i too

i too have tried
to bomb my way to success, by God
from big bang to birth a dancing star
from shrapnel -- conjure life's spark
a battery of ferns, a fracas of aromatic fir
have cursed and let the flames of anger
fan themselves to a fury of spitting rage
have stamped my foot
have shouted at a child
who dared obstruct my will
have snapped a recalcitrant branch
that would not bend
when i would pass
and yet i failed
failed to achieve my end
failed to see life emerge
from that nitric tunnel of hate
my bombs backfired
blasted the very foundations
of my once blessed state
i fell to pondering perversity
the power to destroy
not to create