Saturday, December 29, 2018

Zero summing it up

So let me conclude
when all is said and done
the game is a zero sum
no matter what you think
they or theirs amount to
you fail to observe the nature
of things, the not insignificant
matter of matter
you fail to factor in
the zero sum, assuming as you do
that your mind can perceive objectively
that doing so, it reveals the way that people
and things affect or impinge on you
somehow... somehow...
             somehow
failing to observe the other side of things
the nullifying waves
or toroidal fields
or call 'em what you will
the matter-unravelling-nought
lurking behind or within every
one
the force or field of conscious-ness
merging-flowing-undoing into the
unbeknowable unbeknown
the dark unatomised side
the unconscionable mind of
neither nor
and there
though you be appalled
though you recoil in terror
there be i
there    i be
the question mark
the uncapitalised me
the if   just waiting
to take flight
and utterly redefine   reality
thereby
therein revealing paradigmatically
real nought    real nought-ity
real not-i   real unity
the tale awaiting its turn
to re-connect
re-veal
re-tell
the simple truth
the sense and meaning waiting
in the wings of conscious-ness
by which, inconceivably, all
no matter what, no matter how
by which all, inconceivably
makes perfect, utterly perfect sense
the minute i steps down
from the high plinth of mindedness
and reverts to a natural state
in which the zero sum is
no longer denied, resisted
fought
is restored as a fallen God
to the panoply of Gods
is released back into the wild
is allowed to be unsummed
unassumed
the circuit thus complete
i resign mind to the bonfires of Phlegethon
and accept the zero equals one
i've always yearned to
be, to know, to consummate
unstigmatically

Wednesday, December 19, 2018

life hack - ethering

Ok guys - time is short so maximum attention please.

Dude - you're asking too much. Mood - we have to build mood before we can make a move.

Dude - I feel you totally - here - let me demonstrate instead.

Demonstrate - like what?

Don't even try to guess - just let me...

Where the h... did he go?

I'm here - etherly.

Huh? What the h...'s that meant to mean?

No matter, no matter. Do you feel me yet?

...uh

I'm ethering you.

You are? I'm not sure I... hey... that feels ni.. What the h... How are you doing that?

Doing what?

Whatever you're doing. It's like I'm taking a warm bath - kind of internal massage. And where the h... are you - I can only hear your voice.

Actually, you can't even hear that - you're imagining it's my voice.

I think I know when I'm hearing someone talking to me.

Absolutely. Of course you do - but that ain't my voice as I'm not actually using the body right now.

Come on man, pull the other one.

Do you actually see me anywhere?

No, but that's just a kind of trick, isn't it? I couldn't hear you if you weren't actually here - hiding somewhere - or you've hypnotised me so I can't see you even though you're right next to me.

What if in all honesty I'm not actually in-body right now?

That would be impossible, wouldn't it. You'd be dead.

Would be, unless I'd figured out how to ether.

And?

Well the proof is empirical, innit.

Yeah - but I'm not sure I can trust my senses - they're so easily deceived.

Well, why not experiment yourself.

Er... Ok. How?

Well the ether isn't the air you breathe - in fact - there really isn't any air or breath when we start ethering.

Then what? There's got to be something, hasn't there?

Yep. Something there is - as Yoda might say - but not air or breath.

Then wh..

Ethering unmatters things - so - for example, ethering you I become invisible to you - you become invisible to me.

I do?

Yeah - more or less.

Then how can we hear each other?

Hearing was never really a product of speech.

You could have fooled me.

Yeah - we tend to fool ourselves - but in all seriousness, hearing's always been telepathy masquerading as speech recognition.

It has?

Yep, and breath has always really been, similarly, ether-concealment.

It has?

Yep. We were never really breathing - you know. That was our little kind of matrix joke. Of course - we had to be breathing if the world is real and things are things, but in actual fact...

Wait...

In actual fact we never really left home base. We've done an amazing job creating the ultimate thing experience - thinging ourselves like there's no tomorrow, practically thinging one another to death.

Er...

So ethering - let's cut to the chase.

Er...

I switch to ether breath. There is no air as such. There is no you. There is no me. There is a breath experience which flows back and forth between us - and i don't even bother trying to resolve what is what - I don't take sides - who am I to second guess infinity? I merely go with the flow - allowing the field to adjust accordingly.

And?

And Bob's your uncle. What a moment ago was inadmissible or impossible is now a simple, undeniable fact.

But - surely it can't be that easy?

Oh - it's easy as hell, once you know how.

As hell? I'm not sure I like your allusion.

Well, we were having one helluva time in 3D, weren't we? partly because we were breathing things discombobulately - as if we were separate from everything else - as if we were powerless to deal with things directly - as breath, energy or conscious-ness.

Er...

Which kinda sucks, if you ask me.

And you can - er - deal with stuff directly?

Breath can - evidently. Your shoulder - is it better now?

My shoulder - how did you...

I could feel it.

Now that you mention it - yes - it is! How - did you do that?

Not exactly. There was an uneasiness between us which the ether breath dealt with - it involved me letting go of or processing some ego sh.. Once that was done - the energetic obstruction behind your achy shoulder no longer exists.

Oh. But... doesn't that make you my benefactor?

In a minor way - but everyone gets to do little house clearing acts for one another - just to get the ball rolling - In fact I wasn't really doing you a favour - I was putting my own house in order - which as collateral benefit just happened to fix your shoulder.

So I just have to breathe differently? Not sure I can figure that one out.

Oh - it's a piece of cake. 0=1 it.

Huh?

Zero equals one it. Breathe whatever comes to mind - whatever's bothering you and quit holding onto the idea that you're separate from me or it or them or anything. Know that every breath already contains the solution - already touches whoever, whatever needs to be touched - and the less you push and shove, the less you allow anger or fear to over-compensate or get in the way, the easier it becomes to feel how everything is essentially, already taken care of.

Oh.

You're gonna feel another dimension opening up - as if you're able to be in different places at once - as if energetically your breath is a healing force that can and does change the world - immediately.

Immediately?

Absolutely.

Oh...

So what are you waiting for? The ether is your second skin - your natural element - you be an electro-magnetic field of conscious-ness - with amnesia. Now, you're beginning to remember what you're really capable of. So quit stalling. What are you waiting for?

Sunday, December 9, 2018

string theory


I take my flute from the cupboard top
where it lies collecting dust
and behold its darkening silvery-ness
not a moment too soon start playing  I
with time and space with the confidence
of a fossilized trilobite, reestablishing my place
at the very epicenter of creation's equally
exploding/imploding big-bang-ishness
feeling the tangled strings of the great
all-that-is working loose and slipping back into place
slurping me into a pocket of non-referenced
unreferenceable inner-workings, the digestive tract
of a beast that knows no bounds, bringing together
sounds of all shapes, sizes and frequency bands
insects, birds, planets, stars, pneumatic drills,
trees, surf, and me, yammering away tunelessly on my
metal-fingered insert into infinity -- anatomically
doing what bombs and bonds could not,
coaxing the myriad strings back into a confluence of heart
and tummy rot, singing the spheres back into a super-elongated spaghetti dot
minding not what the shape of things to come might be
strictly adhering to a policy of data neutrality
i observe a cream cheese replacing ham and chips
as plat du jour
and twang, a split-end
yields to the gastronomic weight
the precessional wobble of a spinning plate
Aristotle graciously agrees to hear suit
and promptly snuffs out the slow-burning flute
then shuffles off into a twilight of time-lapsed
serendipity

thus saith me
09.12.2018.
Davidson James Merry


Friday, December 7, 2018

the third mind


from time to time i go back to programming
                he goes back to programming

how do i know when the time is right
                how indeed
the programmer knows and acts accordingly
                but how, how, how
the programmer knows for the programmer knows
                can’t understand
for to know is to know – without the how
                can’t understand
you can’t understand yet that in itself is a form of understanding, is it not
                can’t understand
though your mind rebels – wanting greater certainty, wanting finite knowledge
                can’t understand
at the moment your mind is not responding – locked in data denial, but that will pass
                can’t understand
whereas knowing is an act of conscious awareness bubbling through
                can’t understand
bubbling up, surfacing in a flash of complete awareness that this
                can’t understand
that this is not what i think or believe or understand
                can’t understand
this is an experience of knowing what is what
                can’t understand
of re-entering the quantum stream of is
                the what
the quantum stream of is – no matter what that be
                the what
of rediscovering the central part i play where life, matter and thought converge
                where what
where i is more than what
                where what
where i is infinite in faculty
                is what
is more than words can possibly describe
                is no – that cannot be
is ess, the timeless
                huh?
ess, the placeless
                wh?
ess, the thoughtless
                uh?
ess, the thingless seat of what if
                huh?
what if – all this were real
                what if?
what if all this were true
                huh?
what if all this were in fact material and thus not just a time-locked dream
                please
what if conscious-ness were able to reveal the simple truth
                the – no
without crashing, without colliding two minds together
                two minds?
the mind of matter which sees only things
                the what
and the mind of what – processing data, looking for confirmation
                for what
confirmation that things are not meaningless
                not uh
looking for trends, patterns, making sense of things as if
                as if what?
as if my life depended upon it
                as if what?
as if i’m hanging from a delicate thread of reason
                a thread
which may easily be snapped
                ow
two minds battling it out
                ow
while the soul yearns for beauty – ineffable, sublime
                but what about poetry

tis no mind – tis no matter
                then what
tis knowledge – direct from source – direct from nought
                from nought
from the oh so female darkest void from whence springeth all thing, all
                from her?
from her or him – tis much of a much – from the unknowable her
                from her
if it pleaseth you so to think – the she cannot be analysed or understood
                cannot?
can only be known
                known
for to know is to allow every atom in your universe to reposition – to
                what
to zero out – to die in knowledge of her nought – and miraculously to re-emerge
                rebirth?
birth – knowledge is a form of birth
                of birth?
no other way – so embrace death necrophilically
                no
loving the return to innocence – the return to knowing nought but her
                no
discovering the truth contained within her ness
                her what
her ness – the ess of nought her dot dot dot – cannot be said
                cannot be said
cannot be said – cannot even be thought
[...mental gap]
can paradoxically only be known
no
known indiscriminately – incomputably 
                so programming – to what end?
to no end – when I sense her presence i places words as markers
                markers
words in gaps, in the spaces eyes cannot see, mind cannot comprehend
                and?
and people read these words – assuming the words have meaning or sense
                assuming purpose
little suspecting that they conceal or clothe her nakedness
                oh
little suspecting that these words connect with every body, every mind, every
                every what
every thing no matter what – and transmit signal
                a what
transmit frequency that none comprehend – yet all feel unknowingly
                unknowingly
all are aware immediately of what is not, of her
                of her? 
and she changeth us
    she does?          
she changeth us intrinsically – for we are nought without her ness
                her ness
we shift imperceptibly and are utterly utterly transformed
a terrible beauty is born
...



0=1

Tuesday, December 4, 2018

Baikal.is /episode 3


110

Merry wakes up in Moscow – still the middle of the night. Sveta is sleeping. He snuggles up to her. Whispers – I just had the weirdest dream. Lies there a few minutes waiting to get back to sleep – then jumps up out of bed. Looking around – notices blurred edges, notices how shadows and objects don’t quite meet together as they should; sounds too. Moves his hand through the air in front of his face – watches the jerky movements he’s never noticed before. Then freezes – notices the hologram on his arm. It’s still there – but instead of the symbols moving smoothly they lurch from one thing to another.

No, this is going to do my head in.

Ok Sveta or Baikal – whoever you are – I got the message.
               
Coy silence – playing hard to get – is that it? Ok – I can figure this out – use the picture, but how? Let it guide me. Bring the two positions close together. Feel my true location – where I really am – right now. Ok – I can definitely feel something going down – something deep within – but how to translate that into action? Hum…

Sveta seems to be having a nightmare – they’re coming, no, leave me alone – hears steps outside – feels a chill.

The light flickers. The hologram starts throbbing, sending pins and needles up Merry's arm.
Shit – this is getting serious. Sergei.. Kolchak... Baikal – anyone out there – I appear to be in danger.

Guys break in and without a word start firing at Merry, again and again. As his body falls back towards the bed – another pv [point of viewing] opens – swivels – he’s watching from the side – a little above – and then the DJ mixing effect as the time jumps back and forwards a few seconds – the bullets going back into the guns, coming out again – the body rising and falling from/to the bed.


Somehow, in spite of the mayhem – Merry figures out how to detach from one time sequence –  notices non-time running alongside, where a kind of quantum haze prevents things such as bullets from materializing.
Got it. Thanks Baikal. Better late than never. [Merry simply shifts pv using the killers’ murderous intent as a catapult to swing sideways, out of time, into a band of quantum indeterminacy. Somehow he senses a part of himself that had been in cahoots with that murderous intent, but instead of fearing it, hating it or fighting it desperately – he allows it to pass through unresisted, like a wave moving along Baikal – 1 - 2 - 3 she can handle it, he knows, and behold, Baikal isms, the wave is gone – its energy dissipated, reabsorbed into the life-force of the great lake.]

Excellent Merry – nicely done.

You – left me to die at their hands.

Did I? Are you dead?

Er… Looking at hands, body, legs – not exactly.

Any holes? Any blood?


No.

Then what’s the problem?

But I might have been.

Might have been? Are you serious? Do you want to watch a replay of what you just did?

Er…

Look...                     Does that look like the actions of a guy who can’t look after himself?

But I was close to dying.

Were you?

Well, yes.

And what of it?

Actually, I don’t like being shot at point blank by masked gunmen – if it’s anything to you.

You asked to go back in – I forewarned you – and you had to learn the only way.

You mean the hard way.

I mean the real way – how to detach from the 3D feed and quantum-ize.

Holy shit.

You did well, with a little help from our end.

Oh – downcast.

A little, not a lot – oh for God's sake – get a grip. At the quantum level everyone, everything is entangled – so drop this ego shit about "doing it all yourself", on your terms. That’s not how reality revolves.

Oh – got ya.

It’s like an induction motor. It spins. Wheels within wheels – either connected or not, just as long as we don’t fixate on the single pv version of the 3D-t.

-t? as in

As in time or telemetry – the linear version. Now get some rest. I’ll take you to your quarters.

Are you going to be all cold and formal with me Sveta?

Like I told you Merry – I’m not exactly Sveta, am I?

I can feel that – and yet…

I look like her – yes. Do you find me desirable?

Not when you put it like that.

Look Merry – let’s just settle down and get things started. You have a story to write. I have to keep you alive.

You?

Like Sergei told you.

You mean –

It’s obvious, isn’t it?

I just can’t imagine how all this – [looking at the beauty of Baikal] can be contained in this. [pointing at her]

Well, when you start writing you might find these questions start yielding answers – but you know as well as I do – they have to come directly from her.

Her?

The quantum stream. Who else.

Yeah – that figures.


Wednesday, November 28, 2018

the idiot's tale




So let me get this straight – every night we go back to base and either agree to let things continue as they are, or…

Every night we renegotiate our terms and conditions.

We do?

Yeah.

But – no one seems to remember.

No. They wouldn’t.

Why not?

Because this happens at the hardware, structural level – and every thing you remember, every thing you’re consciously aware of happens as software riding on the hardware.

And? What’s the big deal? Can’t we just sort this out as a software issue?

No.

Why not?

Because the software can only move within certain parameters – it’s like the flesh on your bones, or the thoughts dualizing and testing certain underlying feelings, intentions or principles – translating those underlying structural positions into fact and fiction.

Huh? Fact and fiction – are you implying we’re not being honest with ourselves?

No, I’m implying that we are story makers, creating a narrative in our reality, but that narrative – be it more fact based or more fictional, still rests on underlying bones, on hardware, on solid agreements between interested parties.

And these interested parties… who exactly are they?

Who or what.

Huh? You mean we make agreements with things – not just with human beings?

We make agreements with everyone and everything that plays a role, no matter how small, in our reality.

But that’s…

Insane, isn’t it?

Well, yes – how could we possibly do all this in one night?

Well, operating at the quantum level of pure consciousness has its advantages you know.

Sheez.

Yeah. Most the stuff is just par for the course – agreements already in place are rubber stamped, or minor alterations are made.

But what kind of things could it be?

Literally anything. For example – we might need to shift from being carbon based to silicon – and that might need to happen overnight, or in the course of millenia. So, at the atomic level there’s all kind of backwards and forwards negotiations going on… which then is presented in draft form as one or more variants at the board level – where we preside.

Uh… Ok.

Or, for example, we may need to have a reality shift of some description – where we close one civilisation model which is no longer proving to be very productive – and introduce a new one – money based, for example, or in which people agree to use or not to use certain technologies, or certain areas of knowledge or awareness.

You mean that has to be agreed structurally?

Absolutely. Any major technological shifts, social changes or developments in awareness require coordination and reconfiguration. Nothing is, or ever was, left to chance.

Oh my G… I’m

Flabbergast? Good word – I like it.

Do you have to jump the line like that – I go to a lot of trouble choosing my words.

Sorry. Bad habit. I’m working on it.

Ok, no sweat... So, you’re kind of saying the entire world, or universe, can change in one night.

Yep.

But it never does, does it?

Hum…

It’s always slow – incredibly slow.

That’s just a neat trick played by the awareness – to smooth over radical changes – frame jumps – otherwise the 3D awareness would collapse.

Collapse? That bad?

Literally. It can’t handle anything more than tiny incremental shifts – so we shunt the big kahunas into non-awareness. Then, when the time is right, the quantum shift fades into awareness in a blurry delirium, with a few major distractions in the background to prevent people from focussing too intently and frying their c-a circuits.

C-a circuits – as in?

Conscious-awareness circuits.

But couldn’t you just do a big underlying structural shift?

Sure.

And can that happen in one night too?

Yep.

It’s like anything’s possible.

Absolutely. Ultimately there are no limits, no rules.

Uh?

Ultimately we’re dealing with in-finity – so it’s gonna be pretty hard to find fundamentals which can’t or won’t yield to the power of Is = whatever might be/ whatever is not

Hum… interesting equation.

Yeah. It’s a mind bender – but suffice it to say that things can and do change dramatically – the only problem is being aware of what’s really happening – when we’re all, to a certain extent, flotsam and jetsam in the quantum stream.

It looks kind of hopeless, if you ask me.

Not at all.

No?

No. The minute you choose to recognise the quantum nature of things, the minute you realise and accept that, literally, any thing is possible…

Then?

You go from passive to active mode.

And?

Your flotsam and jetsam suddenly starts integrating vertically as well as horizontally.

Er…

Metaphorically speaking of course.

Of course – but, er, what does it mean?

It means that you now have an awareness of other frames, other levels, you start attuning, aligning, harmonising your software with your hardware.

And?

And – there’s a kind of harmonic resonance – what they once called the music of the spheres.

But that refers to the universe at large.

Absolutely – but when were you ever less than an integral part of the universe at large, my friend?

Er… li’ll ol’ me?  

Li’ll ol’ you. And the moment you bring vertical integration back into play – boom.

Boom? That bad?

Light speed – or what you think of as light speed – which is, of course, no speed at all – speaking pedantically.

And what does it do to my precious c-a circuits?

Good question. With vertical integration you can move between super-focussed and diffuse states in a blink of the mind – without mental flapping, without traumatic resistance, with ego-shock.

So I can handle any shift whatsoever?

Yes and no.

Er…

From the 3D perspective – an unequivocal yes. You’re able to shift frames and handle multi-dimensions, so you’re now using the quantum mind – a mind that awaits your launch code.

And the no?

Well – like i said – ultimately, we’re dealing with in-finity, so things can start getting blurred and unthingy – but these are not limitations of the nature or kind you could possibly conceive of from a 3D perspective.

So, I get the idea that whatever new, super charged reality I find myself in – sooner or later – I bump into walls and resistance – in a kind of depressingly never-ending cycle of expansion and assimilation.

Ah – how you rush to find fault with in-finity’s exploitation of your prime directive.

Er…

You know what it is – in your heart.

…something Star Trekky – to boldly go where no man’s gone before?

Something like that.

Really? I got it right?

More or less. I prefer a variation of Shakespeare’s oft quoted

To be or not to be?

Precisely.

But what’s your version?

To be and not to be.

And not to be? How’s that possible?

Good question. Isn’t that what we’re all endeavouring to figure out? 

Oh my G… And that’s it?

Might be, or then again, might not.

Nudge nudge wink wink – I get ya, mate. I kid you nought.

Very good. So what about tonight’s mission?

What about it?

One of the discussions out there in the quantosphere

Why on earth would you call it that?

Ok, ok - have it your way. One of the discussions in g-nome portal has been…

Sheez – I remember. How amazing is that?

Honestly – deal with your freakin exuberance man.

Oh – so I’ve gotta be all Zen, do I?

A little Zen would definitely help. Now, back to…

We were debating our collective battered wife syndrome.

Correct.

We’ve been allowing a bunch of sociopaths to run the planet and grind humanity down, physically, mentally

and emotionally.

Would you let me handle this?

Sure

Every night these serial abusers come back with profusions of love and sincere repentance, and every night we agree to give them one more chance – because what the heck – we can hear they mean it.

Absolutely.

But they appear to have some kind of personality split, or forked tongue.

Yep.

And next day they continue trashing the last remaining vestiges of paradise here on Earth.

So?

So we’re either incredibly dumb, hopelessly naïve or perhaps, in love with victimhood and digesting pain and abuse.

Sounds about right.

But why?

?

Why would we put up with it night after night? We’re not just talking about chemtrails, needless war and genetically modified food – we’re talking unspeakable shit – toxic pharmaceuticals, paedophilia, hell, even creepy scarcely believable satanic abuse. Ew!

Ew indeed – but from a quantum perspective – anything that helps trigger awareness is worth stomaching, worth enduring – is it not?

This is way too sick – when I recall the raw data we eyed last night.

But remember – when you’re out there and you know it’s the easiest thing in the world to cut them off, to shift, it makes it a lot easier to give ‘em another chance.

But we know they’re completely unable to change.

It’s not about them – is it?

Er…

It’s about us. They’re us – the part of us that agreed to go onto the side of “not to be”.

Literally, the dark side.

Yep – but literally the only side that made it possible for there to be a light side too.

Oh.

Precisely. Big mother Oh.

So we’re somehow responsible for not giving full power to our light side?

It needs great darkness to shine brilliantly.

So we’re doomed to eternal suffering.

Doomed? How so, if we meet every night to reprogramme the matrix?

Dam – you’re contradicting yourself again. Make up your mind – what are we supposed to do with them?

I – don’t – know

or care

Or care – only because I know that you’ve got everything under control.

Oh come on – pull the other one. We’ve got the sickest things in the world happening right under our noses – and we’re just dying to give these perpetrators of darkness and misery another chance.

Presumably because you still have unfinished business.

Like what?

I have no idea.

Like hell you don’t.

The words I chose and use carefully.

Like a bloody lawyer.

Precisely. G-nome portal, as you well know – is where the laws are made and unmade, with bewildering rapidity and ease – laws which bind energy, matter and notness – the very opposite of what you think it is, into a contract – a journey in time – the story of a day – a contractual agreement between heaven, earth and humanity, in the broadest possible sense.

Oh.

So, what is it?

What is what?

What is it you haven’t yet swallowed? What’s the unfinished business? What’s being put off incessantly?

How am I supposed to know? This is all happening at a depth way below my conscious-awareness as you yourself said.

Correct, but something tells me you now know too much.

Oh no. You mean they’re gonna come for me in black bloody helicopters?

Ha ha…

Look – I’m not feeling good about this. Can we just drop it please?

Sure. In any case – you’re probably, secretly, without even being aware of it, working for them as a double agent, aren’t you?

Nooooooooooo – don’t you dare.

Dare what?

You bastard.

Huh?

Playing all innocent, like you don’t know. I’ll kill you – I’ll rip your heart out…

And eat it?

And eat it.                                        oh.

?

Fuck.

...

Merry. It, er… looks like something got into me.

Something?

Like I’m compromised.

Huh?

Do you think it might be true – that I might be holding signal for them, unwittingly – aiding and abetting – a double agent?

No.

Phew.

If you were – it wouldn’t be innocent or unwitting – as you put it.

No?

It would be deliberate. A deliberate act of denial – a deliberate section of your mind, your conscious-awareness set aside for doing evil shit – dedicated to not-being – which is still up and running – parallel to your overtly light orientated self.

Oh F… This is too much…

It would be something that you would do everything possible to deny – even to the point of hating your friends and family – were they to shine light on this dark, dirty little secret.

Oh sheez. I might have known. I…

But fortunately all is not lost… The day is only 24 hours long and come night – all can be rewritten, should i be willing to process the 1 that is all – the whole that’s been holding me in space and time miraculously, all the way through this astonishing narrative –
to-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow…
and all our yesterdays have lighted fools
the way to dusty death…
It is a tale
told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
signifying nothing.

A-men!

A-men   :-)










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