards? Surely they weren’t on top of the curve?”

Well – they had to be – mathematically:  0=1, otherwise you don’t get life, you don’t get consciousness. It’s an allness, an isness.

“Er... what’s that got to do with things?”

Well – you’re still coming from a materiality perspective – that you’re more advanced because you have rockets and mobile phones – and, in a sense, you are more advanced, but if you stopped for one moment to consider the fundamentals, you’d immediately run into 0=1, there’s simply no other way to get REALLY fundamental.

“Ok – if you insist:  0=1.”

It doesn’t work if you do it grudgingly like that, for this is ultimately just a Mind game within a Life game – or vice versa.

“Ok – but I still don’t get it...  0=1.”

Not getting it simply means you’re the product of your age – and the modern mind disdains anything truly fundamental – because it’s made all its progress by ignoring the absolute. It has no intention of stopping now.

“I simply don’t see how you can be so dismissive of the modern mind – and how you can say it’s superficial, or that it ignores fundamentals. Our scientists work tirelessly to find the most fundamental truths – like the God particle.”

Yes, the less said the better. I, likewise, simply fail to see how you can be so dismissive of every other age. If you took the trouble to come fully into the present moment you’d discover that every moment is now.

“Well, I know that theoretically but, in reality... it’s different.”

Yes – that’s precisely it. You’ve chosen to be in a reality where time is elongated – where you’re separated from other ages by a great gulf, which has been the main feature of the modern mind, and where you’re constantly looking down, but it ain’t going to work any longer.

“Why not?”

Because you’ve reached the end of the line – the event horizon. The only way you can proceed further is by reconnecting with the other ages which are, in fact, here alongside, and which contain the wisdom you need to move forwards – if you wish to continue, that is.

“Er... continue what?”

Just continue. If you refuse to come into the greater present – the moment of moments, the now of nows, you’ll find the structures you have erected come crashing down. Your civilisation will collapse – in a matter of months.

“Months?! Now aren’t you being a little dramatic?”

Not in the least. As I said – you’ve reached the end of the line. The linear progression has been taken to its logical extreme – there’s nowhere further to go.

“So we’re doomed.”

Yes, unless you can try the alternative.

“Ok, why not... What is it?”

Humility.

“Humility? Are you taking the piss?”

Try to avoid vulgar expressions please.

“Taking the piss is hardly vulgar – it’s in common usage throughout society.”

Yes – the modern age has this endearing feature – but believe me when I say that energetically it is a little vulgar. If you could refrain, I would be grateful.

“Ok Mr Hoity Toity.”

And one more point... why do you refer to me as Mr?

“Well, your name is Seraphim and I assumed you were a bloke.”

Reasonable enough under the circumstances.

“But I was wrong?”

If you’d care to find out – I can take you into what I am.

“Ok – that would be fascinating. What do I need to do.”

Breathe... Gently... Regularly... deeper... softer... let go... [whoosh]

Seraphim takes Toby on a small journey into what 3D people would call the angelic realms. I appreciate the fact that this might sound a little strange – but if in all humility we can suspend our disbelief, and breathing gently, assume a mental posture of openness to that which is – regardless of what that might be, then there’s nothing particularly strange or absurd about “angelic realms”. They’re just a part of an infinite continuum. You have many different realms in your reality – inside as opposed to out, tunnels as opposed to fields, underwater as opposed to in the air – well so there are further realms beyond the ken of I-mind/what matters, but not, in fact far away at all.

Toby is evidently enjoying the trip. It takes a few moments to get started, but that’s ok – there’s no rush. Once he is able to let release his heavy-frequency lock, Seraphim is able to guide him into other frequencies, and all of a sudden places start materialising right here, right now – starting with g-nome portal, and extending to more exotic realms – places of colour, places of sound, places of delicate texture, of feeling – it’s all in the detail – this being a fractal universe. Once you follow your nose, or allow your delight, your bliss, your joy to lead you to a realm that means something to you – it opens up before your eyes, and now you’re in another world.

“OK, but what do they look like – these realms.”

Ah – Margery – there you are – naturally they look like whatever you make of them. You see – ultimately it’s all just energy, numbers or consciousness – so how you perceive a realm depends on you. If you come from Earth you’re going to see the infinite beyond in terms that reflect your experience and your beliefs – because seeing them as pure energy won’t make a lot of sense.

“But – how do I see them at all – if they’re pure energy?”

How do you see anything? It’s a great question but I think you’re going to have to do a little research yourself... Start by taking any object and observing it for a minute or two. That will be sufficient – and as you’re observing it – observe how you observe – what it feels like – what you’re really seeing – just to become a little more aware of the process. You’ll probably have a few big surprises.

“Like what?”

Oh – I don’t want to spoil the fun. It’s kind of similar with language too.

“In what way?”

Well, when you hear someone speaking to you – it’s really just sound vibrations and yet you hear words, and when people are chatting with one another – they don’t in fact pay attention to individual words, or string them together in the mind, weighing them, adding them up to to see what the person meant.

“They don’t?”

No, it would take too long. It would slow the flow of communication. In fact it’s a lot closer to telepathy or inspired guesswork. But don’t take my word for it – try it yourself. Observe yourself hearing – start feeling how the sounds are converted into words and meaning... There’s so much to discover if you just make the slightest effort.

“But what’s the point? I don’t need to – I can communicate perfectly well without trying to over-complicate things.”

Yes you can – but if you wish to become aware of other realities, it behoves you to start becoming a little more aware of your own. Then you realise that perception has more to do with interpretation than actually seeing things, and that the mind uses pre-registered patterns which may or may not serve you well. If, for example, your life is full of negativity, that might just be because you are perceiving as negative what another person might perceive as neutral or positive – so then it might indeed serve you to stop a while and investigate how you’re perceiving and whether it’s to your benefit...

I’m pleased to say that Margery later goes on to conduct a large scale audit of her seeing and hearing perceptional platforms, and makes enormous progress in opening up the great beyond – not by asking the government to build her a spaceship or a new telescope, but by enabling her perceptional platforms to start hearing and seeing what was previously either invisible or jumbled. It may seem like a mammoth task, but it’s in fact just a case of “one step at a time”, and furthermore, it’s enormous fun, once you’ve taken the first tentative step and got started.

Obviously Toby is given an enormous helping hand by Seraphim who is able to take him beyond his present perceptional limits, on a spin of “the universe” as they say...

“Oh my God... that was am...”

...azing! Wasn’t it just... Isn’t it! And the weirdest thing is that it’s all within you right here, right now.

“No Seraphim, you took me far beyond what I might be.”

Actually Toby that’s a mathematical impossibility. 0=1. I was only able to take you back to Source.

“There you go – you took me back to God – way beyond my here and now.”

Perceptionally yes, but in truth of fact, no. Though “source” is a term used by many to refer to God – it is, in fact, no more than zero point – the point at which/ from which you emerge as conscious-awareness from the...

“The what?”

I can name it but it’s not a great idea – because the name will take the limelight, and you’ll not feel what it is, but in any case, you know what I’m referring to. Taking you back to the zero point is merely coming home to centre, coming back to my nowest now, my herest here, and it’s a place you’ve never left, as you know.

“Yes, but it’s out of bounds to me and most of humanity – more’s the pity, otherwise we’d be going back all the time, and we’d probably not bother returning to this reality.”

Excellent, Toby, you’ve clearly stated the conundrum.

“Which one?”

Why it’s off bounds to you and many other humans.

“Er – what did I state – can you run it past me again?”

Yes – you see zero being one – if we’d be reluctant or unlikely to return to this reality, we ourselves by this fact alone, cut ourselves off from zero point perceptionally.

“And? That’s not stating very much is it? I mean – it’s obviously my fault I’m in the dark and can’t return to centre.”

Ah – but is there any fault involved?

“Well, it sure feels like it. Seraphim – you do not know what it’s like to be cut off from all that... It’s er...”

Hell?

“Precisely. And to know intellectually it’s all my own doing doesn’t make it any easier to handle... Of course I’m going to blame myself.”

Until you decide to start engaging the issue creatively – playing with it.

“Why on earth would I do that?”

Why on earth not? The minute you start engaging an issue creatively, imaginatively, with a certain amount of fascination and playfulness, you immediately activate a God vector.

“I do?”

Yes, of course. Even though you yourself may seem to be cut off from “God”, by acting as God, being creative, imaginative and playful, that act squares the circle.

“It does?”

More than that. It opens up a worm hole – to use the expression so beloved of scientists and sci-fi aficionados .”

“Really?”

Absolutely. It’s like the boardgame “snakes and ladders”. Even though you just moved one square forward, the ladder you landed on takes you right up to the top line. A quantum leap. And it doesn’t necessarily involve public recognition. You don’t have to become a famous artist, writer or musician – it just involves engaging whatever for you is the most natural, appropriate, delightful form of creative, artistic expression.

“But why? How does that help?”

Does it matter?

“I suppose not. The proof is, after all, in the pudding.”

Precisely. Instead of thinking you have to use a complicated scheme to get yourself back on course, or follow someone else’s guidelines,  sticking to a pre-conceived programme – you can just tune in to your own inspiration – if you’re willing to.

“And that’ll do the job for me?”

You bet. As soon as you’re engaging your imagination, your inspiration and your playfulness, you automatically exit the negative feedback loop that was keeping you down. More to the point, you start enjoying life again. It becomes more spontaneous. More magical. You no longer want to be done with it.

“Wait a minute – I never said I was suicidal or anything like that!”

No you didn’t, but you said that you were tempted not to come back when I took you back to zero point. And that’s hardly surprising.

“Er... you mean I’m a failure?”

No, you are bored. Horribly bored. You’ve felt that you have to live in a certain way – the way you were taught, otherwise everything would come crashing down. You’d be out of a job, destitute, friendless, a failure...

“Well I probably would if I started playing the banjo as a profession – you’ve never heard me.”

Haven’t I? But this isn’t about playing the banjo. It’s about tuning into your passion, your creativity, your joy, and once you unlock the gates of creative expression they take you into another level – which from the current 3D perspective can only be described as “multi-dimensional”.

“And how would you describe them from your perspective, Seraphim?”

As natural. Simply natural – and what could be better?  What could be higher? What could be more – than good old fashioned down to earth Mother Nature?

“Oh... I always thought that Mother Nature was just a little homely and dull. In any case, you’re using the wrong terminology.”

I am?

“Yes – Mother Nature refers to plants and animals – flora and fauna, not to our multi-dimensional abilities.”

Don’t be so sure.

“No?”

The only thing keeping you from your multi-dimensionality is a disdain for Mother Nature. As soon as you’re willing to entertain her again, to make her welcome in your daily life, everything changes.

“Oh... it’s so not what I thought.”

And what did you think?

“Well I kind of imagined the higher dimensions as gleaming spaceships, as portals and amazing psychic powers – like the cartoons we show our kids.”

Ok – that’s how it’s depicted for children – and there’s nothing wrong with that, but in practice it’s a lot closer to home.

“But I quite like gleaming spaceships and all that – and now you’re telling me I have to be boots in the mud and homespun yarn... I’m not sure I like the prospect.”

No – I’m telling you to create – and if you want to create shiny gleaming spaceships – then go for it. You’ll find after awhile that you outgrow that phase as every other. Then you’ll be able to fly to the stars without leaving your armchair.

“No...”

Just as soon as you’ve played hard enough, laughed long enough, created sufficient merriment and mirth to open a little wormhole of your own. Trust me Toby – the stars were never more than a single breath away. How could they be. Consider it mathematically 0=1.

“So you keep saying – but I rather believe that they’re millions of light years away.”

Yes, from the I-mind/what matters perspective they are indeed. And wholly inaccessible, the same as God or zero point, but as soon as you’re willing to engage your creation/I-magine drive – time and space fold up neatly into the palm of your hand, or whichever part of your anatomy you choose to use to make the quantum leap.

“Come on Seraphim. I can’t just dematerialise...”

Why would you need to? Just be yourself.

“Er – isn’t that what I’m doing now?”

Not exactly.

“Then what am I being if not myself?”

A version of yourself. A projection. An idiot.

“Whoa, wait a minute, hold on there Seraphim... what’s with calling me names all of a sudden? I thought you didn’t like vulgar expression.”

My apologies... I didn’t mean to upset you. I was using the term technically – not personally.

“I’m not sure that makes things any better. I don’t appreciate being called an idiot, even if that’s technically what I am.”

No. I understand. But you asked so I answered. Being an idiot doesn’t mean you’re stupid or foolish – not in the slightest.

“You could have fooled me.”

No, because 0=1 you cannot be any more an idiot than anyone else.

“You have an uncanny knack of not making me feel any better.”

Let’s try again. Follow my breath pattern please – it’ll only take a moment.

Seraphim takes a series of breaths – longer, shorter, deeper, shallow.

That’s better. Now it should be easier for you to hear the sense in what I’m saying, and not your paranoia.

“Ok – so how have I been an idiot?”

Well, by programming your mind, your self to think and respond in a certain way you effectively became more thing than person. This is an idiot – an it or thing person. Fundamentally, however, you are unaltered. Your self is and you are, without finity.

“So, why would I deliberately plan to become an idiot? Why?”

Yes – that’s the big question – now instead of rushing to find the external answer, let’s apply 0=1. Let’s come from our strength and knowingness as opposed to our perceived ignorance or unhappiness. Let’s assume we’re loving it.

“Why?”

Because that way we authorise ourself to experience this – to flip the heavy question into its light, sparkling answer.

[Toby takes a moment to feel the isness of moment] “It has something to do with creativity... and how the universe and I are One.”

Absolutely, the entire universe is your canvas. Coming from a state of almost complete darkness, being lost... alone, then soaring back into the light, as you’re about to do – the contrast, the depth is truly breathtaking – believe me. Fully conscious beings, as we all are in truth, line up for the privilege of being able make such an astonishing, majestic leap.

“Why? ...Is it like humans doing a bungee jump? I never could understand why they’d pay good money to throw themselves off a bridge.”

To experience the furthest extremes... to open up the greatest possible space in which to Be...

and for once Seraphim is lost for words. His silence, however, seems to say more. Toby feels it lapping against the shoreline of his mind – and something simply shifts, a connection, however slight, is made, and a tiny, but vastly significant “I get it” moment arises in the quantum field, where 0=1.

Meanwhile, however, back at g-nome portal, Roger is concerned with more mundane matters, but more of that anon.