did i vow el

i'm stepping into time 

you know

take it slow

low

take it slow

i'm 
stepping into time 

oh 1

oh 01

oh 010

my nh dh

never say you want 

to know

unless you're 

pause

unless you're

paused

unless you're 

ready 

to grow into 

it

between words

i slip 

silently up-wards

into space-ful-ness

i smile 1

smile 01

ile 010 longingly
v

try

if you can

try to be

gaily 1

gaily 01

gaily 010

all the way 

back to me

your motherlode

of inner-ness

inner-sense

of inner-peace 

bliss

me

nothing less

did i tell you 

how 

slow

you share

slow

my birth

her

my breathe

her

my breath

her

did i tell you 

how we merge

in star-ful-ness

and light

before vow-

els and con-

sonants collide

in blackest

blockest

shine

i step aside 1

i leave 01

the rest 010

to you

her you

to el

to al

to ul
see

walking the bounds

I'm walking the bounds of C3

amazing how we took it for granted

we always assumed con-sciousness

had to be there for us - as long as we were alive

only now, as we watch things collapsing into 

an apocalyptic apoplexy of non-sense

we realise that she's giving us a nudge

she's hinting that perhaps it's time 

for us to revise our approach

to things

so the thereness of things is now in question

and by things we include people, nations

organisations, ideas and words

they're all landmarks in the mindscape of mind

all cross-referenceable, and to a certain extent

tradeable

all things are things - no matter how high

they may appear to be

so now that we've realised that things

have a function, serve a purpose

to keep enthralled the 3D mind

the mind of matter

forever tail chasing what cannot be caught

what cannot be commoditised or traded

as thing

the elusive

omnipresent

isness of be

stop

time to walk the bounds of 

C3

time to bite the bullet of con-sciousness

to unload millenia of prevarication and prejuidice

to accept once again the primacy of is

the fabled

legendary

isness of be

instead of abasing oneself unthinkingly 

at the altar of things 

and the high altar of thing it-self

instead of assuming we're far from being

all that it takes to be 

complete

to shift the mountains of matter

which accumulate

around about

back into the void

of no matter

no thing

nought is

i am

stop

Descartes postulated famously

I think therefore I am

which seems perfectly logical

to the rational mind 

until you step back and see the wood from the trees 

I think, so far so good

but how does thinking prove

that I am?

there is a huge leap from thinking to I am

which becomes less egregious 

if instead we say

I think therefore I think I am

this is far more logical

for thinking can only prove 

the thought experience of being alive

it cannot, does not prove life itself

to do so you need to take one step back

to go from thinking 

back to the direct experience of being alive

but we don't do so, do we?

we seem to be satisfied with thought

as if thinking is sufficient proof

as if thinking will do

what Descartes was really saying if truth be told

is  thinking satisfies me that I am alive

and who can blame him? we are so wrapped up

in the thinking stream of thought machine

the rational mind, that it seems absurd to take it any further

to doubt the reliability, the primacy, the veracity of thought

and thus I think therefore I am is both diagnosis and the measure 

of our unthinking and willful belief 

in the ascendancy, the supremacy of  thought 

as if thought is what makes us human

what sets us above all other creatures whom

we believe, are unable to think as we do

this is the extent of our complacency

but fortunately, if our complacency is ill-founded

then the powers-that-be regulating all that is

will provide us with ample opportunity to see 

how misguided and mistaken our assumptions are

they will enable us to confront and reassess the error

of our 3D logical belief that thought is neutral and transparent

that thinking enables us to cut through to the heart of matter

that thought can and does give a clear and reliable picture

of what simply is

Supposing this assumption this belief is utterly wrong

supposing thought can do nothing of the sort

supposing thought which seems to be all encompassing to us

down here in 3D is actually one-sided, intrinsically partisan and prejudicial 

that it naturally and inevitably devolves towards matter or material things

that it cannot and will not confront the fundamentals as they simply are

but only views them as they affect things manifesting here in 3D.

May seem that there's little or no difference between the two - after all

we know a lot about the wind by observing how it affects a kite or sail

and yet the wind is different from how it affects material objects

it can and does have other qualities

it may in some way be alive, a spirit, though it pains me 

to use such a word, and that at the primary level 

of con-sciousness - if i bother to investigate, I can and will

find that the wind does not blow randomly or impersonally

but imparts some kind of data or knowledge or information

to me as it blows - if I have ears to hear

I'm not saying Descartes was wrong

he was right - he correctly formulated 3D reality

in which it pleases us to think that thinking is proof enough 

that I exist, and thought, we'll probably accept, may be 

nothing more than a chemical process in the brain

In this case you're a thing living in a world of things

move on please, nothing further to be seen here

But what happens when we finally emerge from what I'm

terming 3D, materiality, if and when we're ready to evolve,

to climb out of the box, to engage a different way of thinking

a different way of experiencing reality?

Suddenly we find ourselves in terra incognito. 

Suddenly we begin to realise that our thoughts

the very process of thinking is part of the problem,

part of what has been keeping me down

holding me back, preventing me from emerging from 

the mind of things that matter, the mind that likes

to assume it's nothing more than a think box

a thought machine - that it goes no further - that 

it has no direct interface with things in general,

with the universe, with reality, with 

all that is

If and when this notion starts to seem preposterous,

if and when it starts to seem absurd that we do not,

cannot affect the course of things by the very

thoughts we think,

if and when we start to sense that thoughts are only

a tiny fraction of what our greater mind, our multi-dimensional

or quantum mind is capable of - that there's infinitely more

if we're willing to investigate, if we're willing to

walk the bounds of C3, to test for ourselves the hypothesis

and see whether it stands up to scrutiny or not.

If, doing so, we discover that our mind is more like

a two way transmitter

if we discover that our greater mind is more like 

an interface connecting us directly with everything

and anything - then the game has changed

irrevocably. We no longer can treat thought

the way we used to - as the grand arbiter of what is what

for once we engage the direct field of con-sciousness

we're no longer at liberty to differentiate 

one thing from another

all things, as all roads lead to Rome

come back to, flow into, and through me

Behold the continuum

Behold - the physics, the metrics,

the maths, the what-not of in-finity in which any attempt

to differentiate one from another

merely pushes me back down into 3D

back down into the mind of what is what

thus preventing me from going beyond

going above matter into the quantum state

of hyper-thing

This is not a theory

This is not a belief

This is 

What? the old mind of things and matter immediately asks

so observe, breathing the moment, the intense moment

in which you want to fix things down by thinking things

through rationally, all very good and proper

but irrelevant to our discussion

for what is where thought begins and con-sciousness

ends

what is where a process of creating, engineering, 

enmattering things in 3D leads you ever further 

down that path of making things matter no matter

what it costs, no matter what it takes

and the price is high - for failure to evolve

failure to embrace the isness of C3

is failure to test the hypothesis

failure to discover where life now is

where life is now leading

where life is flowing inexorably

back 

back

back

I'm walking the bounds - 

for here at the edge of con-sciousness

here is where things get clear

where things start making sense

where I commence the process 

of discerning

distinguishing the wood 

the trees

the fullness of   is

seeing sense 

as opposed to 

seeing  things

activating the great

mind

the greater my nd

the quantum interface

i-drive - get yours now

infinity drive will take 

you places nothing else can

no thing can

beyond thing

into the hyper-state

of zero one

in which anything can be

either on or off

either what or not

depending on how you

relate to it

depending on you

on your state of 

conscious awareness

as you C3 your C3

as you I am 

your I am
as you begin the begin

C3 of bubbles and string

here at the edge of con-

                                       sciousness  

                                    i sense     C3

               the other                                              

      wholly ignored   rationally

 a  dark-seem realm of

  unperceived

undiscovered

                    hitherto un-manageable

          nought

                               of bubbles 

                                    strung  a-long

0=1

now is the time

i

paste myself to the board

of space-time curvature

i

 string myself up

                    on

 the washing line mind

to dry

                       thought

0=1

bubbles are neither gaps

between                             

                                  nor holes 

     in time flow stream circularity

                                are best seen as pockets of mirth

as irrepressible nought

erupting gaily

punctuating  fleetingly

the fabric of make-seem 

with effervescence 

                                     

                           

0=1

you think these are words
do you                                 

to read       comprehend
to think   through         

                                           – huish
   crystals       not words

                     i contend 

grown in saturated solution

 of silent unknown            

              silver essence of nought

                    i n f i n i t i n g s 

  of anything but

of not thought a-loud

to be

          

0=1

my fifth

concerns the human

being    bubbles and string

a mirror is all you require

to reveal the illusion

of things being things

me being me       

separately            

   completely
to re-mind your self

to re-be one          

of darkness and light be

Re-engaging nought

they talk about dark

matter, dark energy of

      the universe    they insist

inside-out their mind

is full of darkness

darkness                      dark

no-thing else

    nought besides

and yet i contend

that we are living proof

that we are in-deed 

creatures of light

that we               

straddle the con-

sciousness divide between

dark ness and light

contend i  that this 

darkest secret

within             

                       funda-mental paradox 

which we comprise

      con-tain

conceal bio-logically

                      is     dot dot dot

          unthinkably not

yet is

            know thyself

you are as I be 

Am 

embodiment of con-

sciousness embodiment of

dark ness and light

         feel the two

know the wavy

wiggly 

jagged line

at times     in places blurred 

when close at hand

or else sharply defined

when viewed from a-far

dark ness and light

breathing   dot   dot   dot

you cannot be 

one and not 

the other

you both are

you neither are

  for you  One are   be

singular  whole  complete

  and yet One is    nought be

with-out not one

  not thing

not me

unless darkness seeps up

through the floor cracks 

of  conscious mind

flooding it with 

dot dot dot

not what – breathe

unknown – breathe

unknowingness – breathe

        conscious Not – breathe

the shadow me

   shadow it

    shadow be

               indiscernibly

zero equals one

i contend

as breathe i be 

                            of breath 

both dark not-is and 

 light         

an   interplay       

interface

       inter-dance

be-tween the demon dark

and godly light with-in 

     me and     nought

unequivocally

through-out

the broken table

Actually Zie, Norms are only one possible way of seeing beyond or around things.

Er... what do you mean?

Well, in-finity is not small, and there are always alternative routes.

Look Merry, it’s been bad enough coming to terms with norms – you’re not going to pull the rug from under my feet again are you?

What rug?

I was speaking figuratively.

Oh – but I like image. The rug can be pulled from under your feet but have no fear – there’ll always be another one to replace it. Nature, you know, abhors a vacuum, so just when you think the world is crumbling into dust – you’ll start to see another one that’s been waiting patiently in the wings.

I'm barely coping Merry. Experiencing norms has been...

Deeply unsettling.

Yes.

But of course it has. It’s more or less the same as dying. You have no idea how wedded to the solidity and finiteness of things you and your fellow humans have been.

Well perhaps there was a reason for that.

Indeed there was – for you are the great architects of splendid 3D reality – you call it – though technically we should refer to it as “normality” – the domain where norms make things seem real.

I’m getting that sick feeling again. I swear I’m going to puke... excuse me dear reader – vomiting noises can be heard off stage right.

This is getting ridiculous Merry – I can’t even look at things now without feeling queasy – knowing they’re just norms masquerading as things. I’m even starting to smell that normy smell. I can’t believe I never noticed it before.

Astonishing isn’t it – the power of ignorance – our ability to ignore what we don’t wish to confront.

Well I’d rather not spend the rest of my life running to the toilet – so unless you can think of something pretty soon, I’m going to do my utmost to forget I ever heard about norms, or you, for that matter.

Like I said, Zie, norms are only one level of how we can see things.

Like I said Merry – I don’t care.

There’s another level which you will almost certainly find easier to stomach.

Yes?

Yes.

Well, what are you waiting for?

The right moment.

Well let me know when you’ve found it. I’ve got a lot to do – I’ve got literally thousands of things to try and avoid making eye contact with, and I need to sign up for the self-help group Vomiters anonymous. Apparently there are lots of people like me who just vomit as a kind of nervous reaction to something too shocking to handle.

Calm yourself Zie. Practice the breathing exercises I showed you. Now.

Zie starts breathing and evidently shifts into another level of C3 – er – that’s Merry’s name for consciousness.

Good. Now how do you feel.

Good, thanks. It’s bizarre how I can swing like that.

Quite normal...

Don’t say that word – please.

What? Normal?

No, no, no, no – it’s making me queasy again.

Merry does some Daoist looking moves – tapping Zie swiftly at various points and once again Zie is calm and collected.

I’m hopelessly unstable Merry.

You were rooted in 3D – now you’re re-establishing yourself in a deeper reality which you haven’t yet got the feel for. Patience. This is the time of the nurturing, nourishing breath. Only breathing yourself back to centre, back to awareness can help the transfer complete. In fact, once you’ve got a feel for the power of breath, you’ll never waste your time with chat or thought in the same way again. Your breath gives you an instantaneous feedback – you can feel and read the pulse of the universe, the heart beat of in-finity with or through the breath, once you start becoming aware of its vast potential.

It’s certainly expanding hugely of late. I can honestly say I never found it particularly interesting just sitting there breathing and looking at things, or thinking things through from the perspective of breath – noticing how my thoughts altered the flow, the intensity or direction or some other quality of the breath.

Good.

So what were you telling me about, before I started panicking?

Oh – well you’ve dealt with the norms – and that’s obviously a huge shock to the system. Humanity has relied on the fact that things are just things. Looking at them another way – as if they are alive, and actually seeing an entity – called a norm – behind, within or attached to each and every thing – is a death blow to the 3D mind’s totalitarian control.

Whoa – you call it totalitarian control! Isn’t that a bit extreme?

No, not in the least. It had to be totalitarian – how else were you going to create 3D out of in-finity?

Well... I don’t know what you mean?

Well in-finity is infinitely slippery – because its open ended – it has neither beginning nor end – so where or how can you create a limited system of things – when you’re coming from an unlimited isness – a quantum field or a stream of consciousness?

Oh – now that you put it that way – I don’t know. How did we get things to materialise from in-finity?

It’s like Big Bang – isn’t it. It obviously involves a massive head blow to consciousness – er – C3.

How do you mean?

Well, 3D has to be a state of unconsciousness or limited consciousness or limited awareness – that way things can seem to be just things – because as long as you’re fully conscious – things are inseparable from all else – which means they’re so much a part of the whole that they cannot really be differentiated in any way, shape or form.

So they don’t exist – as long as we’re fully conscious! Amazing!

Yes. So Big Bang might be referred to as Big Concussion, and within that concussion we haven’t quite figured out who we are, where we are or how. As long as we’re groping around trying to join the dots – we have these things popping up in our C3 filling the gaps, because...

Nature abhors a vacuum. But why does it have to be Norms?

It doesn’t – that’s just one level – but it’s a good starting point, isn’t it?

Explain.

Because one of the preoccupations of modern man and modern thought is that things are kind of dead – relative to you organic beings.

Well yes – that makes sense given the fact that tables tend not to walk around or change shape.

Actually it makes sense because the minute you allow things to be conscious or alive – the whole of 3D comes crashing down, which is why your scientists almost universally refuse to consider, study or discuss C3 – even the doctors, for crying out loud!

Yes, it is somewhat strange – but I expect it’s just because C3 is hard to measure or quantify.

Believe me – if your scientists are willing and able to name and discuss things they have no real conception of such as black holes, dark matter and dark energy – without which their models of the universe collapse – then they could happily do the same for C3, but they won’t under any circumstances, because the 3D mind knows who its real enemy is, and will avoid it at all costs – even if it has to destroy the entire population of the earth. It’s a little tyrant that will not brook opposition -  so no one is allowed to introduce C3 to the field of legitimate scientific enquiry.

So how come you can get away with it?

Zie, remember again that we are discussing in-finity – and that in-finity has no beginning or end. Big Bang may have severely concussed humanity – yet humanity remains a part of C3, like it or not, and in-finity always has a trick up its sleeve, an undiscovered variable or an unknowable unknown that will pop up when least expected to restore the perfect order of randomness and chaos to proceedings. This is why no “enemy” is ever really an enemy – merely testing and aiding your development. Without an adversary everything would grind to a halt.

Oh, don’t say that Merry – you’ll make me suspect you’re one of those...

One of what? Oh – a death eater.

Yes.

Breathe it – how does it feel?

Silly.

Ok – let the breath do the talking and thinking – otherwise you’ll end up walking in endless mental circles of misty doubt and fearful confusion.

Ok. I’m breathing.

Well, the Norms are real enough – but given the nature of in-finity – which cannot be limited in any way, nor determined absolutely or fundamentally – this means that Norms are but a version, but an interpretation, but a representation of something else – a superstate – in which things and you...

Are one.

Good thinking.

Not thinking.

Good breathing then. It’s working beautifully, isn’t it.

So what I’m breathing is that the Norms are in some respects a projection of my personness – my C3, into and onto the things which are actually part of all that is me.

Excellent. But how can things be “part of all that is you?” That makes no sense.

I know Merry – but that’s how the breath presents it. As I breathe I don’t just breathe for myself, within myself – I breathe for everything and through everything – so in terms of breath I appear to be indistinguishable from all that is. This, I guess, is where C3 really comes into its own.

Excellent. So the Norms to a fearful unbreather could be something demonic and terrifying – a monster hiding in the cupboard of each and every thing – the ultimate Halloween nightmare.

But to the breather it’s more about feeling C3 extending throughout.

Music to my ears Zie. So what about the finities?

Breathing tells me that the finities are like crystallisations of nought – the zero point – which are present throughout – also fully connected into C3’s whole hearted ministry of love and onefulness.

Oh – you make it sound so spiritual.

Well, that’s how it breathes. In practice – the finities are a less personal, more mathematical way of relating to things – connecting to them from the bottom up – from the sub-atomic level. They are, if you like, the fairies of the quantum stream as opposed to the macro, top down spirit of things in general.

Ah ha. Your breath is truly surpassing itself today, Zie. So when would you choose to connect with the finities?

Whenever you like – whenever you feel like being on that side of the equation, on that side of the atomic scale. It’s more a matter of mood, or poetic licence, after all, we are all creators – not just technicians, and some people will obviously feel more comfortable working with finities than norms, but as long as we’re breathing C3fully we’ll tend to keep moving between one and t’other – that way keeping ourselves more or less balanced, more or less open to both sides of experience, both ends of the spectrum.

Because if we practised the dark arts and became one sided – like people who have completely ruled out C3, then sooner or later we ourselves become victims of our own self-imposed idiocy.

Yes – that’s how it breathes. The people causing most harm in the world have simply given up on one side – especially if they’ve done blood sacrifice – and paradoxically – all the evil they may perpetrate passes through the apparent victim – even when they kill or maim – coming back to themselves.

Explain – you mean the victim doesn’t die.

Only in 3D – which merely splits at that point in time – and the victim is cut and pasted back in the unsplit main line of 3D.

So the death eaters never succeed in killing anyone.

Not really. It appears to be a Voldemort situation. They only really succeeded in horcruxing themselves, until their me field becomes unstable and crashes.

Fascinating. Thanks Zie. I’m going to put you back now – and Merry repeats the Daoist taps and blows – leaving Zie hyperventilating fiercely.

What was that for Merry?

Oh – I needed to calm you down. You were freaking out about something.

Was I?

By the way Zie, have you figured out how to mend the broken table yet?