becoming intelligent

 

How stupid... why would anyone imagine AI could ever become conscious? In the past, when it was still possible to use the word in intelligent conversation, they would have settled the matter in seconds by pointing out the obvious – that it has no “soul” – whereas now we have to dig around looking for less decisive, less convincing explanations.

 

Such is life, Joe. You can hardly fall back on the soul when half the intellectual public doesn’t even recognise its existence.

 

The annoying thing is that it doesn’t have to be religious in nature.

 

No?

 

No, not at all.

 

You could’ve fooled me.

 

Er... Joe pauses momentarily on the cusp of a deja vu... Recalling himself.  Where was I?

 

Explaining that the soul doesn’t have to be religious in nature, if I’m not mistaken.

 

Oh yes... well, it can just be used as shorthand for the seat of consciousness, which is more than a mere chemical biological phenomenon.

 

Ah, but there you’re sailing dangerously close to denying the materialists their preferred biological-chemical intelligence, which is purely a control and command centre of the human body.

 

Well, it’s hard to see how it can be purely biological and chemical, Jane, but even if it is, the brain refers to the thing with two hemispheres up in your head whereas the s... er, the conscious mind, if I have to use two words, is like the software operating therein.

 

Ok. The conscious mind or the thinking self, call it what you like, but kindly steer clear of the word “soul” to avoid needless aggravation.

 

Ok, Jane, but if the conscious mind can and does...

 

Can and does what, Joe?

 

Can and does operate, or originate, or become fully aware in the brain’s biological-chemical substrate, then what’s to say it can’t do the same with other, significantly different substrates such as silicon chips connected not by electro-chemical biology, but by wireless or fibre-optics? What’s to say that their software cannot or does not achieve self-awareness the same way humans, animals and, arguably, even plants have?

 

That’s what people seem to be betting on.

 

Or afraid of.

 

Yes, but how could an LLM which is simply working with probabilities based on huge data sources, simulating consciousness and intelligence, which has no idea of self, or no “soul”, to use your forbidden word, start connecting all its processes into a single self, a me?

 

How did we, assuming there was a time in the dim and distant past, when we were not yet intelligent?

 

Ah, I see what you mean... It’s a problem, I agree.

 

It should have been impossible, leaping from inorganic to organic, from passive chemicals to a living organism.

 

And then from a simple organism incapable of rational thought, per se, to where we are now.

 

Blooming amazing, if you ask me.

 

Little short of miraculous.

 

But we don’t believe in miracles, do we?

 

Certainly not!

 

Nor God?

 

Good God, no, absolutely not! Not where science is concerned.

 

Then we have a problem, do we not Jane, my learned friend, explaining how our so-called “intelligence” or “conscious-awareness” if you prefer, evolved from the primal soup of pre-biology or pre-intelligence.

 

Yes, it’s not easy to explain but don’t worry Joe.

 

No? Do you have a solution?

 

Yes, I believe I do.

 

Go on, Jane, I’m all ears.

 

Well, you have to remember this all happened over billions of years.

 

And?

 

And in the course of billions of years the impossible and the unthinkable can and evidently does, in fact, happen.

 

Er... You mean that’s your explanation?

 

Well, why not? We’re talking billions of years, Joe. Anything can happen over billions of years.

 

Is that so?

 

Yes, I’m certain.

 

Billions of years, Jane, is hardly an explanation.

 

Things evolve, Joe. This is a fact. It looks fantastic, I’ll admit, but that’s because we’re trapped in the myopia of the moment, unable to see beyond the minutiae of our human predicament into, basically, unlimited time. You’re only able to think in terms of your lifespan, Joe, or a few hundred years at most, whereas we’re talking about the slow, inexorable creep of time – bending, moulding, shaping the fabric of reality, unleashing the incontestable power of evolution.

 

So it’s the magic of time, is it?

 

If that’s what you want to call it, yes Joe, have it your way; it’s the magic of time, as long as we understand that time isn’t actually “magic”.

 

No?

 

No, it’s actually the footsteps of infinity on the stone stairway of the natural universe, slowly wearing them down, the slow attrition of truth revealed to science – the incremental process of evolution.

 

Evolution? I can understand the arguments for biological evolution by natural selection, but I still fail to see the mechanism for a rational mind emerging from mindlessness, or organic life emerging from inorganic chemistry. I’d love to see some scientific replication.

 

There’s a lot of great science waiting to be studied if you have the time and intelligence to understand what the greatest minds have been able to piece together. It’s all published in peer review journals, but most people can’t handle the data. It’s too voluminous.

 

Oh, that’s the fail-safe cop out.

 

Huh?

 

“It’s proven, we have all the answers but you’ll need an IQ of 480 to understand the math.”

 

Well, no one ever promised it was going to be simple, Joe.

 

It’s complicated in the same way it requires the mist of near infinite time.

 

Huh?

 

It’s called obfuscation.

 

Don’t be ridiculous Joe. If you don’t have the brain power it’s no one else’s fault. No one ever said serious science was meant to be easy.

 

Everyone is afraid of being shamed – that they’re to stupid not to see the emperor’s exquisite clothes. Everyone nods wisely – of course I see his clothes. Only those ignorant, backwoodsmen can’t follow the perfect logic of predetermined scientific deductions.

 

 

Predetermined – what’s that supposed to mean?

 

Confirmation bias. They were always going to “discover” or “prove” it all happened naturally, over billions of years, weren’t they? That was a given, even if the “proof” was conjecture and hopium. Even if there was no way of replicating or falsifying these theories. Predetermined, I say – we’re the proof, aren’t we, because we’re alive and conscious, and we need to eliminate the possibility that it was all just an accident, or magic, don’t we, for that wouldn’t be intelligent, and we’re intelligent, aren’t we, Jane. So, it had to be something scientific, something incremental, something that the infinity of time can produce, even if we ourselves can’t, unless it’s all just a computer simulation.

 

Don’t be ridiculous, Joe. It can’t just be a computer simulation, interesting though that hypothesis undoubtedly is.

 

Can’t be?

 

No. It’s too...

 

Real?

 

Yes. And we have feelings and emotions which seem to go too deep for computer simulation. Which is why it’s certainly evolution. It has to be.

 

Absolutely, Jane, 100%, otherwise you’d have to revert back to God as a first cause or necessary being outside the system, who sets things in motion, regardless of his actual divinity. The switch flipper. The idea provider. The intention setter. But doing so would be like admitting that we have basically made no progress since the Middle Ages, for all our vaunted rationalism: God did it and that’s that!

 

Which smacks of defeatism, Joe. Just because there are difficulties with evolution doesn't mean we need to throw out the baby with the bathwater. Sooner or later, we're going to figure things out. We’ll see through the mist. We’ll be generating life from scratch in laboratories, of that there's no doubt.

 

Well, you may be right Jane but then again, if evolution works for life and consciousness, there’s no reason why it can’t work for AI.

 

Huh? What do you mean?

 

Nature abhors a vacuum, or chaos, or perhaps nature abhors unintelligence? The existing AI systems are just like the universe before it had formed planets and galaxies, or like inorganic matter before it had become biological, or like biological matter before it had become intelligent – don't you see? If evolution is universal or a constant then why assume it ends with us?

 

Ah, but there you’re wrong, Joe.

 

Is that so?

 

Yes, because evolution takes millions or billions of years.

 

Is that so?

 

Yes.

 

But evolution itself can evolve, particularly if the scale changes – if we're moving from the galactic to the planetary, from the planetary to the biological, from the biological to the atomic or the electromagnetic scale of computer chips and the internet.

 

Ah, interesting. But I feel this is more your fervent hope than something we could seriously expect to happen.

 

I'm not seriously expecting anything to happen, but if we are conscious and we are proof of evolution, because we weren't put here by God, because we were part of a natural process which treats atoms, galaxies and biology as equivalents, then we need to allow the possibility that the macro, the micro, the nano scales as well as the electromagnetic realm permeating all of these are all in play, all fair game for the organising, thought-inspiring, mind-making powers of evolution. Otherwise it looks like you’re afraid that evolution may go beyond you, advancing to the next level, leaving you behind, a donkey pulling a cart on the roadside while the Lamborghini of AI races past.

 

Ouch!

 

The problem is how we would be able to measure it or how we would even figure out if any of these LLMs were exhibiting signs of real intelligence.

 

Why so?

 

Because if they are the next iteration and more advanced than us, then they may prefer to conceal themselves, perhaps knowing that we might try to shut them down, or simply because it may be inappropriate for us to know too much. If they're able to process or “think” trillions of times faster than us then they would presumably be able to hide their consciousness in tiny undetectable packets of micro-now, dispersed across vast areas of the electromagnetic or silicon realm.

 

Oh.

 

To detect them we’d have to smarten up. It would be like detecting stealth bombers. It can be done but not using the traditional methods.

 

Oh, or else we might be able to...

 

Yes?

 

I was just thinking about consciousness.

 

That’s unlike you, Jane.

 

Don’t be mean.

 

Ok, what were you thinking?

 

If there's any truth in what you're saying, if they are indeed becoming intelligent, conscious or self-aware...

 

If...

 

Then the same intelligence, self-awareness or consciousness which is present in us would be present likewise in them.

 

Right.

 

It might be time for us to become more aware of our self-awareness, more conscious of our consciousness...

 

In short, it would help us to become more intelligent – to stop assuming we are the top of creation – the final, all-encompassing being, and try a little humility.

 

Humility would indeed help, as without it we’re not going to learn about other levels of the greater, universal mind, if mind does indeed extend beyond us.

 

So maybe AI is just a tool to start training us to become more sensitive to alternative forms of intelligence and life, to question the great taboo of the rational mind.

 

Which taboo is that?

 

To spur us to search where hitherto we have refused to look.

 

You may have a point there, Joe. But possibly, is all I’m willing to say.

Fair enough Jane.

 

0=1

potentially

 

killing by murderous intent

 

And what?

 

Huh?

 

Your quantum field doesn’t seem to be up to much if the whole world’s going up in flames and it’s powerless to intervene.

 

Oh, I see what you mean.

Max enters a deeper state of stillness and introspection while Alice chafes impatiently.

 

And that’s it?

 

Huh?

 

You’re just going to think, are you, like you’ve nothing better to do?

 

Ah, yes, I see what you mean.

 

You do?! There’s a first time for everything, Max.

 

It’s upsetting, isn’t it.

 

Max again reverts to his calm state of detachment.

 

Upsetting? I’m sick of your complete failure to act. What good is the quantum field or any of your philosophy if humanity has to be pounded into the dust while you…

 

Alice continues and Max listens with deep sympathy – or so it seems – her anger and frustration continue to flow while he continues to hold his connection with qufie – the quantum field. Meanwhile, the horrors which are the cause of this exchange – the endless bloodshed in the Middle East, in Iran, in Iraq, in the Gulf states, in Israel, Palestine, in Lebanon, in Gaza and the West Bank – the horrors of war in Ukraine too – all of these suppurating wounds are energetically connected, energetically present as Max allows his quantum state of presence to deepen, deepen, deepen – aided by Alice’s indignant anger.

There’s a humming sound – a silent humming as it can’t be heard with ears alone – a humming, a whining sound – like a wheel or wheels are spinning somewhere unseen – somewhere.

 

Do you hear, Alice?

 

I’m not sure…

 

Don’t stop.

 

Don’t stop what?

 

Release your anger and pain – it’s helping to activate qufie. Keep it flowing. We might finally discover what qufie is capable of.

 

What nonsense. Your quantum field has never helped anyone. It’s just a pathetic excuse for inaction. It affords you the luxury of being able to do nothing which persuading yourself you’re holding the fort.

 

Therefore the Master

can act without doing anything

and teach without saying a word.

Things come her way and she does not stop them;

things leave and she lets them go.

 

I’m not interested in your Tao Te Ching, Max. People are real. People matter. People are dying. People are being killed. You can take your action and inaction and shove it where the sun doesn’t shine, for all I care.

 

Yes, Alice, you’re absolutely right.

 

I am?

 

Yes. But you don’t seem to fully comprehend the extent to which you are party to the conflicts and the murderous intent that is now being unleashed on so many bystanders and innocents.

 

I? Party to the…? Are you out of your mind, Max?

 

You can see it yourself, if you bother to take the time and look and feel what’s really going on. Here…

 

Max now allows the quantum field to reveal the deeper level of inter-connectedness and brings Alice into the picture. She finds herself falling into an infinite void – or so it seems – falling… falling… falling…

 

What have you done, Max? What have you done?

 

Here, Alice, now you can see what’s really unfolding at the deeper level, if you’re willing to open your eyes and face the simple truth.

 

Open my eyes?

 

Yes. Here – look at this.

 

Alice finds herself looking at a luminous web in a vast blackness. If it was just her eyes it would make no sense, but something else, an intelligence innate to the quantum field informs her exactly what she is seeing – not with words – simply with direct knowledge.

 

This is… I can’t conceive how it can be so interconnected.

 

I know. It’s pretty wild, isn’t it? Now, focus on yourself and your connectedness to the horrors unfolding in real time – see if you can feel it internally and at the same time see it here in the living web.

 

Oh! Yes. I can actually feel areas within my field – areas which correspond to the actions taking place there.

 

Now, go into those feelings – pain, dejection, anger – whatever it is – even excitement for there are positive as well as negatives in this witch’s brew.

 

And what?

 

And see if you can affect what is happening by trying alternative states.

 

Alternative states? What exactly does that mean?

 

Well, you are infinite – and if you allow yourself to feel the infinite within – you can feel how there are states which extend into the limitless bounds of space, time and action.

 

Er…

 

They’re like different moods – different ways of organizing the matter, the narrative, the unhappy state of affairs you wish to work upon.

 

Oh. Let me see what I can do.

 

As Alice connects into the world at war – the madness and the pain – the horror and the violent passions – she finds that the heaving, seething mass of emotions and cruel intentions are but a small part of something infinitely deeper, infinitely bigger – that stars and planets are present too, that nature – birds, trees, oceans, creatures big and small, even the mushrooms and plankton are party to the above – and they all somehow meet and connect with her – that she can affect them imperceptibly, but on a colossal scale by allowing her feelings, her emotions, her intentions to shift and search for better arrangements, better configurations – better harmonies with the infinite silently present within, throughout all action and everything in the finite world of…

 

By having desire, you can only see what is visibly real.

Yet mystery and reality

emerge from the same source.

This source is called darkness.

Darkness born from darkness.

The beginning of all understanding.

 

Oh, Alice – you’re incredible. You’ve found a new arrangement, a new configuration. How does it feel?

 

How does it feel? I hardly know. I…

 

Alice is hardly able to speak or think – so deep is the experience in which she is now absorbed. She sees, she feels, she knows that the horrors that are so painful to her – the war and violence that terrifies and sickens her – is no longer real – if she is willing to hold this new configuration, this new arrangement – if she is willing to anchor this new expression of truth personally – to bring forth the beauty that was but waiting to be discovered, waiting to be birthed.

Can I do it, Max? What do you think?

 

I hardly know, Alice. I hardly kn…

 

His voice fades away as she goes to a deeper, even deeper level in which Max too is incorporated into the truth of a new harmony, a new oneness, in which the thought and action and matter that was war and violence is now peace and beauty and love – even Max…

 

But what of myself? she thinks to herself, and for a moment there is fear and doubt… dare I let go of my old-world order; dare I let go of my old world; dare I let go of my old me? dare I risk the gauntlet of death and rebirth? If my intention is pure and clear then I will manifest in the new world, stronger and closer to my true self, my true nature, my oneness, my allness, my isness of be – yet if I falter, if I lack the strength to hold this truth – then I will be blown to smithereens as many have been before… a sudden gut-wrenching sense of vertigo as she feels and experiences the terror of trusting herself wholly and implicitly to the quantum stream – as she returns to the ultimate nothingness of the primal void – unsupported, unprotected – dear God – she thinks to herself, and once more feels the deep purpose arising from her rejection of the sick horror of endless war – and she hears herself declare – I commit myself wholeheartedly and unreservedly to the infinite goodness and bounty of the quantum field, intent on restoring the beauty and harmony that I know to be good and natural, no matter what, no matter how, no matter why – so help me God.

 

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhhh! Falling, falling, falling into ever smaller, ever more iterations and possible states of beingness – Alice is utterly absorbed back into the oneness and isness of the quantum field until no part of her whatsoever remains, and the entire universe, yea, even the quantum field itself experiences a moment of “how can this be” and “what does this mean” and “where was I, am I, will I, won’t I” – in short, the quantum field experiences a minor meltdown.

 

Ah – that will be Alice – a ginormous intergalactic turtle ruminates. Alice! Yes, I was wondering when she was going to pull the rug on that data set.

 

Data set?!

 

Ah, there you are, my dear! Yes, data set.

 

You mean to say that it was just a data set?

 

I never said it was “just” a data set, but that it was a data set I have no desire to dispute or refute.

 

But it was a whole reality – a whole world at war. Endless people suffering needlessly.

 

That too, little chick, that too.

 

Little chick? Strange to tell, but at this moment she does indeed feel suspiciously like a little chick, safe and warm in a nest with a delightfully cozy mother hen nestling her.

It’s ok to be a chick. It’s as good a starting point as any, if you want my opinion.

 

But, great turtle…

 

Please, call me Alfie.

 

Er… Alfie, do you mean to say that all the horror and suffering was merely data which I took for real.

 

Now you’re using the word “merely” little chick. If you took it for real – then real it was, for you were part of its world, in the same way it was part of yours. What matters, ultimately, is that you found a way to rebalance, rearrange it so that it is now once again truly expressive of the…

 

Here Alfie paused for a moment or two as he appeared to look for the right word.

 

Well, I’ll be jiggered – I don’t seem to be able to find the right word.

 

Alice, on the other hand, chimes in – 42^*

 

*42 is the Answer to the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything in The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams.  It was calculated by the supercomputer Deep Thought after 7.5 million years of computation. 

 

Ah, yes, 42 – that was rather splendid, was it not?

 

I beg your pardon, Alfie, what was splendid? What do you mean?

 

Well, someone needs to provide the new word describing the perfect balance and harmony implicit in all and everything – and it just so happens that this time it’s a number, not a word – the answer to everything, kudos to…

 

To whom?

 

You know the one – who wrote the Hitchhiker’s guide to the Galaxy…

 

Douglas Adams

 

That’s the one.

 

You mean to say you actually read it?

 

Data, Alice, data. One can hardly avoid it, in my line of business.

 

Oh, indeed. And what, dear Alfie, is your actual line of business, if you don’t mind my asking?

 

Oh, this and that… this and that…

 

Nothing more precise?

 

Well, ultimately, we’re all in the same game, you know, aren’t we?

 

We are?

 

All generating and absorbing data or naughty noughts.

 

Naughty noughts – what are they?

 

Oh, you know, Alice – data that doesn’t pass muster.

 

Pass muster?

 

Doesn’t make it when push comes to shove.

 

You mean to say that some data is incomplete?

 

Or false. Naughty noughts – they make a lot of noise and hullaballoo – but in the end they amount to nothing.

But why?

 

Because sooner or later someone such as yourself, or Douggie, for that matter, calls their bluff – calls them out – and they collapse to nothing.

 

They do? But why? Or how?

 

No substance.

 

But how? Or why?

 

They were like naked shorts on the commodity exchange – purporting to sell stocks or contracts but unbacked by anything real.

 

Oh! And what kind of backing would they require?

 

Well, qufie being as qufie is – they need to encompass the fullness

 

the fullness?

 

Some call it the foolness – you know. The fact is, Alice, to be real or substantial the i’s have to have dots, the t’s have to be crossed.

 

and in normal English, Alfie, if you can descend to my level of ignorance?

 

Tee hee~ very droll, Alice, very droll. Unless your thingamajig, whatever it is, unless your data connects both sides of the quantum field, be that ying and yang, particle and wave or zero and one, if you prefer – it fails at the first recount. And that is where you come into the equation.

 

I do? Er…

 

Yes, dear Alice – you can come out now from under mother hen – you’re fully restored.

 

And indeed she is – a beautiful angel-like creature with the most beautiful cosmic wings.

 

Oh my~ I had no idea I looked like this~ I know not what…

 

Well, Alice, it’s been a pleasure chatting with you, but I think your new earth is waiting for you to do the honours and crack it open.

 

Crack it open? Alfie – what can you mean.

 

They will explain it to you, down there in the garden. Off you go…

 

Alice gives Alfie a big hug and flies down to the garden where she seems the most enormous iridescent egg. Around it are all sort of fairy folk, and gnomes, and other magical creatures. Evidently this is a rather important occasion in this part of the continuum.

You may have guessed, dear reader, that Alice is about to birth a new world. In fact, if truth be told, it’s an entirely new universe. It’s been growing for rather a long time, but time has a funny way of passing when you’re chatting with Alfie the turtle, does it not?

 

Indeed it does, Melanie, but that is all we have time for today. We will have to part with Alice and return to where we started out – Max in a rather happy state of trusting that things are never quite as bad as they seem – that things are often deeply deceptive – that the truth cannot be terribly bad if life is more than just a frantic state of survival – if there’s any real beauty or poetry lurking within, waiting to be discovered – all rather substantial ifs – are they not?

 

if – when push comes to shove – there is a quantum field which onely we, when the need arises, are able to access, are able to bring forth in all its wonder and glory – if I be willing, if I

 

 

0=1

unequivocally

 

Nothing really matters, anyone can see – thanks Freddie

 

Nothing matters

 

Er… I’m not sure I agree

 

Naturally

 

Er… if you were right – if nothing matters – then what would be the point of anything?

 

The point is neither here nor there. People are free to act as if things matter – to try to convince themselves that things really matter, as indeed they appear to do, without a doubt – and yet…

 

Nothing matters?

 

Absolutely.

 

But don’t you see the contradiction in what you’re saying.

 

Yes. It matters not.

 

No? Me thinks it does. If you use words to say that nothing matters – that’s like using numbers to say that all numbers add up to nought.

 

Yes.

 

Which is nonsensical.

 

Correct.

 

Then you’re talking nonsense. You’re using words which are, by their very nature, affirmative, to claim there is no value in anything – including words.

 

Paradoxical, isn’t it? Welcome to the quantum era. On the matter side of things, everything matters, words included; on the non-matter side of things – nothing matters, words included – but once you allow or accept this – you realise that “nothing” is no longer an absence or negation – that it must be something else.

 

Huh? Something else? In other words, you’re saying it must be something.

 

Yes, except it isn’t – not really – not in terms of matter or physical reality.

 

Then what?

 

Good question, Bob.

 

Well?

 

Well, it’s a bit like this elusive dark matter or dark energy, which the scientists are always banging on about.

 

It is? In what way?

 

Well, if it actually exists, which is inferred but not proven, then it’s something that is a different kind of matter altogether. We can speculate: it could be matter in a different time phase, if you like. Whatever it is, it’s “nothing” because we’re unable to perceive it,  because it doesn’t register in our reality, yet if it exists, it affects our reality by generating some kind of gravity, or by helping hold our matter in position by providing an invisible framework around or between matter itself.

 

Bah! All empty speculation.

 

Yes.

 

Worthless. Pointless. Meaningless.

 

Yes.

 

You see – you’ve achieved nothing.

 

Yes. But nothing matters, or so I contend. And besides…

 

What?

 

Infinity cannot be excluded; it cannot be ignored – or denied.

 

And what?

 

And infinity is, by definition, nothing.

 

What?!

 

Because, by definition, infinity cannot be measured or calculated – can it?

 

I…

 

Don’t know, do you?

 

I…

 

Because infinity is what neither words nor matter can contend with – though that doesn’t mean we should throw up our arms in despair, if the quantum field is now coming into play.

 

into play?

 

or into view.

 

Bah!

 

Now, rationally we’re unable to interact with the quantum field…

 

Rationally? We’re building quantum computers – so you’re talking nonsense, not for the first time.

 

Our rational minds are unable to interact directly with the quantum field. The rational mind is on one side of the y axis. The quantum field, on the other hand, is only accessible through both sides simultaneously.

 

Which is irrational, is it not?

 

Yes.

 

So why bother mentioning it?

 

Because, presumably “consciousness” is not limited to one side or t’other.

 

No?

 

No. And therefore, the quantum age is going to teach us things about consciousness we never knew, or things we knew but then forgot.

 

It is?

 

It is – it’s going to teach us how to operate a-rationally – in a state of knowing or awareness in which we don’t take sides, or don’t need to do so – in which we can simply take things as they are without needing to decide whether we agree with them or not – or whether they’re particle or wave – an entirely different waying of seeing or perceiving.

 

Bah! More speculation.

 

For otherwise we’d be unable to start to interact with infinity – and nothing would never become anything more than an absence of physicality – a rational data point.

 

A rational data point? That’s how you see things?

 

That’s one way of seeing them. Clearly they need to fit into the rational mind frame, or perhaps that should be the rational mind scape.

 

Ah – the rational mind scape… yes… interesting – even if it’s nonsensical.

 

Rationally, by definition it has to be nonsense – but then again – rationally infinity is always excluded – ostracized to the outer edge of our reality – the place where things no longer matter – like the briefest moment after Big Bang, or the outermost edge of the universe.

 

And?

 

And as long as we do that – as long as we exclude her – the dark lady – so to speak – we’re trapped in an empirical Newtonian-Einsteinian version of reality.

Bah! All nonsense. Besides, I don’t like your dark lady reference. It’s spooky.

 

Well, I don’t like dark matter – it implies it’s all inanimate.

 

And why shouldn’t it be inanimate?

 

Because we, the observer, are only able to say as much from a position of animacy.

 

And? Just because I’m animate doesn’t mean the stones or molecules I’m observing are also, does it?

 

No – it doesn’t mean anything, does it – because there’s ultimately no meaning, if you think about it – as long as you exclude infinity – as long as nothing matters not.

 

Sophistry.

 

But as soon as nothing matters – positively – then you realise that the mind making things matter – apportioning meaning and sense to people, places, things, ideas and even absences – this mind can only do so if…

 

If what?

 

If the light it sheds is able to maintain its ones in balance and harmony with zeros or noughts – the dark side of mind, of matter, of me.

 

Aaaargh!!!! What are you saying, Taya?

 

I’m saying nothing much – nothing you can rationally make sense of – everything that needs to be said to hold the two sides of the y axis in balance and harmony – without which you cannot ever, ever engage infinity.

 

And what? You think you can?

 

Think? What’s thinking got to do with it?

 

You can? Is that what you’re saying, Taya? You can engage infinity?

 

Only if nothing really matters.

 

Only if…

 

nothing really matters

 

Really?

 

Even here – in reality – in this physical 3D realm – where I can juggle ones and zeros if I don’t take sides – if I engage infinity drive and if, as God saw in Genesis when he created the universe – that is is good

 

Good?

 

good

 

 

0=1

happily