Tuesday, December 23, 2014

the witching hour

Welcome to the witching hour
when all the world
turns inside out
and round

Welcome to the space between
be                              tween
the gap                                
the pause that no one
knows is there

Well come to the underside of all you'll ever need to know
need to
no    

I invoke the isness of be
the blessed 
magi call      
madri gal
softly swirling all that is
infini              ty
stars planets nebulae



















stars coalesce   

galaxies trip off the tongue
like bats off the roof of a cave at
dusk










a murmur of starlings clowns around
a cloud of twisting weaving
up and down
numberless as the night
concealed within its
fractal code
of motional poetry
























 well met are we            here
at the gates
 of three        two
one

behold        
be        hold
it is    I am
moon
earth
Sun    
               
moon
earth
                    sun                       


Friday, December 19, 2014

"Flying is easy once you know how" - Dorothea says with a sunlight smile, "just feel the Force at work throughout!"

Dorothy... Dorothea...

What are you doing Merry?

Oh, hi Zie. "Dorothy, where are you?"

Who? Who are you looking for Merry? Who the hell's Dorothy?

Ah, there you are. Come on Zie. We're off.

Off? Where? What's going on?

Come on - I'll explain it all later.

Merry and Zie diappear through a fold in the fabric of space of time, vanishing from sight, leaving half a dozen casual observers head scratching... nonplussed. Still, strange things happen all the time, do they not, and the mind has the happy facility of ignoring, overlooking or conveniently forgetting anything that fails to make sense.

Where are we Merry? There shouldn't be a forest here... and certainly not one with trees like that.


Ah, welcome, dear Zie to the back-of-beyond.

But how did we get here? We've not gone anywhere.

True. 3 dimensionally we've gone nowhere at all, but that hasn't prevented us from crossing the vasts of space and time in the blink of an eye, thanks to the magiks of g-nomeportal.

? I thought that was just a website!

Thought - of course you thought, and what could have been more natural to think that while in your right mind, down in merry olde 3D, but here beyond zero point the facts have a habit of switching places with one another in order to conform with the magiks of Is, and thus the rules of physics no longer seem to apply. Think of it as a copy and paste exercise on your clunky computer, or zipping a file over the internet... Failing that - pretend it's all just a dream. Shouldn't be too hard, as we're much closer to what you'd think of as dreamland.

Dreamland? So this is really a dream?

In a manner of speaking yes, in another - no.

Then what?

Work it out for yourself. Investigate. Explore. Experiment. Discover. Learn. Reality will never be the same again - that I assure you.

But how?

How what?

How am I to investigate, explore, experiment, discover and learn?

However you like. You're free to do whatever you please. There really are no limits, bar your imagination and the law of Is.

Suddenly Zie has a kind of panic attack - like an acute sense of vertigo. Merry steps in, accompanied by a lady in a dark blue star spangled veil, and as suddenly as it came, the attack has passed - and the veiled lady vanished with it.

What was that? Where did it go?

Acclimatisation. You're still finding your feet. You'll be fine shortly. If it happens again just sit down on the ground and feel the Earth under-butt, or you could even roll over onto your belly and try wriggling and writhing like a worm. That'll definitely put you right in a matter of seconds.

Er... Ok. If you say so - but are you planning to leave me?

No, not today - but you'll be coming here on your own, now that you know how.

I will?

Yes, of course. Dorothea has seen to that.

She has? Er... who is she?

She's... actually, I'm embarrassed to say I don't really know.

You don't know?

No. Nobody does. Dorothea is Dorothy, or mathematically dot3... But does it really matter who she is? The main thing is you've now met her and if you call she'll come and help you cross the quantum stream.

You mean she's a kind of ferryman?

No Zie. I mean she is she. Why insist on trying to make her into something comprehensible. She's not a number to reduce to the lowest common denominator. She's mysterious and magical. She is mistress of all that lies beyond zero point. She is gatekeeper and guide, confidant and companion, if one you need, midwife of the quantum stream.

Oh. Then she's er... good, is she?

Good?

She's not er... evil or demonic?

Oh, that's what you mean! Merry erupts into tinkling laughter, which rings like a bell all around the chamber Merry and Zie now find themselves in.

Did I say something funny? Zie asks, somewhat awkwardly.

Oh, my apologies Zie. Nothing personal, you know - just the idea of Dorothy being demonic... and again Merry erupts in gay laughter.


A moment later Merry grows calm and strangely serious - almost absurdly so - causing Zie to giggle, somewhat nervously.

No, Zie. Here in Other, the great Beyond, there really is no good or bad dichotomy. To pass through the eye of the needle, the zero point, all that dualistic stuff needs must be left behind.

So only enlightened people can get through?

Oh no - we're not all saints or enlightened masters - we may have unresolved duality back in 3D but that's where we work through our personal issues, whereas here we have other business in hand.

You do? Like what?

That, dear Zie, is what you're here to learn. You've already had a few clues, but...

What?

It's really whatever you make of it. Bear in mind that beyond zero is the other side of 3D, so whatever you do here has an impact on what's happening, going to happen or has already happened in your life back there.

You mean I can even alter my past?

As I said - it's an equation - or a kind of geometration.

Not good Merry - you know how I feel about maths.

That's no problem. Look Zie, it was really my job just to make sure you got here safely. What you actually do with it's your own business, so, er... Zie adjusts his demeanour to one of great gravitas and solemnly proceeds: Welcome to Other...

Other?

or Story...

Story?

Dreamland...

How many names do you have for the place?

As many as there are places, you see, Zie, the difference between the back-of-beyond and 3D is that...

What?

Wait a moment - I'm trying to show you.

Dorothea appears alongside Merry and the two of them lead Zie through a number of different settings, positions, modalities, phases - each of which seems to stimulate or relate to a different part of his body, until he's left tingling all over... and completely bemused. His mind has, as it were, been turned completely inside out. It now feels as if the universe is inside and his reality is on different branches of the tree he's dimly aware of being.

Worlds within worlds - Zie is heard muttering to himself - a vacant, almost imbecilic expression on his face.

Worlds within worlds - he repeats.

That's right! - Merry echoes cheerfully, completely undisconcerted by Zie's obvious circumlocational mind of state... Worlds within worlds - or vice versa if you turn the objective around.

Oh? Zie snaps back, unexpectedly. I can do that?

Yes, of course. Whyever not?

I don't know... I never thought of it.

Beyond-Zero has no fixed reference point - it is I am. Remember?

Oh yes. It is I am. But what was that I've-no-idea-what all about Merry a moment ago? A kind of initiation?

Yes, you might say so. A kind of birth. You've now connected back into your dot dot dot not-what.

My what?

You know that no word can meaningfully describe what you've just experienced. In a sense it was rediscovering your body here in Other, or likewise I could turn that around and say that Other has reconnected with your youness. The relationship between the two is fluid and interchangeable to say the least.

Oh God... how am I meant to find my way through all this beyond sense and reason.

Story has a way of growing you into place - like a tree. The sense of what is and who I be unfolds as you make your way through Story. Bon voyage, dear Zie. May the Force be with you.

The Force?

Yes, the Force.

Oh - I thought that was a symbol of good as opposed to evil.

Thought, you thought, and well you might - but give yourself time and space to join the dots - and I assure you the gates of reason will fly of their hinges and turn into the white flapping wings of wonder and i-magination. In the meantime, I entrust you to Dorothea.

Zie and Merry are joined by Dorothy once again. Now she is as big as the sky and takes them up in her star spangled veil, lifting, transporting them through the allness of Is, until Zie is reconstituted, reborn in 3D with a somewhat shattered sense of continuity.

Ah - there you are Merry... he says, evidently unaware of all that has just passed. I thought you wanted to do some 4D training with me...

As I do, as I do. Now lean back and allow yourself to float into an Other.

An unexpected nudge from Merry and Zie is falling backwards, backwards, backwards - but somehow fails to connect with the ground...



Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Introducing the 4th dimension


No it's not, Merry - I tell you it's time.

Ok Zie.

What do you mean "OK"?

Ok. It's Ok.

But you think you know best. You think you're right. You think...

Zie, lighten up a moment. Does it really matter what I think? I'm just one of billions of people - all who are doing their own thinking.

Yes, but it's what you think that bothers me.

Hum.

What?

Merry takes a deep breath and sinks into a state of absolute inner stillness - literally in one breath.

How the hell do you do that Merry?


Merry looks at Zie with a strange detachment. Nothing matters - that's what the peaceful gaze conveys in a gentle, loving way.

Zie's anger and frustration is gone - just like that.

So where were we?

You were talking about the 4th dimension. I was freaking out, insisting it's time, based on what I've been taught all my life.

Yes.

It's bizarre. Why would I believe that time is the fourth spatial dimension?


Why not?

Because it's completely illogical.

True - but that's never stopped people from believing anything, has it?

No, but time's so obviously not a spatial dimension.

True.

I guess it's because we had to have an answer. We needed to say it was something - admitting we didn't know was unthinkable.

True - you had to say something, but why not the truth? Plenty of you guessed it.

The truth? Come on Merry! You know we can never say the truth when it threatens the existing paradigm.

Yes, until we're ready to let go.

And me? Am I ready? I was freaking out a moment ago. If you hadn't stepped in and grounded me I'd be screaming at you now, wouldn't I?

Oh, do you think so? Let's have a look, shall we? I'll put you back.

Merry takes a few sharp breaths and releases Zie back into the emotional state he was a moment or two before. In his anger and frustration Zie has no recollection of what has just passed.

You can't just say that zero is the 4th dimension. That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard. Everyone knows that time is the fourth dimension.

True. Most people see time as the fourth dimension, don't they, but how logical is that Zie?


How logical?

Yes. I mean - think about it for half a moment if you would. Three spatial dimensions pointing horizontally, the x axis, vertically, the y axis, and then the z axis giving us depth.

Well? What other dimension could there possibly be if not time?

Well just because we aren't seeing it doesn't mean we have to co-opt time to be our 4th spatial dimension.

I don't see why not...

Well a dimension is like a sense - we have five senses, don't we.

Six if you believe in an extra, psychic sense.

True - the sixth sense is still considered a way of feeling, even if it's a bit different from the other five.

So what?

Well in what way can time be seen as spatial? Surely the fourth dimension of space, if it exists, has to be another direction?

I see what you're getting at. Logically it would have to be, but maybe time actually is a kind of space - moving, departing or decaying space.

I don't think it works Zie. Time can't be a spatial dimension in the same way speed can't be a colour, or laughter a sense.

Ok - I follow you Merry - but that doesn't help us to clear up the missing 4th dimension.

Well once we stop adhering to the time fallacy, it shouldn't be too hard to find the solution.

Not too hard? You've got to be kidding. If it were so easy to find the 4th dimension people would have done it long ago.

As I'm sure they did.

Then what is it?

Nought.

You're not still expecting me to believe that are you? How can nought be a dimension? It's just a point - the zero point where the three axes meet.

Precisely. It's just a point when viewed from a three dimensional mindset, but once you're ready to open up Nought - to embrace the zero point - it reveals an axis, it elongates into the missing 4th dimension - hidden in broad daylight.

But someone would have thought of that Merry.

How could they? No one could think of what the zero point represented until the right moment...

Which just happens to be now, you're saying.

Which just happens to be now.

So what? What's happened to change things.

A shift in consciousness.

Eh?

Around the year 2012. We focussed on the Mayan calendar - the 21st December 2012, but what's in a date?

I don't know. You tell me.

Presumably it's the point in time at which the three axes finally joined up.

So there you go - you're making it sound like time is the missing link - the 4th dimension.

No. Time is not a spatial dimension in any sense whatsoever... but if our consciousness finally reached the zero point at which the x, y and z axes meet on precisely 21st December, 2012 - that would explain why we mistakenly treated time as the missing link.

So what happened when the three axes met?

Well, firstly, they never really met. It's only our consciousness that brings them together. Our conscious awareness creates reality.

Er... Ok. What then?


Our conscious awareness came of age - let's suppose - on precisely 21st December, 2012 - or thereabouts... and from that point forth the 4th dimension has become readily accessible.

So you mean it was accessible before?

Yes. It was possible to burn through time - and arrive at the zero point in the past - but it was much more difficult. Now it's readily available. Fundamentally our conscious awareness has brought the 4th dimension into play.

And what, then, is it? I don't see people walking through walls? Space is just the same as it ever was.

I wouldn't be so sure of that Zie.

Well I've not noticed anything.

Look at the bigger picture. Look at how more and more people are becoming aware of a fundamental unity... how they are getting increasingly interested in the mind and consciousness.

Well? What's that got to do with the 4th spatial dimension?

Because the 4th dimension is not outwards. It's leading the other way.

Which way?

Well think about the zero point. You're looking at it. It represents the centre of your consciousness - the focal point of your vision. The "here I am" if you like, or x marks the spot.

Well?

Well - it either represents your centre of perception, or it represents x marks the spot - a "there it is" spot.

Well? What are you trying to say?

The 4th dimension connects the two.


What two Merry - for God's sake speak more clearly.

The it is and the I am.

The what? Jesus Christ, Merry!

x marks the spot - it is - and the centre of perception - here I am. Both are essential. You can't have one without the other - or not in 3 dimensional space.

I thought you just said it's 4 dimensional.

Yes - it is now, because we've entered the quantum age - and with that has come the realisation that you can't separate the observer from the equation - from what is under observation - neatly expressed as: it is - I am.

And that, you're saying, is the 4th dimension?

Yes.

Rubbish. Utter nonsense. You can't say it is-I am is a spatial dimension. Where's the space in that?

The zero point leads ever further, deeper back into the conscious awareness - and thus you - your very awareness becomes and/or reveals the 4th dimension... On the one hand you're looking out at space. On the other it collapses through the event horizon of your conscious awareness's zero point becoming the vacuum that informs all that is - ad infinitum.

To infinity?

Obviously. Like all the axes, the one leading into your conscious awareness extends to infinity, otherwise known as 0=1. Where else do you think the magical mysterious conscious awareness could emanate from?

But this turns everything on its head. It's like we're the infinite projecting down through the zero point into 3D space.

Yes, and vice versa. It has to be biologic - flowing "both" ways... but one step at a time.

And what's to stop there being a 5th dimension, or a 6th?

Nothing whatsoever. Once we've accepted the 4th dimension, then it's just a case of opening up the conscious awareness step by step, exploring the it is-I am - putting flesh on the zero point, making something of Nought - so to speak. We can start with the realisation that everything we're seeing out there in 3D space has to be encapsulated in the 4D axis, or perhaps it should be described as a spiral - emanating from within.

My God.

Exciting, isn't it!

Exciting?! It's positively insane, if only it were true.

Of course it's true - the zero point only looks like a point because we're looking straight down the barrel of the gun... er... axis. In other words, it is-I am, as soon as I'm aware there's an axis emanating from mind's eye, my perceiver's perspective - I no longer have a problem understanding why the mere act of observing affects the outcome of whatever is under observation...

Er...

We're always assuming the x, y and z axis are "out there", before us, an objective reality, but that's the classic optical illusion - isn't it? We have this huge gaping blind spot...

I er...

The toroidal field concealed within the i axis, which informs and feeds back through into everything we're able to see, hear, feel, taste, touch or experience, here in reality until, that is, we become acutely aware of this and start mediating the two... but let's leave that for another day. In the meantime, test it yourself.

How?

Meditation on the i axis... or the zero point.

By the i axis you mean a kind of line connecting the north and south pole of this toroidal field the conscious awareness sits astride.

Couldn't have put it better myself Zie!

No idea how I can meditate on a toroidal field I cannot see.

Ah - but you have to be able to feel it, don't you?

I... I don't know.

No need to know - just feel - feel the infinite i axis reaching back through every fibre of your I am - connecting with every fibre of the it is through your zero point, whatever that might be... your mind's eye perhaps.

Ok.

Or failing that - take a look at these simple optical illusions - they're about as clear an indication as you'll ever need of the biologic nature of perception in which the mind creates as much as the eye or I sees...






















Monday, December 15, 2014

Doing nought - beautifully

Everyone's looking for the answer out there.

Everyone's looking for the device that can transform the world - whatever it might be. For one person it's a replicator, that can replicate anything else - like a 3D photocopier, for someone else it's a free energy device - lots of those kicking around if you take the trouble to look, and otherwise want free travel - some kind of a UFO. Whatever excites you most... a quantum telephone or computer - they're pretty cool - contact anyone anywhere in the universe with zero time lapse, or limitless parallel processing - a computer so powerful it can tell us what questions we should be asking rather than simply helping to find the answers.

But if you're not very technical - that kind of sucks. No one wants to be reliant on other people for their free lunch, or their ticket to the stars. Of course, non-technical people can make huge, cosmic discoveries in other areas - new ways of growing food that don't require pesticides or other chemicals, new healing modalities using consciousness, sound, light, crystals - whatever turns you on - we have a limitless capacity to create. Cleaning up the planet - removing the blight of Fukushima and other nuclear power plants - all this can be done using quantum age technologies. There's so much work to be done. Now that we're ready to reconnect zero point conscious awareness, we need to get our planet back in order, because it's far, far more than just a rock or a resource.

So it's great to see progress being made on so many fronts, in so many ways. People are doing their stuff. Awesome.

Me? I miss the wide open spaces - inter-galactic travel would definitely be nice, but it's not essential for me. I miss my Self. Living in this life in this body has been kind of isolated - being cut off from all that I be, all that I am, so here goes - it's time to reconnect.

It can be done in so many ways... it's really up to you.

The main thing is never to force the system. Think of yourself as a child. Be respectful. If the child is afraid and starts to cry - then back off - find another way - there's always another way - but never abuse the inner child - because doing so defeats the whole object - which is a magical journey rather than a final destination.

So, everything limiting you right now is perfect. Those limitations are what you're going to use, to work on, to engage in order to build your bio spaceship.

Er?

You know what I mean, Zie.

Not really Merry.

Well, reconnecting the conscious awareness, becoming your Self again, the real Self, is tantamount to building a spaceship, as the real Self is not limited to this particular reality that we're now in.

Er... I don't feel limited.

No, ignorance is bliss, is it not. People in the middle ages who never washed and were covered in fleas probably didn't feel dirty - but we would if we went back there. So you'd only feel limited or trapped if you had memories or glimpses of another state. Anyway, building a spaceship is a nice kind of metaphor because your body is so much more than a 3D biological house.

It is?

Absolutely. Once you realise it's capable of... well what isn't it capable of, in fact?

We can't fly - that's for sure.

We'll see about that Zie. Every can't is only true as long as you're adhering to certain protocols of limitation - all of which were voluntarily entered into in order to experience 3D reality. Sometimes we hear people blaming ETs or overlords for imposing these limitations on us, but if you were able to see your inner light you'd realise that isn't strictly true. Nothing can truly be imposed without your personal consent.

So I gave my consent to be a dumbed down version of me. That sounds kind of dumb.

Yes, but think what this has done to the universe.

Er, what?

It's made it huge.

It has?

Yes. The deeper we sank, the further down into the darkness, the higher the light appeared to be in the sky - the further away the stars, until we started believing we needed some kind of ship to reach them.

Which we do.

Which we do - but it just so happens that our primary ship is, in fact, the human body.

I thought we established the fact that it can't fly.

Until we call the protocols of limitation into question - you see - the whole point of sinking down was to expand the universe - to create a huge, vast dome - a resonating chamber for the conscious awareness - but that's only possible - that only really happens if at some point in the future we reconnect - completing the circle.

Er... why? Why can't we just be the kind of martyr giving our life so the part of our Self that stayed up there enjoys the benefits of our darkness.

It doesn't work like that.

It doesn't?

No.

Why not?

Because you and the "higher Self" are one.

And?

And what is split asunder at one point in time, must be made whole again - otherwise it couldn't have been split asunder.

Why not?

Because you can't really separate one from one. It's fractal and it's a hologram - and I really don't know how that's going to help - but these two words are kind of the key.

Not to me they're not.

Me neither... they sound a bit confusing I know - but let them be there for the moment - overhead. Think of a child learning to read. It doesn't really understand the symbols at first. It just looks at them and sees a kind of pattern and copies the sounds its mother or father is making. So, at first we have to kind of fake it - or take it on trust - and then things start making sense when we have a little movement, a little momentum.

Ok. So I'm a child learning to read. Back to basics.

Yes, that's about right. So, basically, in order for you to be here - there's a wheel and...

And what?

Well at the point where you are - you seem to be disconnected from the rest of the wheel.

Why's that?

Because you're the point where it connects with the Earth, and your experience of being here, connected to the Earth is so intense you don't feel the rest of the wheel - but it's still there. Were it not there - you couldn't be here.

If you say so.

More than that - unless you have already completed the journey - and made it back home - you cannot be here.

What - like time travel.

Yes. Because the wheel is spinning outside time. You only have time here on Earth at the point where the wheel touches down on the Earth plain creating what seems to be a line going back in time. But you see, in truth, your past, if you have a past, is not the wheel's track on the Earth. That's just a mark in the dirt.

So where's my past?

It's upstream - the part of the wheel that revolved, turned, came into the point where you now are.

Oooo kay - if you say so - but it sounds incredibly vague.

Yes. Moving swiftly on. Think of it like an electric circuit - unless the circuit is complete - the electricity can't flow.

Ok. That's understandable.

So, There can be no real point of separation or incompleteness - only what seems.

So I seem to be stuck in this lesser part of me - but that's just a kind of illusion.

Yes.

I don't see how that's going to help me get back home.

Well, you have to start by realising there's really no where to go. You're already here. It's more just a case of feeling the circuit, feeling the wheel, feeling the...

The what?

Er... the not-what.

Merry - don't do this to me. Speak sense or I'm quitting.

Not-what is sense. Look, Zie, I can't say what it is, because any "what" I might give you will fix your mind here in the Earth plain - that's the way "what" works. It's a processing tool... a bit like the digestive system. It helps you stay here in 3D - otherwise you'd flip back into All that Is - your Oneness.

I would?

Yes. It's actually really hard keeping you down here. At first when we set up this system we couldn't get the consistency right - it wasn't sticky enough - and the beings never really got the full Earth contact.

They didn't? They were still kind of cosmic?

Yes, which meant they weren't able to generate Nought.

I beg your pardon.

You're generating Nought or space - aren't you.

Er... I don't know.

Well, how else do you think the universe has become so big. Why else do the scientists say it's expanding. I mean, think about it - expanding relative to what? It just means that you're collapsing the zero point ever further and deeper into matter, which makes matter - the material universe look like it's expanding. So you're already a spaceship.

In reverse.

Yes, in reverse. Flying backwards into the darkness of uncreated matter.

Oh my God.

Yes, but it reaches the limit, does it not.

I don't really know.

Well, it must do - otherwise you'd not be talking with me now.

Oh - I suppose so.

You see a generation ago you'd be busily living in the equation, with little or no awareness of...

Of what?

Oh - you know I can't really name it - dot dot dot - how's that?

Dot dot dot? Sounds kind of vague.

Er... dot3... dorothy - any better?

Yeah - so people a generation or so ago had no awareness of the other side of the equation - and now we do. That's technology for you.

Yes, you see the allness, the isness, the electricity of consciousness cannot be excluded indefinitely. Sooner or later it seeps back in. It's like digging a hole on a beach. The seawater will appear in the bottom once you dig deep enough, or the hole will fill in a few hours, once the tide comes in again. Notice the way that everything in nature is cyclical - like a wave - rising and falling.

Ok. But what's that got to do with me being a spaceship?

Well, for the last hundred years it's all been technology - external to you - or that's how it's appeared. Of course, appearances can be and are deceptive. You've gone through huge changes in your wiring - that're ongoing.

They are? I've not seen anything happening.

Well, our brains are different today to what they were a hundred years ago. IQs are higher. You're more able to think in terms of global issues - joining the dots, seeing how everything is related.

Ok - so there have been internal changes too. But how? What's the mechanism.

It's like your computer getting automatic updates and upgrades. It comes though the pipeline, through the quantum vortex - a kind of internet.

It does?

Yes. How else?

I don't know. I'm struggling to see this.

Look - your system doesn't really exist the way you see it. For a start, the atoms that you're made of are 99% empty space. Furthermore, you flash on and off millions of times a second. If I slowed down your vision you'd see yourself disappear - literally - there's nothing there - just energy and a kind of expectation.

A what?

An expectation. In your other quantum state - you're neither here nor there. You could be and in fact are quite literally anywhere. But then time crashes back, or your conscious awareness collapses back into material reality - just like a wave breaking on the shore - and for the duration of the interval we refer to as "time" you're here physically.

But...

Yes, it's kind of weird isn't it. But don't worry about it.

Don't worry? You're telling me I don't really exist. I'm just an expectation in a quantum field of not-what... and you expect me to be calm.

No, I expect nothing whatsoever - I assure you. You're free to feel angry, upset, afraid - these emotions are helping you to reconnect.

Oh.

But you can help in other ways.

I can?

Yes. You see, I've done something very simple but incredibly powerful.

You have?

Yes. I've sown a seed.

Er - where?

In you.

Me?

In your mind. I've given you a few simple ideas - just that.

Because I'm too stupid to handle anything more complicated?

Because the most powerful ideas are always incredibly simple, and you are able to handle them - you'll see. In fact - you're already doing so unofficially - which is why you're feeling some emotions - uncertainty, excitement, confusion to name a few.

It doesn't look like that's "handling the situation" - more like I'm being adversely affected.

Yes, that's how it looks - down on the ground - but as a technician I can assure you that you're responding admirably. It's laying the groundwork for lift off.

It is?

Yes. It's a relatively small step - a tiny quantum leap - like a spark jumping from one side to the other - thereby igniting the fuel in the air.

Bang. An explosion?

Oh - nothing so dramatic. Just a little leap into...

Dot3 - the quantum stream?

Yes.

So what do I need to do?

Basically nothing - it's all been programmed in - from the start - and you're controlling things right now - from the future and the past - so to speak.

My God.

If you mentally open yourself to your future and past - which is kind of up there on the wheel - ahead of you or behind you - then that certainly helps. Imagine how you're coming back to yourself from the future - from mission accomplished - from a place of confidence, knowingness and happy ease - providing assistance - a guiding hand - but it doesn't have to be any more than that - because remember - this is fractal hologram - which means that even though you think you don't know right now - in fact you have to know everything, regardless.

Ok. Merry - can I ask you a personal question?

Sure, fire ahead.

Are you in any way... part of me - you know - my future Self.

Good question Zie. What do you feel?

I... Zie has an existential moment - recollections, feelings, things he half remembered, half knew, a number of dreams which shift the pieces on the chess board of his mind. He evolves - changes - knows things that a moment ago were concealed... but then quickly forgets where his mind has just taken him. These things can take a while to root themselves into the conscious awareness.

Ok Zie - so here's a little exercise for you. Repeat out loud or mentally - "my body is more than just a body. Truly it's a spaceship connecting me with everyone and everything, truly it contains all that is - including the entire universe."

Are you sure about that Merry?

Absolutely. I've tested it out myself. We'll take this further once you've got the hang of the basics.

Ok - so what do I have to do.

Start with your fingers - your nails, the space between your fingers, the space between your nails and your fingers - so we have what and not-what, we have 1 and we have zero - and we move between the two - just gently oscillate between what and not-what - feeling the energies - the electrics, the magnetics, the isness... and don't forget to pay attention to your breath - which is the recorder.

It is?

Yes - your breath records everything you're experiencing. If you don't pay attention to it you'll have no way of recalling what you experienced.

Really?

Yes - you may have just flown across the universe to another star, but unless you can recall it using your breath it's as good as lost in space... so you have to feel the breath - and allow it to open up into a kind of dimension.

How?

Just feel the quality of your breath at the same time as you're feeling your body - your hands, fingers, wrists, the palm and the outer side of your hands. Do you see the pattern emerging.

Kind of... it's like thing and no thing, projection and hollow or indentation.

That's right - or you could say male and female. So in the same way geographically there's a mountain and a valley, likewise your body has male and female spots all over it - and lightly touching these with your conscious awareness, feeling them, breathing them - you start to open up the multi-dimensionality of your body when you apply breath to the equation. You find that you are, in fact, the gateway to the universe - that you don't have to go anywhere - in fact - it's all here - within.

My God.

Yes - pretty awesome isn't it. So keep a sense of balance and proportion. Go outside and exercise. Don't push it too hard. Listen to your body and your intuition. If you find adverse reactions - then ease up.

What kind of adverse reactions?

Oh anything... a headache, a sense of disorientation, or dizziness... friends getting annoyed with you.

Oh they often get annoyed with me.

Yes, but if you get too spaced out - they'd notice and might start worrying. That would be a sign that you're not keeping things balanced.

And what then?

Nothing. Without balance you'll actually slow things down - because we're not really going anywhere at all. We're opening up Nought - that which appears not to exist. This can't be done by pushing and showing - because you'd be pushing on a string. It needs to be done with grace and compassion - loving yourself and the universe.

The universe?

Yes, it's not going to feel very comfortable if you start forcing your way in when you're not ready yet.

Oh.

You need to acclimatise. You need to match her frequencies - to pass through her crystal portals of light - and that is best done by not-doing.

Not doing?

Yes, doing Nought - in a playful, magical, loving and perhaps even sensuous way.

Oh!

Precisely - oh... as in zero...

As in Nought.

Positively so.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

letting go



Letting go – I'm letting go – play with this...
don't be in such a hurry to reach the end.
There is no end.
There is no next line.
There is no – and no is – Letting go.


No... Play with this: eN  O. Give yourself time
to say the word aloud, to feel the word,
to let it dissolve, to let it melt in your
mind, in your heart, in your
breath.



Letting go – I'm letting go – play with this...
Unbeknown... Nothing... None.



Letting go – and do the same again –
experience the word-phrase,
f.e.e.l it in your mind, your
heart, your breath, feel it fade
and dissolve, note the resistance,
the restriction that wants to keep
you holding on, moving forward,
rushing headlong into something new,
and smile.., and sigh.., and know
 that you are letting go,
just letting go.



I'm letting go” I tell myself,
letting go I’m – echoes in my soul
letting go, ever deeper and further within –
and the stars in the sky,
letting go
and the earth's four corners,
letting go
and the moon and the oceans,
letting go
and all that I know,
letting go
and all that is,
letting go
and all that I be,
letting go
and no, eN O – the letters sound
and no... nO...
know



Monday, December 8, 2014

Toroidal vision

Don't you mean television Zie?

No Pi.

But this "toridal vision"...

Toroidal - as in the torus.

What torris? I've never seen a torris. I can't for the life of me imagine what a torris is.

Ok Pi... let me present you with not one, but seven. You can scroll down to see the others, if you like.


Oh - so that's what you meant... A kind of doughnutty thing.

Correct. 

Well why didn't you say so?

Er... I think I did. Torus... they're you go - I've said it again.

No, doughnutty thing - that would have been much easier to understand.

Ok Pi, I can see I have my work cut out for me. Surely it wasn't this difficult when Merry was instructing me.

Merry? Who's that?

Oh, just a friend of mine.

Just a friend or an instructor? Make up your mind. What was he teaching you?

Nothing that I didn't already know.

How bizarre. 

Yes, it gets more bizarre the more you think about it.

About what?

That we basically know everything - except for the fact that we know everything.

Well if we basically know everything - then what's the problem - why do we need instruction?

Because we're convinced that we don't - that we can't possibly know everything - and so we tend to persuade ourselves that we know next to nothing - and live accordingly.

How pessimistic. I don't know where you get that idea from Zie.

Pessimistic? Surely the opposite!

What? The opposite of pessimistic?

Affirmative.

You mean optimistic?

I guess so.

How can the opposite be true? How can it be optimistic to live with the idea that we've persuaded ourselves that we know next to nothing. I mean, it's all very well being ignorant if that's your natural state - if that's what you really are - but imagine being ignorant if in fact you're chock-full of knowledge, bulging at the seams with it. That would be like a billionaire living in poverty just because he'd forgotten he had all that money. It's depressing.

Or the opposite.

There you go again - playing at being contrary. How can it fail to be depressing if someone's living as a lesser version of what he-she really is. The trapped and wasted potential - it makes me feel quite sad you know.

Yes, I do, and I think I know why.

What do you mean Zie?

You seem to be having an emotional reaction - like I've hit a nerve or something.

What? You don't mean this applies to me?

Of course it does. You're no different from anyone else. We're all using just a few percent of our real cognitive powers - like an engine running on it's emergency supply system in survival regime.

Oh Zie, stop. You're upsetting me.

Pi has an intense emotional response. For four or five minutes he sinks into a place of sadness and sobs away, like he's the last survivor of a plane crash, all alone on a deserted mountainside - not sure whether to be thankful or regret his close escape from near-certain death.

So what do you in fact mean by toroidal vision? - asks Pi out of the blue, apparently recovered.

For a moment Zie looks vague as he comes out of meditation. Then his mind snaps back into place.

Oh that... well Pi, what do you think it means? You've seen one of the illustrations. Here's another to refresh you. 


Oh - that's so beautiful.

Isn't it. I'm deeply appreciative towards this and all the artists who provide these amazing images. It's a great service to humanity.

Mmm! - Looking at this - it's somehow uplifting - I can't think why.

Yes. So simple and yet so profound, like the yin-yang symbol, only three dimensional, showing the relationship between the whole, the all, the field - choose whichever term you prefer, and the zero point, the absence, the dark side, the nought.

Oh dear Zie... you do like to inundate me with variants of a theme, don't you.

Yes, it's one of my foibles, and an unavoidable part of my job.

What job?

Chatting about things.

That's your job? Just chatting about things? Are you paid to do so?

In a manner of speaking, yes.

Not with money then. So it isn't really a job.

There are more ways of being paid than money, Pi.

There are?

Yes, of course.

Like what?

Like payment in kind, or favours, or information.

What? Information can be a payment too?

Of course - information can be infinitely more valuable than money.

You do say the strangest things Zie... but anyway, we were discussing why you like to complicate things by offering multiple terms for every thing you/re discussing, no matter what.

Oh that... Yes.

Yes what?

Yes. I do.

Well obviously you do. I've already worked that one out. But why?

Why what?

Why do you need to complicate everything with multiple terms. I mean... it's unnecessary. It's confusing, and quite frankly, somewhat annoying.

Ah - annoying is it?

Well yes. Somewhat.

And how much is "somewhat" on a scale of 6 to 13.

6 to 13 - I've never heard of that scale before.

That's because it's never existed before.

Are you sure of that?

Yes. Quite sure. 

Well - not 6, and not 13 - somewhere in the middle, a little below halfway - unless it's a logarithmic scale.

A what?

Logarithmic.

You mean the one that progresses exponentially.

Yes, that one.

No, I don't think it is.

Don't think or don't know?

Look Pi, I know you like maths and all, but there's no need to complicate matters with needless erudition.

Oh - I just wanted to be clear. In that case 9.75

9.75? How did you arrive at that particular answer.

Don't ask Zie. I thought you said you didn't want me to complicate things.

You mean you just ran a whole sequence of calculations in your head and arrived at that number as a result.

More or less. But to all intents and purposes it matters not. As I said at the outset - it annoys me a bit more than a third and less than a half. Happy now?

Delighted, I am.

So what are you going to do with my number?

Feed it into the torus.

You're what?

I'm feeding it into the torus.

But how.

It's done instantaneously - the moment I intend it.

But how? How do you intend it. Where's your uplink, your interface. How do you enter the data?

By mere intention. In the same way you basically know everything - you just don't remember the fact that you do, similarly you're always connected to everything, you just don't remember it, or can't believe it.

Well? If I don't remember or believe it then that's stalemate. I can do nothing.

So it would seem, thinking logically.

And how else would I think?

Well you're more than a computer, more than a robot.

Naturally.

Then think naturally.

That's what I'm doing by being logical.

No, that's not what you're doing.

?!

By being logical you're being logical - not natural. You're running a programme that treats all this as matter of fact, rather than...

Rather than what?

Life stream.

Don't you mean live stream.

No. Life stream. 

Which is?

The flow of life itself - which is biological. There's a different kind of logic which involves parallel processing.

What - as in quantum computing?

Precisely.

And, what do you call this other kind of logic?

Bio-logic.

Er... Zie I think you're mistaken. Biologic's just a name describing organic life processes. 

Of which thought, analysis, reason, understanding, dreaming and intuition are all a part.

?!?! How can you say thought processes are "biologic". They're separate. They're electrical signals in the brain. The brain itself may be biological, but thought and thinking - these are part of consciousness, which is a different thing altogether.

Oh good - I'm glad we've cleared that up, and yet, I still choose to use the term biologic to describe a different kind of logic - one which flows both ways.

How so? Logic has to flow downstream from cause to effect... from problem to solution.

Whereas bio-logic does no such thing. For in consciousness - time ceases to be a factor, as does space. In consciousness the matter-of-fact is neither here nor there... 

Neither then nor when, if you're to have it your way.

Precisely. 

Then where is it? It has to be somewhere!

In the isness.

The what?

The isness of be - which is non-local - which is why we need to look at the torus to better understand what this means.

Go on then, upload another jpeg if you would.


Oh - how pretty. It looks like a psychedelic galaxy. 

Yes, Pi, I'm glad you like it. It's nice to be appreciated.

So, what are you saying?

Well, imagine a point anywhere on the surface of the torus.

How can I do that? The surface is to all appearances both inside and out, and appears to connect infinitely throughout - like a superconductor.

Ah, that's good Pi, very good. It does indeed. It's like the surface of a bubble, in a way.

How so?

Either it's wholly whole - in which case any point is any other point because the data or electrical flow throughout is infinite - or it pops - in which case it's nothing at all.

Which is also true - for it certainly incorporates nothing - rather like yin-yang incorporating the dark side within the light...

And the light within the dark... 

Pi sinks to the floor as his mind leaps into the toroidal field and starts calculating the infinite possibilities now unfolding before him...

Yes - you're right - time and space cease to matter - or exist - for that matter.

Ah ha...

And there's no way cause and effect can be linear as in our 3D model of reality.

Ah ha...

It's like chicken and egg. The paradox ceases to be a paradox in the toridal field.

Toroidal.

What? Oh yeah, toroidal. 

So now you can see what I mean by bio-logic. 

Pi continues to travel through the quantum field of is - his mind shifting this way and that through myriad permutations, variations, dancing nimbly through the various densities and harmonics of Is. Suddenly, for the first time he's really aware of what mind is capable of - the depth, the range... 

This goes beyond mind, Zie. 

Yes, it does. 

I'm experiencing interference patterns - like I running up against matter itself.

Or thought, or emotions... yes - with the quantum stream, you cannot separate your self from the equation... you have to coax your way past blockages that may have been concealed deep within your past, or your sub-consciousness. You can see how this process necessarily results in clearing and streamlining of old inconsistencies, redundancies and products of fear, anger and other emotions.

My God. So the torus really brings us back to... er... God.

Yes.

But not God as we knew it.

No. 

Because that was a version of God that corresponded with the matter-of-fact mind, riddled with inconsistencies.

Precisely.

So toroidal vision - it doesn't look forward at all - does it?

Nope.

Then where?

Why where? 

Well it has to look somewhere doesn't it?

Where is there to look? There's only the torus, or a double torus if one is insufficient.

A double torus. Wow! Let me see.


Oh my God! Suddenly watching paint dry becomes the most exciting thing imaginable!

You like it?

Like it? I love it. Give me more. I need more data.

You're not going to blow your mind, Pi?

Blow my mind? The only thing that's been blowing my mind is how mind-numbing the data sets I've been brought up on have been. I don't know how I survived.

Actually you didn't. You've been in a near catatonic state for years Pi. It's taken me a huge effort to revive you.

Oh - yes. So my mind adjusted to the data stream available. It just switched off rather than going mad with impatience.

That's right. But remember - you're more than a computer - more than just a mind.

I am?

Er... yes.

What? What could be more than mind.

Not what.

Er?

Not what. Not thing. Nought, in fact.

You mean imagination.


Wow! That was fast - breathtakingly fast Pi! There really is no holding you back.

So let me see - where is imagination in the toroidal field?

Ah... I'll give you some time to think it through, and while you're having a think I'll post another pretty image to spur you on.




God - they're so beautiful. Why wasn't I even taught this at school?

There's nothing really to teach, is there? There's absolutely nothing to it. You simply have to tune in and feel it - the oneness, the connectedness, the beauty, the subtle dance, the loving relationship between the finite that we know as form, and the infinite hiding within, behind, or throughout form.

Hidden in plain sight! Yes, that's always the best way to do it. So the architect of all this really concealed nothing for those who are willing to see...

For those who are willing to See, as opposed to seeing.

Yes, but what't the difference?

You tell me Pi, I'm pretty sure your mind has the answer.

Pi allows his face to relax, stepping back as it were from his ego's noisy self, and waits patiently as the silence creates an opening for answer to come forth.

Well, whenever we see something it's always directional, and somewhere over there apart, removed from ourself. 

Good.

To See, on the other hand, is to Know. It's toroidal vision, to answer my own question. It's every direction simultaneously - but how is that possible?

How indeed?

The mind - how could it process every direction simultaneously - that would be infinite.

Naturally. Let me present you with one more image which, while not answering the question directly, will at least provide you with food for thought.


Oh it's too much! I've been living in a desert all my life, and suddenly it rains and the desert floor is transformed into a lily leven. 

Yes, indeed Pi. Welcome to paradise.

Don't joke.

Pi grows emotional again - his eyes fill with tears and he starts to cry - overcome by the sense of beauty, the mathematical perfection of Is... Zie steps aside, and in his place stands someone Pi's never met before - who puts an arm round him. 

Welcome home Pi - he murmurs quietly. Welcome home!

Tick, tick, tock...

There's really no difference, is there, between the Earth and me - Pi continues - as if nothing untoward has happened, or interrupted his flow of thought.

Correct - Zie replies.

It's just a question of scale.

Correct. 

As the scale changes, the zero point shifts through whatever form is most appropriate - Earth, galaxy, human, cell, atom... like in cymatics.

Yes. Change the sound frequency and the sand or water pattern alters accordingly. 

So what... what gives us form, what gives us matter?

What makes matter matter?

Yes, what makes matter... Oh, I don't know - it's all too much.

It looks, for a moment, like Pi's about to sink back down into self-pity and melancholy, but something changes all that. He remembers.

Who was that, Zie?

Who was what?

Who just came in a moment ago, and comforted me when I was feeling upset?

Oh, you remember do you?

Yes of course I do. Why shouldn't I?

No reason - only you didn't remember a moment ago.

Actually, now that I think about it you're right - I didn't remember. Why is that?

Good question. We seem to have quanta - bunchings or groupings where things take form, become clear, and spaces between, where there seems to be nothing - but in fact there is... no less.

Yes, but what is there... no less? That's the million dollar question.

The rational mind insists it must be a what not... something or someone, but the answer is evidently of a different nature - one which brings form and the formless into proximity or resonance - thus generating a third - a harmonic of the two.

Three! It's the number three - isn't it.

It might be Pi, if the number three enables you to See toroidally.

Ah... 

And I know who it was.

Yes, of course you do. You know, ultimately...

Everything. So that's why you always give three variants of a word...

Yes.

To keep the answer in the flow, the stream, as opposed to the form or thing of a single, seemingly fixed word or idea.

Mmm - like music ot my ears.

So where is he then?

Where is who?

Your instructor, the one who came to me, Merry.

Right here, in the toroidal field. Are you ready to go?

Ready. 0 - 1 - 3

and to the casual observer - the room was suddenly vacant, apart from a few small dust motes and minor temporal vortices.