nothing much

And?

And what?

This gap – you just disappear, and you don’t even want to explain what’s going on.

Oh that.

Well?

Nothing.

Nothing?! That’s the best you can do?

Pretty neat, isn’t it.

Do I look smug or content?

You look involved, troubled – you’re evidently heavily invested emotionally in what we’re doing, or psychologically – it makes no difference.

And?

Favourite word alert!

Actually I’m upset.

You don’t say!

And you’re utterly insensitive.

Yep. That’s right.

You just disappear for a month or thereabouts.

Who’s counting?

And then pop back as if nothing’s the matter.

Excellent appraisal of the situation – well done.

?

Nothing’s the matter.

And?

Beep beep – this word groweth tired of overuse.

Who cares. I need an explanation.

You just gave it.

I…

Nothing’s the matter – which in 3D reality translates into gaps in time or space – unaccountable, inexplicable gaps – during which um – nothing matters greatly – or at least as much as everything else.

?

Rebalancing – or affording us the opportunity to rebalance – should we avail ourselves of the opportunity – should we be willing to give nothing a break.

Give nothing a break? Give me a break.

I just did.

No, I mean…

Yes – yet no – you mean not – for you too are a bearer and bringer and binder of nought – how could you be otherwise – being a-live, so to speak.

I’m not getting any of this.

Correct – absolutely – you are getting nothing of this, none of this, nought of this – whichever works best for you – but naturally, you’re hopelessly biased against nought and choose to utterly ignore, discount or disqualify it – for failing to meet your consequence criteria. In the same way, in the past, people might have ignored what a woman, a child or a black man said – because they didn’t count – they weren’t relevant, they didn’t matter – but now we know better.

I’m sorry, but this is quite different, as anyone can see.

Agreed. But which end of the attentionscope are you using – the one or the zero. You see, if you insist on using the one end – then you’ll only ever see, perceive, comprehend what matters – the up beat, the positive charge, the spatial displacement – but if you use the other end – the down beat, or the non-beat, the negative or zero charge, the temporal displacement or the absence of time are infinitely more telling, pertinent and relevant – if you feel me.

Feel?

That’s the best method – seeing is, after all, the positive basis for thought and action, is it not?

Er…

Whereas feeling… introspection and awareness – but please attach no significance to these words – or you’ll be back in seeing – even words and their so called meaning.

Er…

So, from a 3D perspective there was time or there is space – and there are people and things which are either doing or not, together or apart, attaining goals and completing objectives or… i know not what.

That’s just the point, Merry.

It is?

Yes, as soon as you start doing the nought thing – it always ends in dots leading nowhere – and what are we supposed to do?

Me knows not. Do whatever you will – it matters little if you’re unable to hold zero and one in mutual balance – to be the sum, the arbiter, the one who finds a way to keep the impossible, the infinite, the uncontainable like a wild beast that can also be tame, gentle and intelligent – if you don’t try to contain it using force or physical boundaries.

Well, how else can I contain it?

You are the containment field.

I am what?

The containment field. Infinity knows no bounds except beyond you.

Huh?

Zero equals one – how on earth can you overlook this wonderful news – which blows apart everything you think or imagine you know to be fact, or know to be certain, or know to be real. How can anything be more real than the infinite that is you experiencing anything and everything in terms, equally, of what is and…

what is not.

You see?

No, i feel.

At last.

At first – and feeling – i know.

So your month of idling wasn’t idling at all, was it?

Nay. Apparently there’s been all kinds of activity throughout the field – apparently i’m starting to sense the relationship between zero and one – even if my mind stubbornly insists it can’t, doesn’t or won’t.

Absolutely.

Fire and water.

That too. What happens when you balance ‘em both – internally.

They cancel out, or would, if this were a zero sum game, which it ain’t, is it?

No – or if it is – then it convinces us to experience an other version in which summat else kicks into play – another dimension, an other level of awareness – and suddenly – you have fusion – the hydrogen and the oxygen atomies are now no more – and water is fire inside out

or upside down

and day is night

and matter

matters infinitely until it don’t

doesn’t

don’t – until the spin flips in on itself

or around

until zero reveals the absurdity, the unfounded arbitrariness of declaring that some thing actually matters – obviously based on a fix

a fix?

Yes – sommat ‘as to be fixed deep inside, deep within

fixed? in what way?

conspiracy theory

huh?

conspiracy theory – it evidently involves an unholy alliance#

an alliance?

affirmative

with whom

with whom or with what?

or with what? well – with what then?

with matter, perchance

with matter? how? matter’s inert

on your side of infinity – yes – but… a little deduction and you can probably guess

that matter is the other side of me – or me on the other side of time

or space, absolutely – it is

i am – my god

exactly

so… 

precisely – matter fixes you in the same way that you fix it – and

never the twain shall meet

indeed. unless.

unless – i start negotiating

dancing with nought

or the devil

in a sense – yes – for how else are you going to become both sides of the equation without embracing the dark in light

the light in dark, or the water in fire, the fire in water

and thus, only then, you dance infinity back into the equation – as opposed to treating it dismissively as an insignificant equals sign

and then zero and one really take off, really come into their own – really reveal the god in man

the man in god

if

if

if

hum….