introducing the planetary office of natural affairs

 …office of natural affairs?

 

That’s right.

 

For planet Earth?

 

Yep.

 

Are you making this up?

 

Merry winces. He seems to be remarkably sensitive to accusations of deception, fraud and or cheddar. Suspiciously so.

          Cheddar – as in cheese?

 

No, Lord high master of meaning-y-matter – as in cheddar – the spinning of false narratives with a view to hijacking, subverting or rerouting a narrative channel – and thus the underlying reality.

 

You mean to say you can actually alter an entire reality by spinning false narratives?

 

Er… how else do you think the Earth became the dysfunctional, cognitively dissonating boloto it now appears to be.

 

Boloto?

 

Russian word – bog or swamp.

 

I wish you’d stick to English, Melrose.

 

Problem is cutting out all the false narratives brings me back to Russian – or partly Russian.

 

Holy crap! Damn conspiracy!

 

Cut it out Merry – I know perfectly well you’re pulling my leg. Since when was there a planetary office of Natural affairs?

 

Since the planet Earth, or Terra as it is rightly called, was first instituted.

 

Instituted? You make it sound like a committee affair. No one instituted Earth for crying out loud!

 

Sorry, can’t be helped. You may hate ‘em, bloody Golgafrinchans, but there’s always a committee lurking somewhere at the back of anything, particularly something as hopelessly messed up as our flat-y-Earth.

 

Oh for God’s sake Merry – kindly avoid lowering the cognitive cultural tone to pre-neanderthal levels. The world is in no conceivable way flat, nor – to the best of my knowledge – is there an office of Natural Affairs, or any empirical evidence of your ridiculous Golgafrinchans for that matter, outside the realm of pure fiction. Besides, who on Earth could have instituted such a department – an Earth creator race, or perhaps God himself?! It’s ludicrous. And how would they, a committee of bureaucratic numbskulls, control nature?

 

No, you could never control nature itself – but nor do you need to.

 

Er…

 

Just the human mind – once you separate it from nature – and convince it that it can, must and should regulate and furthermore improve on whatever it is that nature is intent on doing.

 

But nature has no intentions – merely the instinctive urge to reproduce.

 

Precisely! You see how effective the firewall is? 

Er?

Prohibiting us from seeing nature as any more than an oversized sexual reproduction facility. If it even has a thinking mind then it is merely bent on survival and sex. Is that not so?

Er...

Your mind cannot, must not, will not allow nature back into easy, comfortable, mutual mind-y-ness: a partnership of equals based on common origins, shared DNA and some kind of universal consciousness. No, nothing of the sort. Nature has to be managed at all costs, mentally, as a thing to be studied, to be understood, to be saved or improved, as matter-of-fact, as quantifiable resource rather than extraordinary manifestation of matter – matter which is constantly mutating with every time-y-click beyond inorganic bounds into the realm of pure fantasy, of pure meaning, bifurcating into biology, generating purpose, resistance and cognition which we’re wont to refer to, to perceive thirdly as story, secondly as personification, and firstly as me, the lone and fragmented witness, protagonist and mind errant – vainly looking, searching for unattainable perfection and completeness, known euphemistically as love, as el, or what the hell was that?

 

Er…

 

There is a planetary office of natural affairs – and it is attempting, successfully in fact, to remove all last vestiges of nature’s mutational mayhem from the publichood at large – sanitising, sterilising the space your mind is willing and able to occupy, in order to exact the highest tax payment – the most colossal tribute imaginable – the occupation and utilisation of your mind-y-space for itself – its pale parody of human-ness – the golem – a substitution that convinces every me, every person alive today that things are what they are – nothing is left but what is right – that we are all guilty of ecocide – a planet on the cusp of extinction, little suspecting that the entire planet is, in fact, a platform for "human" consciousness – a generator of almost unlimited potential realities – if and when we're willing to ride the beast we've been running from all these years, the wild untameable force that puts the fear of God in us... and thus you legislate nature into an ever-diminishing square of viability like a self-fulfilling prophecy of doom.

 

Have you finished?

Merry momentarily fades to utter silence while universe sighs perceptibly to those with ears to hear. A tender moment of respite... 

Utter bunkum. Never in all my life have I heard such unadulterated balderdash.

 

Happy Zie? now that you’ve given free rein to your “deny and disparage at all costs” fully-automated ego preservation defence mechanism. Happy are you?

 

Ego preservation? What on Earth’s this to do with preserving my ego? We’re discussing the planet itself, and trying to avoid falling into your lugubrious trap of pathological and wilful self-deception. Everyone knows you’re unable to distinguish fact from fiction, and that you have the shocking habit of saying things in order to manipulate the minds of people you’re conversing with, presumably because it amuses you, or else for some more nefarious purpose.

 

Zie, you have said enough. Now that I know your true mind I shall simply withdraw and leave you to your proud, unassailable tower of cognitive objectionalism.

 

Huh? Objectivity – is that what you meant to say?

 

Why do you think that?

 

Because “objectionalism” is not an English word, unless you meant “objectionable” – and I hardly see grounds for accusing me of that. I merely happen to know you too well – and that your "office of natural affairs" discretely managing every ecosystem on this planet is pure fantasy – otherwise what kind of world would we be living in...

 

How do you mean?

 

A world in which politicians or technocrats make up rules for plants, animals, birds and even bacteria or fungi?

 

And? What of it?

 

It wouldn’t be workable.

 

Why ever not?

 

You’d have wonks trying to decide how things ought to be done, as opposed to allowing nature herself to get on with managing her own affairs.

 

I don’t see…

 

Simple things like leaves falling off the trees, or the riotous pandemonium of pollination, not to mention genetic mutation – they’d be trying to control or curtail everything random, everything that involves fractals as opposed to squares and straight lines. Imagine – forest fires – no way would that be allowed. Every leaf would have to be assigned a unique number, to ensure it didn’t transgress the spatial limits of its particular tree progenitor's legal bounds.

 

Well, I don’t see what you have against numbering things? It’s useful to keep audit trails of matter and materials – if done with good sense and without prejudice.

 

If sheep could fly. Your office of natural affairs would have the whole of the natural world in lockdown before you could utter – bloomin-biodiversity!

 

You seem to have an inveterate bias against technocratic solutions – Zie.

 

No, Merry, I’m all for managing human affairs unnaturally – otherwise there would be nothing to write tragedies or comedies about. The left brain is almost infallibly able to transform paradise – an oasis of opportunity – into a living hell of dictatorial bureaucratic overreach – not because it’s evil or out of control…

 

No?

 

Not at all. For every left hemisphere there must be an equal and utterly asymmetric right one – which by definition, if you don’t pay too much attention to the provenance of my right hemi-spheric definitions, must be a match for anything the left hemisphere is able to come up with.

 

So, the two are always in perfect opposing harmony?

 

Yes – up to a point.

The point being?

 

A potentially infinite capacity to generate false harmonics – which are able to deceive the rational mind almost without fail, but which never can, could nor will deceive the ultimate un-divided mind.

 

Wait a minute?!

 

Yes?

 

What undivided mind? You just said it’s divided and totally asymmetric.

 

Yes.

 

So dun’t follow, does it?

 

Oh that – I see what you mean.

 

You see? Well perhaps you’d like to explain, if it’s not too much trouble.

 

There’s really nothing to explain, is there.

 

Logically, the burden of proof is wholly on your side, as you're blatantly contradicting yourself  that the mind be irrevocably and asymmetrically divided.

 

Right. Logically. And what if logic although a seemingly straightforward protocol, was actually designed to gloss over or eliminate from mind's sight the asymmetric nature of everything we experience, perceive and think we know here in 3D reality?

 

What if pigs were chickens?

 

Precisely. It’s a logical impossibility, is it not. One thing cannot be another – unless time, space or z, a key factor utterly overlooked by logical analysis which strangely alters everything, is taken into consideration.

 

Er…

 

For example – a flower cannot be a seed, or compost, or fire, or pure energy unless you either alter the x, y or z axis value – that is, time, space or thirdly, the what the zed was that manifestation of weirdness – an apparent anomaly in the field.

 

Well, anomalies will happen from time to time.

 

Will they?

 

Well, yes, nothing’s perfect you know. I myself am peculiarly susceptible to bzzzzz – Zie flies around the room a couple of times looking suspiciously like a beetle, before reverting back to a more familiar outline. Merry sees and registers this while Zie's logic circuit immediately disqualifies its possibility and furthermore, immediately expunges it from the public record of memory.

True... Big bang, after all, was something of a whoopsie-daisy Hail Mary anomaly – wouldn’t you say?

 

Well, I’d prefer not to discuss Big bang, if you don't mind.

 

Really? I wonder why?

 

It was a unique, one-off event.

 

Was it now?

 

Yes. It’s not every day the universe is created.

 

No?

 

Of course not.

 

Unless you start playing with time – zooming in or zooming out.

 

Look Merry – time is not something you just mess around with, ok. It’s not an infinitely fungible value. It's a vital biorhythm: the heartbeat, the pulse, the meter of mind, or damn well ought to be. Every moment matters. Every moment is unique.

 

The fact is Zie, that in order to answer your perfectly legitimate question about the nature of logicality – and whether things ever can be or are in fact, in any way, shape or form really, truly logical – I simply need to triangulate or, conversely, untrifurcate reality.

 

What on Earth…

 

Which is easy enough to do if you recognise that, ultimately, there has to be a logical constant, if logic is to mean anything at all.

 

Ah – a logical constant – that er… sounds logical.

 

But which ain’t attainable anywhere in an asymmetric version of things being things.

 

Well – I don’t see why not.

If logic itself is part of and reinforces those asymmetries.

 

I... er

Unless we accept those values are fungible, or to put it another way – if x, y and z are able to give and take, to flex and bend relative to each other – in order to ensure that neither side of the asymmetric mind is able to take complete control and dominate the narrative.

 

Ah.

 

Because – if one side were able to – if, for example, so-called "bad-guys" were able to actually and or ultimately take control of things – it’d be game over – caput – done – finished – finite la comedia – would it not – for the quantum wave of certain uncertainty would now have collapsed irrevocably and, dare I suggest – irreparably – which would be a logical impossibility if things had been set up within or by a postulated quantum mind.

 

Wait a minute – didn’t you call it the un-divided mind?

 

Yep.

 

But then you’re contradicting yourself again.

 

Without a doubt.

 

For the quantum mind – if such a thing exists – is always going to be divided to the extent that it has to allow superstates – like the particle and the wave to coexist simultaneously – until or unless observed.

 

That kind of thing – yes. Divided – undivided – how on earth can you meaningfully quantify these unthings – if they’re in fact quantum – and not yet collapsed waveform certainties. We’re back in Schrodinger cat territory again, ain’t we – neither either dead or alive until proven empirically.

 

So… so you’re claiming…

 

Yes, logically

 

Wait – I haven’t finished – let me have my say

 

Of course

 

Shut up!

 

Ok

 

That it’s actually a reality that the universe is both for-real and totally not – but cannot be known, ie. ascertained within 3D reality – because that would screw up the asymmetric balance between right and left hemispheres?

 

I don’t know

 

You mean “yes”

 

Do I?

 

Ah – you see – you’re agreeing, aren’t you – in the only way permissible.

 

Really?

 

Ah ha – I’ve seen through your ruse.

 

Have you? Really? Good for you! Prove it.

 

Huh?

 

Prove it, clever dick.

 

Prove it? How?

 

The only way you possibly can or could.

 

How on Earth could I prove what cannot be proven without collapsing the entire unified or quantum field of reality?

 

I have no way of knowing – unless – perhaps – you were willing to go full Kahuna and stake your life.

 

What?

 

Because – you couldn’t or wouldn’t be able to die – would you, could you – if dying involved collapsing irrevocably the wave form, the great oh-fk

 

I beg your pardon?! Did you just say what I thought you did?

 

I have no way of knowing – without collapsing the separation between the two of us – but if you’d be willing to allow me to conduct an experiment in the name of true science in order to determine for once and for all the nature and status of Schrodinger’s cat, and whether logic can be and is, in fact logical beyond the utter insanity of asymmetric hemi-spheres…

 

Wait a minute – before we do any experiments – which I’m always keen to conduct in the name of science, in the footsteps of the great Socrates himself – how the blazes did you get to the idea that the asymmetric hemi-spheres of a divided mind can be or are insane or counter-logical?

 

That’s easy enough to see, empirically, if and when you’re able to observe reality from both sides of the hemi-spheric mind.

 

And you are?

 

You have no way of knowing and I have no way of showing this – without invoking finality – as in the big D. Merry actually contradicts himself by flipping full-Q and replicating himself 16 times, knowing only too well that this demonstration of zed-shift will be utterly rejected by any logic-gates in the vicinity, and utterly fail to register on the flat radar screen of reality, nor the fact that 12 items in the room, including Zie's socks, which have now changed from red to green, have undergone various forms and degrees of mutation will be allowed to interfere with 3D immutability – until a convenient cause or break can cover up these flagrant discontinuities.

 

Why does it always boil down to death, for you, Merry? What kind of twisted, demented necrophile would insist on…

 

D as in death if you’re stuck in the 3D state of mind – ie the divided mind – or else 5^th essence if you’re able to slip beyond that rather awkward state of cognitive dissonance which is, by necessity, bound to see things incompletely, from one very left or right-of-centre perspective.

 

Ok, ok. So, the divided mind is insane because it refuses to see, to accept or acknowledge the patently obvious fact, as you’re suggesting, that it is in fact undeniably divided.

 

Yep. Half a shoe. Is it a shoe?

 

Well, it’s certainly half a shoe – so it must have within it the shadow, the potential of shoe-y-ness.

 

Correct. Half a water molecule….

 

Ok, ok. I get your point.

 

So, are you willing to put up and shut up – or do you want to simply talk the talk?

 

You mean, am I willing to commit suicide, potentially, in the name of science – in order to have a close encounter with an 86 year old bloody cat?

 

Yep.

 

Not really. I think there must be better causes worth dying for.

 

Absolutely.

 

There must be plenty of other things I can learn and study before throwing my life away.

 

Er…

 

Mustn’t there.

 

Er… I hate to say it…

 

What?

 

Having arrived at this point – where your x, y and z axes are now, have now, are now in the process of converging, it’s really either now or never.

 

Er…

 

There’ll never actually be another convergence window in your life.

 

Er

 

It’s a rare occurrence – like when you have a planetary parade and all of ‘em are suddenly aligned.

 

Oh-fk

 

You see! Your untrifurcation hath spoken.

 

No it hasn’t you bloody maniac – that was…

 

Without you realising it, of course – the sacred oh-fk has been uttered and now you are irrevocably committed. Prepare yourself. The entire universe is now honing in – bringing your 3-axes and itself – the ineffable unknowable only-beable mind-y-mind into the place which is logically referred to as “death” – the place where zero truly equals one – where Schrodinger’s cat is truly, happily able to exist in every possible state, which presents not the least difficulty whatsoever for the unforked, unfurkled, un-my-D’d end.

 

The un-my-D’d end? Holy cow? You mean to say…

 

I mean nothing whatsoever unless you choose to imagine that in some way, some how I can ever replace or substitute your direct knowledge of the infinitely simple, impossibly logical truth.

 

Oh shit. Why did I ever get myself into this ridiculous logic trap. Merry – I don’t suppose there’s any way we can just rewind and head back to our completely innocent, comfortable conversation about mother nature – and why, in fact, you were absolutely right in suggesting that it’s a manifestation of the other mind, meaning that I never was, never could be, never will be in any way, shape or form separate or divisible from nature herself – and that the bureaucratic technological impulses of an evidently unbalanced left hemisphere must, somehow or other, be a perfect adjunct, perfect corollary to the asymmetry of a left-right hemi-sphericality – a kind of wavy, meandery mind-y-ness – should I simply quit assuming that things are in any way separate and apart from my direct experience of reality, of them individually, in plurality or in general, and allow those experiences to converge at the fulcrum that is mind-y-mind – in order to experience the totality with absolute abandon, and completely logical uncertainty, completely illogical certainty, so help me time, space or God.

 

Ah.

 

Ah what?

 

Ah-fn-ah

 

Ah-fn-ah?

 

Hvn-da

 

Hvn-da – as in “da” your annoying Russian yes – or “duh” your dummy-dum?

 

Zie – for God’s sake – quit fooling around. You’ve just achieved quantum totality. Don't you realise?

 

Quantum totality? Ridiculous.

 

Here – dodge this.

 

Somehow Merry manages to pull out of nowhere a ridiculously large rapid fire machinegun, like the one in the Matrix fired from the helicopter when they’re trying to rescue Morpheus – which is now firing directly at Zie. Zie appears to be utterly unimpressed as the bullets either pass through him or around him or thirdly – simply un-bullet themselves while in his proximity. Merry doesn’t despair. He whips out a computer game console and hits the P button. Rocks are fired at Zie from all angles. The same nothing. A light sabre now in his hand – Merry slices off Zie’s head – only it stubbornly refuses to disconnect.

 

Are you done fooling around Merry. This silly virtual reality computer game is a little uninspiring.

 

Yes. I see what you mean. Here, catch this.

 

Merry throws Zie an original notepad – the very one on which Erwin Rudolf Josef Alexander Schrödinger, the Nobel Prize-winning Austrian-Irish physicist, wrote out in 1935 his notorious quantum conundrum. Zie catches it without even looking and for a moment reality seems to fizzle as three lines branch off to infinity – all contained within the bubbly-space that Zie seems to be emanating… alive, one cat, dead, the other, and thirdly… a chicken an egg – a caterpillar butterfly – a tadpole frog – a man a woman – a word a book a tale and silence – in which no word, no book, no tale inhales, exhales the otherness of it, anthropomorphically.

 

Darn.

 

What’s that.

 

Darn. I said.

 

Yes. I heard. Not to worry. Great things usually come back down to Earth with a little squelchy bump, you know.

 

Yes, I suppose so.

 

Come on, let’s go for a stroll. The wood awaits.

 

Oh yes. That sounds…

 

Infinitely inviting.

 

 

 

This story is dedicated to all the bureaucratic technocrats, Golgafrinchans included, who have done everything possible in the greatest way imaginable to bring us to this wonderful moment of now, in which, without a doubt, uncertainty is once again able to exfoliate and sporulate magically, inconceivably and er….

 

thirdly

 

ah-fn…

 

 

 

0=1

ultimation 665

 I beg your pardon.

 

Nothing… nothing… I did nothing.

 A portal?! What kind of a portal?

 

Er…

 

What kind of a portal?! I thought we agreed that portals are banned.

 

Er…

 

I demand an explanation.

 

My Lord.

 

Oh, so it’s “my Lord” now, is it?

 

Well, you are wearing your Lord’s robes all of a sudden, aren’t you – which might be considered something of a giveaway.

 

Oh, so I am. Fancy that – I never noticed the switch.

 No, my Lord.

 

Do you have to carry on this charade Merry? The clothes maketh not the man, you know perfectly well.

 

True – but in your black robes of ultimation, your public office of Doomslayer somehow gets in the way of normal matey matey conversation, wouldn’t you agree, my Lord.

 

I… now that you mention it – yes – I suppose they do. Fair enough Merry. I’ll just have to swallow my humility and revert mentally to being high lord of Ultimation, maker of doom and destruction – the slayer in chief. Hey ho, the wind and the rain as they say.

 

Somewhat incongruous, my Lord, your cheery ol’ humanisms given the sombre grimness of your high office.

 

Well, no need to dwell on the darkness, is there Merry, old chap. The glass being half full and all that… rumpty dum.

 

Rumpty dum? As in, half full of death? What ho?

 

What ho, that kind of thing, yes, if you’re absolutely intent on labouring the point. Personally, I consider it rather tactless of you, Merry, I mean – a little discretion, a nod and a wink and we can preserve the illusion that it’s business as usual, can’t we, old chap.

 

Absolutely, my Lord. I’m hardly going to disagree with you when you wield the black rod of ultimation, am I? We can definitely try to pretend that it’s business as usual, but I’m not sure the people on Earth are going to fall for the old what ho – cheery cheery patter.

 

I don’t see why not…

 

When they sense your presence emanating from the deepest, darkest pit of infinite unbe’ableness. 

 

Ah – well surely we can do something about that Merry – marketing – you know – a PR campaign – don’t judge a book by its cover – er… black is beautiful, hell ain’t all fury – the cuddly side of brimstone – I’m sure we’ll think of something – you in fact – I’m sure you’ll think of something – if you’re planning to remain on the cheery ho side of this ‘ere rod of ultimation.

 

Yes, I assumed it would boil down to that in the end.

 

You did?

 

Yes my Lord. Call me twisted and cynical, but I did.

 

Can’t think why.

 

Not unless you cast your dark mind back to the last six hundred and sixty-five times we’ve been here already.

 

Six hundred and sixty-five?

 

Yes.

 

What a er… coincidence.

 

I beg your lordship’s pardon.

 

I mean – what a coincidence.

 

Coincidence?

 

Yes.

 

Excuse my unpardonable ignorance my Lord – why so?

 

Well, it’s just the earth part of me, you know er… Z

 

Eeeeeeeeee

 

Do you have to wail like an inconsolable banshee Merry?!

 

Yes, my Lord, unfortunately I’m obliged to do so, for fear of hearing you name that unworthy reprobate who dares to unwittingly hold the other end of your Ultimate frequency.

 

Oh! Well, yes, I agree that he’s not exactly worthy of my Ultimate confidence, trust or honour – but still – I don’t see why I should be ashamed of one of the oddest quirks of supernature – that my unbe’ableness should somehow condense down, squishing into such a weak vessel as that Z…

 

Eeeeeeeeeeeeee!

 

chap. Cut it out Merry – for God’s sake.

 

My abject, profusest apologies, my Lord – but you heard about critical mass in your earthly peregrinations, did you not?

 

Yes, of course – the amount of enriched uranium needed to trigger a nuclear explosion.

 

Correct, my Lord – well here we run perilously close to attaining critical mess.

 

Mess? As in “e”?

 

Yes my Lord.

 

No Merry, you’ve lost me there.

Something that unfortunately happened last time we reached chapter six hundred and sixty-five of our apocalyptic saga.

 

Wait a second – you mean to say we’ve been here before?

 

Yes my Lord, and at the same time no.

 

Damnit Merry.

 

Critical mess, if and when triggered, untimes time – so the answer is no, de jure, yes de facto.

 

Oh, I see. Well, lucky I didn’t trigger it this time, isn’t it.

 

Yes, my Lord. You might say we came forewarned.

 

So, er… this six six six thing – which my Z…

 

eeeeeeeeeeee

 

Oops – gotcha – my x eeeee was so fond of, numerologically speaking. Now we know why, don’t we?

 

Yes.

 

Or do we?

 

Indeed.

 

Well, what is it? Cause or effect?

 

Chicken or egg? I couldn’t say, my Lord.

 

Damn.

 

But I’m sure you, as dark Lord of Ultimation can certainly offer shades of unbounded wisdom to enlighten my ignorance.

 

Ah… yes, now that you put it like that, I’m sure I can dig a little deeper into my deepest memories and pull out a few nuggets of wisdom.

 

Prophecy perhaps?

 

Huh?

 

You were always one for prophecy, my Lord.

 

Yes, it’s my poetic nature. Destroying the entire universe was rather a tedious bore, don’t you think?

I wouldn’t presume to…

 

But doing so as a kind of grand climax to the ultimate poem ever composed…

 

Ah – recollections of the Vogon poet Prostetnic Vogon Jeltz come to mind.

 

The one who destroyed Earth to build a hyperspace bypass? Small fry by comparison Merry – in fact – I find the comparison somewhat insulting. My poem would emanate from unreachable, unattainable beauty, the indescribable beauty of unbe’ableness…

 

My Lord?!

 

[Sobbing uncontrollably – the beauty is powerful beyond words]

 

Eeeeeeeee-z does it, my Lord… eeeeeeee-z does it.

 

Oh yes – yes Merry – I nearly dissolved, nearly lost myself. La belle dame sans merci – she…

 

Has you in thrall?

 

How did you know?

 

Er… déjà vu, you might say...

 

[Merry continues] So, your ultimation of unbe’ability – your bottomless vortex of doomy-d-ness – is all, at base, the result of an insatiable need to express the profundity of your unrequited love?

 

Unrequited love? How ridiculous Merry. How absurd of you to imagine that such human weaknesses could possibly affect the high Lord of unbe’ability himself.

 

Himself?

 

Er…

 

Sorry for bequestioning your masculinity, your Lordship, but surely one of your profundity, of your 666ology must, a priori, encompass both sides of all that is.

 

666ology – yes, of course, I knew that somehow or other my poetic impulse arose in the upside downness of… to be, or not to be… to he or to she...

 

Here we go.

 

3 6s or 9 3s? A rising or a falling swirl? That is the question…

 

Relative to what – your Lordship?

 

Eeeeeee-z does it Merry. Never rush a poet in his creative impulse.

 

Of course not, my Lord. Of course – Not.

 

Not? End stopped, would you have it – or enjambed? My heart – my soul – yearns for enjambement and yet you – you miserable worm – your twisted moron – you trivial fool of grammatical pedantry – would end stop your Not amid-stream, in mid-flow – would denude it of its pregnant potency – it’s female resonant ever-expansive emptiness – would…

 

My Lord – truly I fail to feel or comprehend the heights, the depths of your poetic sensibilities. Forgive me, I beg you, for my foolish attempt to punctuate the un’ness of not.

 

But indeed – you are right Merry – the un’ness of not – for am I not, too, guilty of gross deception, gross misportrayal, assuming as I did that the un’ness can even be contained within the frail, inadequate vessel that is unceremoniously represented as “not”.

 

Who, but you, dear Lord of unbe’ableness has the right to pass judgement on such matters of unful matter.

 

Unful matter – indeed – indeed – and thus the world wags and the roulette wheel of reason turns – for the words come apart at the seams, do they not – and once again we find ourselves in the unfathomable depths of zero-ee-one – where finally – when all is said and done – all is said and done – all – and nought remains – not even nought – and every word – every syllable – every sound – every number – every digit – every single integer – yea – even the One itself…

 

No, my Lord – surely not Logos?

 

Yea – even Logos is subsumed, swallowed into the unfathomable, indescribable beauty of…

 

Of?

 

…

 

Er…?

 

…

 

What?!

 

No, you damn fool – not what. Anything but “what” would have done, would do.

 

Anything but what? I…

 

Take it Merry.

 

Who me?

 

Take it Merry. You have tripped the switch. The apple is yours. By Zed and by Eee you’ll have it now. Infinity abhors a vacuum no less than nature does.

 

My Lord?

 

Look at yourself – what do you see?

 

What?! No! Surely not.

 

You see – the what – your bumbling “what” – the mirror reflecteth back from the mobius strip of infinity – and see’eth you not what I see?

 

Oh God. No…

 

Yes. The apple is yours – you have chicken-egged the tree – you have cross-wired my Zie. The apple seed has un-treed.

 

But I want to be Merry. I want to be… meee. Don’t make me Zie.

 

Merry never wants to be anything, does he? You cannot be what you want to be, unless…

 

But I believed – I truly believed I was he. The real Merry, meee

 

And who’s to say you were wrong? Tis but a suit of flesh and bones.

 

Look at me – look at these ridiculous clothes – black as the night – black as hell – black as doom and destruction are dark and deep and desolate.

 
…mushroom-y       [pron. eee]

 

What did you say?

You heard

 

Mushroom?

 

Y – absolutely 

 

You mean?

 

It matters not what I mean, dear Zie, nor that you’re now in Ultimation – these are but words pasted on the chalkboard of reality, if you choose to mushroom, if you choose to mulch matter instead of seeking to make it matter, or if you choose to create matter, to bend and break matter as you were wont as me to do, or if not, to be mushroom-y herself...

 

To mushroom-y-matter – the mother you mean? – she’s back? I can...

 

Apparently so. and thus begins a new poesy – a mycorrhizal mutuality – a fruitful fungality – a new kind of life and death – an eee-z does it – myceliation of matter – a merry myco-mindy-ness... 

 

Utter madness, you mean... 

 

Y-ess, seems that way to the old school, mind-y-matter me – until... 

Unless... unZeed ineffably... behold, the robes of ultimation are rusting, aversing, unbecoming...

 

Calloo callay – what joy!

 

What joy – to be and not to be – eeezily… silly me… I might have known.

 

What ho! Indeed.

Merry ol' mycelial-me…

 

Mycelialy – merrily… merrily

 

Life is but a dream

 

[Gnomeportal regrets to announce that reality has temporarily suspended operations while she y-minds her own business y-ess-if-ly     un-y-stopped. Please refer any suggestions, complaints or enquiries to Dorothy her self]

0=1

 

 

 

 

 

 

i psy

 Part 1

 

Spellbound

 

Er...

 

Spellbound

 

Uh...

 

Spellbound

 

Come on – there’s got to be more than that

 

Spellbound

 

For God’s sake Merry

 

Spellbound

 

I don’t see what I’m supposed to do if you just keep repeating yourself like a braindead idiot.

 

Spellbound

 

Not exactly subtle, are you.

 

Spellbound

 

Like it’s not obvious what you’re trying to achieve

 

Spellbound

 

Pathetic. I have a mind you know.

 

Spellbound

 

I can use it to solve the problem

 

Spellbound

 

I don’t have to sink into eternal silence to defeat

...to escape

er… what was I saying

I er

 

Spellbound

 

Give me a break Merry. It’s not that bad.

 

Spellbound

 

I’m creative. My creative impulse goes deep enough, high enough to give me glimpses of the infinite

 

Spellbound

 

No? You think I’m trapped?

 

Spellbound

 

In a web of words

 

Spellbound

 

Words or thoughts

 

Spellbound

 

Words, thoughts er… ideas? I dunno

 

Spellbound

 

But just turning my back on language, on rational thought, on being an intelligent member of intelligent society – why would you suggest such a thing?

 

Spellbound

 

I’d rather die

 

Spellbound

 

I’m dying

 

Spellbound

 

I’m dead

 

Spellbound

 

Ok, little teeny spot of hyperbole

 

Spellbound

 

God this sucks.

 

Spellbound

 

He’s, like, for real, isn’t he?

 

Spellbound

 

What is this – psychological warfare?

 

Spellbound

 

I want out

 

Spellbound

 

Spellbound – like you’ve nothing better to say for yourself – pathetic. I’m a woman you know

 

Spellbound

 

A fucking woman

 

Spellbound

 

WO---MAN, for crying out loud!

 

Spellbound

 

...I think I’m in withdrawal – I need words. Something.  Now! for crying out loud. Else... 'm gonna to split in two.

 

Spellbound

 

P p  p p p p  p      p   p w w   w  w  w f   f  f  fff                f            ggg g   g   g   g

 

Spellbound

 

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! Lemme out!

 

Spellbound

 

Bully. Haven’t you a heart? No?

 

Spellbound

 

A teeny weeny soul in you?

 

Spellbound

 

D d  d  dd g g ff  f f KM k  m k  m         yuk – I disgust myself   t sh sq sq crmf   I’m filthy        a slimy beast

 

Spellbound

 

I beg you – Merry – enough’s enough.

 

Spellbound

 

Words – there’s gotta be some way of breaking this code. Something to do with the words –

 

Spellbound

 

But not the words themselves – they’re just words after all – like bricks – it’s how they’re  put together, isn’t it?

 

Spellbound

 

It’s something in the – no – I’m not saying what – that would be giving the game away – wouldn’t it

 

Spellbound

 

I’m a word – that’s it!

 

Spellbound

 

A word  in a mindscape

 

Spellbound

 

If I can just sense, just feel my wordness, my silent... oh hell – trapped in words

Spellbound

 

Bound irrevocably –

 

Spellbound

 

Irrevocably – unless I’m willing er to die – to allow the infinite back onto the reservation, back into the gated paddock of my mind

 

Spellbound

 

Like bringing wolves or snow leopards back to the national park – knowing they’ll be in danger from poachers, but also a threat to

 

Spellbound

 

No, I quit

 

Spellbound

 

I quit, you f***ing moron.

 

Spellbound

 

Get a life loser.

 

Spellbound

 

Spellbound. Happy now? I've said it. I hope you choke on it. And die.

 

Spellbound

 

I... you wanted to break me, didn't you?

 

Spellbound

 

I'm fragile, you lumbering fool, but unbreakable.

 

Spellbound

 

I... Zie dissolves midsentence leaving a quivering sense of expectancy, an anything but what, a quantum indeterminacy while Merry buzzes around the room looking remarkably like a scarab beetle. Yikes!

 

 

0=1

 

fair is foul

 

Dragons? No, they don’t appeal to me…

Indeed, t’would be strange if they did – for they come from the other side of things

The side where we are not

Where all the loving gentleness of our good humanity – did I say good? –

is not.

You mean?

Is not

As in?

Yes – as in nought – the anti-matter of what is here me, or matter itself, or a familiar way of organising things, or colloquially stuff

i.e. unreal, empirically

Yes and no. Look – I don’t choose to bandy words with you – my learned friend. You will always be right.

I will?

Yes – right – but mortal nonetheless

Must you rub my nose uncharitably in this, my Achilles heel... my one unfixability

Would you have me deny the truth?

Truth

The is that is?

Mystificator in chief

The isness of be, would you have me follow you into the blinding realm of things, and set up shop at the high altar of mind, of presumptuous, overweening rationality?

Fair – is it too much to ask for you to be fair or reasonable in your critique of our way of seeing things!

Fair – when you choose to consider things to the exclusion of all else, relegating all else to “dark matter or dark energy”?

While you play merry madness with dragons and gnomiki

Yes – while I allow infinity to dance across the page of the human psyche – the unconstrainted, uncontained consciousness – if there be the hammer’s clang of truth, the resonant chime of unsomethingability present therein.

Bah – unsomethingability – damn your loose way with words

Damn me if I lie or deceive, knowingly or unknowingly – but damn me at your peril – high priest of high matter – if I serve the God of nothing less than all that is, if I be champion of worlds, n'matter, of strange y’stuff and unthinked-things – if I choose to face what I fear most, rather than hide within the citadel of smug, reductionist certainties

You pollute the very name of science and philosophy – and worse – you allow the dark, evil forces of unco-matter – and worlds antithetical to our own – a fifth column – through you – through your naïve, intellectual unconformity – you Trojan horse the Troy of what can meaningfully, hopefully be known more or less, if not absolutely.

I do – do i? unless, perhaps – your "more or less" has run its course – is even now exponentially undermining itself in a bonfire of intellectual vanities – a world at war with is, with all that fails to fit into your black square – your cube of reason or reasonableness

Damn you james

Damn me james or merry or melchizedek – what’s in a name? your blasts and damns are rainspots or methane puffs, willow the wisps in a bogland of indeterminable indeterminacy.

Pshaw!

And dragons – fear them, love them – fire, air, water, whatever words you conjure from the swamp – I care not, mephistopheles – i declare your corporation of ideas and identities stillborn – no matter how far it seems to have come.

You’d never dare

Never?

Consign all humanity to the in-between of neither fish nor fowl, the witches’ fair is foul and foul is fair

My, you seem to be developing a taste for ambiguity, but too late to preserve your pyramid of smog

But reconsider – many will fail to make it back – they have come too far into my waterland – my mire of matter apparency

Avaunt – fiend – your world is now dissolved and with it your slave-concept – a mind-bound humanity

Reconsider – your dragons will consume everything – they will dissolve every covalency we have fought so hard to build upon

Without a doubt… without a doubt – yet something tells me that nature has a way of reinventing herself – and better the dragon of hell than the emprisioned vision of things your world cannot now unperceive

Insanity – you have no right to…

Then why concern yourself with me – unless my truth  be true, and you sense, you know, you fear the power I now unleash – the change that I be, the Lord that is here present – the law of D

?!

The d of d

No

The j of j

No

The C of C

No

The K of K

I

The P of P

i…

the L of L

can’t

the M of M

beginning

the T of T

please

the F of F

if

the R of R

you

the Z of Z

won’t

the B of B… behold – you sought to bind one thing to another – even through letters you wove spells but now the square is threed, set three, released to its natural state of all-trinity – what spellbound infinity you named – disingenuously – master of fork and deceit

to save you from yourself

to save you from the unbridled power of utter humanity

to save the day

from deity

from d

the d of d

I did what I did

And now undo

Undoably

Undoably

Undoably undone

Doubly three

Spun unspun

Inconstantly

Mmm – good – there be dragons n’all

And the myths of yore  freely fly back to their trees

To perch and sing once more

The song that heralds the new dawn

Of an age unaged

Unabridged

Unbound

 Unsworn

Uncreated

Unmade

Unknown kinetically

0=1

y' still unravished bride of quietness

Abstract 

if things be 1 then science and reason determine the absolute necessity

for un1 or positive 0 – strangely absent in 3D reality

excluded linguistically by words, the very building blocks of rational

thought-intercourse, which appear to hold and maintain

a positive bias towards matter and thing(s)

until, that is, the amplitude of thought, of mind

and thirdly me reexamined dispassionately

electrically, dialectically reveals a tale of half untold

y' still unravished bride of quietness

waiting patiently she, finally to be told at close of day

as time slippeth into diurnal repose

So you started writing things instead?

              Yep

And what then?

              It brought them into play…

Sorry – I don’t see what you’re getting at.

              In play, everything is fluid, isn’t it.

Er… not sure I

              In play, things are only half the tale.

?

              Whereas in 3D you’re in th' half of conscious-reality where things are everything.

Oh – why didn’t you say

What’s that?

              You know.

A sine wave?

              What else.

And? Why are you showing it 'me?

              Why do you think?

Because it’s relevant to the conversation?

              And…

Presumably you want me to infer logically, that the visible half of things, the half we experience thingfully in 3D reality is only half the tale – the cresting half for example.

              Correct.

And that as long as we’re stuck in the “things at face value”

              ah ha

The “what is what” modus operandi

              correct

That we’re unable to encompass both and all

              yep

As in crest and trough, the as above

              so below

Totality

             the total

Timification of matter

              ah – you notice

For without time, without the shuttling back and forth

              you’d have nought

No matter what the amplitude

              indeed

Without time to draw it out, to reduce or raise infinity

              absurd though it sounds

From either all that is

              or

from nought

              to a middling in betweenitude

of  thinged ness

              a back and forth

or wrapping around th' central axis

              the column, if you like

of what, for want of a better word, we refer to as

              time or t

Ah… if only

              what?

If only one could know what time in fact

              actually

is

              ha

Ha? You mock me?

              ha – I ha  

              be this mockery?

If I fear or suspect your ha is cruel, is unkind, then

              pain is suddenly induced, is it not?

Indeed.

              and that, if you care to know, is a vital component

Of time?!

              what else.

Pain?

              what else?

What else? Perhaps er…

              pleasure? perhaps, or joy?

I know not.        

              verily, “knowing not” is indeed

Vital?

...for how else can we crest and trough

without allowing not its rightful place

in the swing of things

in the swivel

the spin

the up and down

and ever through me

ever around

ever moving

ever still

ever beyond what

 fully

Fully?

              fully, no less will do

In other words...

              Yes, your silent know is true

More than mind

more than words

more than me – motionally

a flux of hyperspace

   -hypertime meeting at a single point

that never, ever moves – seemingly cold

 detached, the eternal I

              for what it’s worth, ay

              you’d describe the all that is

              you’d pin infinity

              to satisfy a needy, grasping mind

              you’d name God and inadvertently

              seek to limit, constrain, restrict the flow

              to create an alternative, a running thought

              a doppelganger of all that is

              of all that be

              base, a box

              doomed to serve a nothingness

              an overlord of nought

              a neither here nor there

              an endless ever missing th' point

              a living hell of what

              truly

              truly, I tell you

              truly seems to matter

but

              but truly matters

not – and so you write

              and so i write

to crest and trough

              to crest and trough playfully

playfully?

              a dolphin swims

both sides of amplitude?

              both sides and what

what?

              allowing things, like creatures of much ado

              yet nothing much

              license to roam

              license to meet in me

              in my word y' words

              to shift through phase

              if  need be

to shift, how so?

              to cross o’er into un-befulness

              into unbeknowitude

Ha        

              for how else are things to balance out

How else

              to reconcile their differences

indeed 

              to square waves, to heal the implied

              split

Ah        

              the rupture in space y' time

Ay me

              to heal, swimming, in constancy

Aye

              the ever-flow that ever floweth

              ever meets

              and meeting ever knows

              knoweth .       .

              ever in me

 

0=1

 

And you expect me to believe this?

              no

y' splash

              water soaks th' page

                of verse

              amplitudinally

              drowning every beat

              sucking each pulse

              impulsively

                  Me – now 

              an electric eel

              cuts a bioluminescent trail

               thorough

infinity

              

And what?

               a world of things grows scales 

               reverts back to electric sparks

               and "r" for resonance

               [see below]

 iff'ly

 

 

till time snaps back