falling asleep tea

it seemed the right thing to do

  it seemed the right thing to do

you mean you went head to head with matter itself

with everything   because it seemed right       

amazing

because in a sense

that was the only way i could remain true

to myself

to yourself

to myself – that was the only way

by letting go of whatever it was

whatever it is i’ve been holding onto

all these years     letting go

and shifting down into   is

the simple truth

0=1

it is   i am

0=1

it is    i am

one more time

0=1

it is     i jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj am

er jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj what’s that

sorry zie – i fell asleep with my finger on that particular key

oh  ok – so you’re saying i can shift down into er...

 is

into  is – and that’s enough

enough – that’s all there is

all there is?

all – in truth there’s only is

and what then?

i jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

you fell asleep again?

oops – sorry zie

you should get some rest – take a break

i will – just as soon as i’ve completed is

completed is – i don’t see how

in my case it involved leaving my home  casting myself into the arms of infinity

you mean coming here   to Russia

i mean in accepting the narrative of is  becoming the living legend  becoming story itself

don’t you think you’re somewhat overstating the case   inflating the old ego   blowing your own trumpet

there’s that to consider but the proof as they say is in the pudding so get a load of this

wait a minute – no – what are you doing – oh my god’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

you fell asleep

no i just lost track of things momentarily when you fell over backwards and failed to hit the deck

ah that – yes it’s somewhat unnerving wouldn’t you say

unnerving – it’s downright creepy – my stomach’s all over the place – i’m feelingjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

j – you fell asleep

oh dear – i’m infected by you

would you like to give it a try

to fall over backwards without hitting my head – no thank you very much – i have better ways to crack open the nut that is me at odds with infinity

like how

i could try to breathe – i’m sure you recommended that before sometime

oh wonderful – shall we start right away

er – bit busy right now – maybe some other time

ah – it’s like that – here watch this

stop it – no – aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

did you fall asleep again

kind of – er – how come i was floating alongside you just then

you know –  0=1

0=1?

it is   i am

it is? i am?

yes – just without the questioning tone

but how merry – how did i float alongside

does it really matter? is it bothering you?

well frankly – yes – if i’m gonna float in the air i want to know how it’s taking

palrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

palrrr?

oops – i was gone again – taking place – it’s contrary to the laws of physics

but not the laws of is

the what

the laws of is – the constitution – so to speak – of physical reality

er...

which state that

oh god     let me guess    0=1      it is       i am

yes      how did you guess?

i have no broken records less repetitive than you merry

oh how sweet, thank you mary

mary? i’m zie

apologies zie – you’re mary in another incarnation – i get these things confused from time to time

you confuse me and another person – how

oh you know – surfing the quantum stream one becomes aware of multiple avenues

multiple avenues?

parallel realities

parallel or interconnecting – they’re all much of a much – it is being i am

well, i a bit huffy about that – i still haven’t accepted your premise on that score merry

haven’t you? would you like to see a full demonstration of the interconnectedness of all that is?

no, not if it involves eating magic mushrooms – like it did last time

no, that was a one off

then what?

this       pop

oh my god      where did you go

here      inside you

oh my god – stop messing around merry

catch me if you can

i can’t even see you, where are you for god’s sake

right here     presently behind your nose     in the front part of your brain

get out      i never gave you permission to enter my body

now i’m sliding down your spine     wheeeeee      this is fun

stop merry – i absolutely refuse to allow you to continue using me this way

coming down to your feet – you’d be amazed how it looks from inside

do you hear me    merry     get out of my private space

oh come on zie      loosen up a bit     here     let me see what happens when i press your funny bone

nooooooooooooooooooo

there you are      i thought you’d never join me

but how can i join you inside me?

residual imagery in 3D – the matrix doesn’t let go – it continues generating a version of you

but you disappeared

yes – i’m rather pleased with myself – didn’t i do well

but how

it’s a bit like leaning against the movement of the train on the tube and not falling over

it is?

so here we are – standing astride the parallel lines – the equals sign – surfing the quantum stream

anything else?

well yes – time space as opposed to space time – we simply reversed the flow – so now i is and it am

oh god – i wish i didn’t know

don’t worry zie – you’re going to love it – just as soon as you stop insisting that things are set in stone

but they have to be – otherwise everything’s going to fall apart

just as soon as you start enjoying the ultimate experiencing in surfing you could possibly wish for

you mean this? it er... doesn’t seem much to me

oh really – here we go

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

me thinks she doth protest too much – lighten up zie – you’re loving it you know

i may be – but i’m feeling sick and disoriented

then sit yourself down on the ground over there

ok – good idea

there how does that feel

wow – strangely – amazingly good

and what if i told you we’re not in your room

do you have to

no – but if i did

er – where might we be

we might be anywhere – after surfing the quantum stream of is – place is neither here nor there

still feeling amazingly good – but there’s a part of me that’s wanting to panic – still more or less under control

australia, not far from pine gap

oh nooooooooooooooooo bad – very bad – reverse that merry

ok – we’re at your home

phew

only the curtains are a different colour

oh

and so is the carpet

oh

and er – it’s night time here

shit

it’s looking suspiciously like we popped out of the quantum stream in pine gap of all places – i wonder why

you are kidding – right

here – let’s go outside and take a look around

no can do merry – something inside me’s all locked rigid

mm – breathing exercises

won’t work – this feels way too...

knock

hey – what did you do that for

do what?

rap me on the head

oh – i’m sorry – did i

yes – but don’t worry – it’s no big deal – i’m hungry – let’s go for something to eat

great – there’s a diner round the block

the block – which one’s that

you know – 42^nd avenue

new york?

apparently so

merry – what’s going on – i’m not even freaking out any more

good – because you going to have to get us home – i’m out of juice

oh my god – you’re kidding right

yes – actually no – but it’ll be alright – you’re doing fine – just tap your heals together three times and say

tonto – there’s no place like home

that’s it

ok – hang on – if we’re in new york let’s have a bite to eat – i’d hate to come all this way for nothing, you know

ok – wear these glasses – you’re still looking somewhat vaguely defined

i am?

a little – they’ll stop people from freaking out

you mean i’m a ghost?

no – ghosts don’t wear glasses do they

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ah    there you are   mary   i’ve been meaning to ask you about that dream you keep on having     let’s make ourselves comfortable before we begin      what do you think would be the best harmonic

let’s bring the 33^rd century up   i feel it deals with the raw pain and confusion of my zie experiences better than any other space in time

excellent choice    this is quite a journey you’re taking us on

who would have thought that the waking nightmare of those violent years  could open up an infinity of depth and harmony

indeed     the perfect harmonic   abyss   an almost impenetrable absence of accord   yet there in the darkness   in the wailing cacophony of dissonance    emerges the first note of an entirely new universe of sound

as merry and zie are taking a cup of tea in a diner on 42^nd Avenue    battling with somnolencessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

oh dear i seem to beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

cut       paste

a cup of tea floating in a tree  upside down  apparently     until i adjust the frame of perception  and bring the variables back into harmony   feeling the music  permeating    throughout    transforming the image and associated emotions     memories    into pure    sound

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