Doctor Dee happens

 

Gold cloak?

 

Like it?

 

Er… silver trousers?

 

Actually the colour is platinum.

 

Oh, I see.

 

Well?

 

I’m…

 

Lost for words Zie?

 

You could say. What happened to the forest green Merry, the spirit of nature I used to know and love?

 

Happened? Why bring Hap into this?

 

Hap?

 

My naughty cousin who likes to stir things up and make ‘em as messy and unpredictable as possible.

 

You mean Hap’s a real person?

 

Well, more or less, if a demi-god can rightly be described as a person.

 

Wait a minute.

 

Oh dear, here we go…

 

You mean your cousin Hap is a demi-god?

 

Rewind, rewind – let’s just call him/her a person then, ok?

 

Er… What’s with the him/her?

 

Well, it’s difficult to state exactly what Hap is – your sexual polarity doesn’t seem to apply to all creatures in the universe.

 

You mean Hap isn’t really a human or an animal.

 

Well, obviously.

 

So he’s a demi-god?

 

I thought we’d agreed to avoid using that term.

 

Or a spirit being?

 

Well yes, but that makes him/her sound very ethereal and unreal, which to be honest, is the last way you’d describe Hap in a face to face meeting. Look, let’s just change the subject – it’s never a good thing to talk too much about someone as walls have ears, do they not.

 

If you say so. But, if Hap’s a demi-god – what does that make you, Merry?

 

Well, it doesn’t make me anything Zie – quit trying to extrapolate the quantum field. It’s a waste of time.

 

Well, I don’t see how you can help being a demi-god too if your cousin is.

 

You don’t see – precisely. Just because my cousin is a doctor, or a lawyer doesn’t mean I have to be one, does it?

 

Er… good point.

 

The only thing you can say with any certainty is that I’m not quite human in the normal sense of 3D determinacy. That’s nothing new, is it?

 

True.

 

So, moving swiftly on.

 

Wait a minute – what’s with the ridiculous garb?

 

Finally, you’ve returned to our thread. But as usual, you’ve failed the test.

 

Huh?

 

Your response is totally binary, isn’t it?

 

It is?

 

Yes, either you were going to love it or hate it – in your binary state.

 

Well, that’s not my fault is it – I’m not the one who decided to dress as a character out of Flash Gordon.

 

Who said anything about “fault”.

 

Actually you did Merry – apparently I “failed the test”.

 

As you did, but again, your logic is impaired.

 

Huh?

 

Well, if anyone is at fault it would be me, for having failed to teach you to see beyond the binary polarity of love it or hate it.

 

Well that’s magnanimous of you.

 

Thanks. Now, let’s try again, shall we? Instead of focussing on the external, on the thingyness of my attire, allow it to draw you into a different awareness of things – a different mood, so to speak.

 

Er…

 

Instead of focussing on the strangeness of how I look, allow yourself to see something familiar, something you’ve always known, just never articulated.

 

Oh my God.

 

No please!

 

No, I don’t mean you’re my God Merry.

 

No? That’s a relief.

 

Except, come to think of it…

 

Oh sh**

 

Hey, language man!

 

Sorry.

 

I’m seeing the king side of you.

 

The king?

 

The supreme ruler.

 

Oh please – just because I’m in gold and platinum?

 

No, but I guess that’s why kings would generally wear these colours, isn’t it?

 

You may be right.

 

I’m sensing that the king side connects up to a part of my mind, a part of my operating system – the cap stone of the pyramid, if you like.

 

Very masonic of you.

 

And that the king and God meet at the apex – they’re essentially indistinguishable.

 

Ah. That sounds interesting – but surely God is way more than a king?

 

It’s what I’m seeing – not what I’m thinking. So, what we refer to as God is the point that we can discern – the single point – the apex of infinity which comes down and touches the apex of our world, or the apex of our self – our conscious awareness.

 

Right…

 

But that’s merely the point – the apex – and God extends above and beyond to infinity, only ever more diffusely.

 

Ok…

 

And in fact, as infinity has the habit of extending beyond linearity, the infinitely vast that God extends out towards then inverts, or somehow seems to come back into the infinitely small and unremarkable.

 

Yes?

 

The infinitely small within us, at the atomic level or thereabouts.

 

So we have a continuum?

 

Absolutely. And God the father extending ever higher and further into the heavens above, somehow re-emerges within us as a motherness – as mother nature or mother matter, the maternal... I can't say for sure.

 

Don’t you think you’re pushing this too hard Zie – trying a little too hard to see patterns where they don’t exist?

 

Why would I? I simply allowed your ridiculous costume to take me into another way of seeing things – and first I saw the sun that you clearly represent at this moment, and then beyond the sun ever greater glories of light and power.

 

That much I can accept.

 

But then I got a different sensation.

 

Yes – that’s what worries me.

 

From the other end.

 

The dark side.

 

No, not at all. Quit being so binary Merry.

 

Me? Binary? You’ve gotta be kidding.

 

Look at your costume – if that’s not taking sides then I know not what is.

 

It’s just a powerful fashion statement Zie – something you’d never understand.

 

Actually, your costume perfectly reflects the other side too.

 

It does? How?

 

Once I started seeing the vastness of space – the heavens extending to infinity, that’s when I had this sensation at the base of my spine.

 

In your bowels perhaps. I told you not to eat that curry.

 

And suddenly your gold and platinum were shining black or deep, dark, dark brown.

 

Or maybe infra-red – which would indicate you have the eyes of a snake Zie – they’re able to see infrared you know.

 

Shut up Merry – I’m serious.

 

Just voicing my legitimate concerns.

 

And this sensation – this other side to your colour – it revealed the female, didn’t it.

 

Oh God – please stop doing this to me Zie. I hate it when you start telling my fans that I’m a drag queen.

 

Kira – was that her name?

 

I don’t know, and I’m not talking to you any more. You’re stepping out of line Zie.  

 

Kira – but honestly – her name was beyond any letters and sound – it was coming from deep, deep within, from all around – and

 

Insanity. Call the doctors. Quick someone. Subscribers to my channel – help, please.

 

Out of the waters of the deep, out of the primal urge – an earthiness, a sense of things yearning to be, a willingness, a deep desire to nurture matter – to embody the infinite – personally.

 

Ah – there they are. Thanks  guys. That was quick. Yes, doctor – he’s in here. No, I’m not related to Flash Gordon. Haven’t you ever seen a gold and platinum party costume before? Now Zie, this chap, doctor Dee – did you say? Doctor Dee is going to take you to a very nice place where they’ll help you to rearrange your thoughts and come back down to earth.

 Zie puts on his very best "lucid and totally rational" facial expression. 

Ah Doctor Dee – so good of you to come. Merry’s finding it hard to cope with his other side – trying to suppress Kira – the earth goddess within – yes – all that gold – it’s obviously a desperate attempt to keep a top-down structure in place. Pyramids, squares – that kind of thing.

 

Doctor Dee is caught in the cross fire – can’t figure out which one is telling the truth – which one is most in need of help. Zie in his jeans and t-shirt appears to be more sane, at least in terms of attire, while Merry has the upper hand in terms of power and authority exuding from his aura, or perhaps what whacky people refer to as the third eye.

 

Kira – I command you – reveal yourself.

 

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Merry screams – as his gold costume reveals a deeper, ever more powerful darkness shining out from within it – and now the depths of space seem to turn inside out, and now space seems to be the inside of a cave, in the bowels of the earth, and now we sense origins of life – the amino acids, the chemicals of creation, the atoms and molecules which are on the point of erupting into infinite expressions of biodiversity as Kira longingly gazes upon them – the crystals and butterflies in the kitchen of her biolab – her hair reaching outwards, ever outwards, twisting and curling – connecting to all matter, all atoms, her fingers, her finger nails – pulsing sparks, earthy sparks of prana or chi – a kind of cool, passionate electricity which has all the ingredients in her cauldron now shifting, now growing fractally in a kind of biological Mandelbrot accelerating zoom – extending up to the surface – extending up towards the light which they cannot yet see, can only feel – and Doctor Dee finds himself dancing, dancing, dancing with Zie singing a song of life, yearning for the new dawn, yearning for the bio spawn – the unborn crystal forms – to reach up – to arrive – to day – to day – to day

 

You’re cheating Doctor Dee – you’re not allowed to take sides. You’re supposed to be impartial.

 

Doctor Dee blinks – confused – unaware of who he is or what he’s doing and he sees Merry re-emerging from the underworld, from Kira’s kitchen.

 

Shine. Shine. Shine!    Dee commands, or Zie. Shine you crazy diamond, shine!!!!!!!!!!

 

Merry once again reveals the blinding golden platinum costume – once again stands before them as sun God – as king of kings – and somewhere in the Field of Is – somewhere in the continuum beyond time, beyond space – the loop is complete – the electricity of life bursts across the boundary and Dee is doctor no more – is neon, is argon, is krypton, xenon – is blue or emerald – and…

 

No, Zie, you know I’m not a fan of ostentation – I’ll just stick to my tried and trusted forest garb.

 

Glad to hear it Merry. Speaking of which – there should be a load of mushrooms after the rain we’ve just had. Do you fancy a trip.

 

Mushrooms? You bet. I have a mind to have a word or two with the mushroom maid – she’s been up to no good, I warrant.

 

Really?

 

Just between the two of us. Can’t have her taking over the world, can we. Yes, a trip to the woods is exactly what the doctor ordered.

 

Doctor? I…

 

Zie struggles with his fading memory as the spirit of Doctor Dee dances before him, leading them both back to the forest, on their way to encounter the mushroom queen.