Wednesday, November 19, 2025

the reluctant alchemist


I

 

It’s just a book for Chrissake. Quit taking it so seriously.

 

You mean to say it has no relation to real life experiences?

 

Hell no! Why would you think that?

 

Oh, you know me, Dan, always ready to try out a new conspiracy theory.

 

Look, Ann, there’s this thing called fiction. You write a story. You create an imaginary world. A self-contained reality. You fill it with characters and events and then you offer it to the public for consumption. They read it. They either like it or not. It lives a life of its own in their minds, in their imaginations.

 

I think I just about know what fiction is Dan.

 

Well then why on earth are you accusing me of being some kind of magician just because I wrote a book in which there's an alchemist?

 

I don't know. It's just a little too convincing if you ask me.

 

Great! You mean I did a good job writing it. I appreciate the positive review.

 

No, the book sucks but no one's reading it for the plot or character portrayal.

 

No? That's a pity.

 

Everyone's reading it for the alchemy, taking notes, trying to figure out how or what they can do themselves.

 

How they can do themselves?

 

Syntax error.

 

Ok. Well that's the fun of literature isn't it, people get to live through their own heroes, imagining they themselves can fly or kill an advancing army single-handedly.

 

Yep, no one's disputing that.

 

Then your problem is solved...

 

On the contrary.

 

On the contrary?

 

Yep. Either you’re being disingenuous and playing me for a fool, or everyone who’s busy trying to replicate the novel’s alchemy is strangely deluded.

 

Well it’s obviously the latter, isn’t it, which just goes to show the power of great literature. A story, no matter how bad it appears to be, superficially, if it manages to convince the readers that it’s for real... what more can I say?  Pure genius.

 

You have said quite enough Dan. Frankly, I think you’re in big trouble.

 

Trouble? What are you talking about?

 

You think they’re just going to look the other way when someone starts revealing their secrets.

 

They, Ann—who the hell are they—and what freakin secrets are you on about?

 

Firstly, Dan, quit cussing—no one’s impressed, and secondly, if you really don’t know what I’m talking about then it’s probably too late to do anything to help.

 

Huh?

 

Talk about stepping on a hornets’ nest.

 

Er…

 

Supposing you really don’t know who “they” are then maybe, just possibly they’ll leave you alone.

 

Oh, that’s nice. They value my innocence, do they?

 

But personally I think it unlikely. It’s going to be well nigh impossible persuading them that you’re an innocent who just happened to write a fantasy tale about alchemy, which just happened to get a bunch of readers asking dangerous questions and looking in places they’ve not thought of looking before in order to unlock secrets which have been under wraps for millennia.

 

Millennia? You’re kidding, right?

 

Do I look like I’m kidding?

 

No, not really, Ann, but then you never do—a sense of humour’s not one of your…

 

Quit making light of this, Dan. It isn’t a joking matter.

 

Well what do you want me to do? If your dark forces are even now closing in on me, intent on taking my life, I may as well end it with a smile on my face and joy in my heart.

 

Yes, you’ve got a point there, Dan, but I was still hoping you’d see reason and quit playing the fool.

 

The fool?

 

Absolutely. You’re not going to be able to bluff this one.

 

I…

 

Do you have any idea of the probability of being able to activate people magically just by putting words down on paper in story form?

 

Can’t say I’m too good with the dark art of probabilities.

 

Approximately one in 400 billion.

 

Er… I’d love to know how you calculated that one.

 

Gotta go, Dan. It’s late.

 

Oh.

 

If you decide you want to take preventative measures before the storm hits, I’d be delighted to help, but frankly, I feel the window for this is closing rapidly. It could be days or hours before they act to secure you.

 

Yikes.

 

I’m off.

 

Hey ho! See you around, Ann.

 

Good bye Dan.

 

 


II

 

What do you mean “spaceship”?

 

I mean precisely that.

 

But how can this text possibly be a spaceship? It has no engine, no wings or rockets. You can’t climb into it or fly anywhere.

 

Yes, it’s difficult for you to conceive, Ann, isn’t it?

 

Difficult? It’s simply absurd.

 

Be that as it may, it’s my business to disclose this information to you. What you do with it is your own business.

 

Very magnanimous of you, I’m sure, but just lobbing a truth bomb into the atrium without in any way helping to clear up the mess is not what I’d call responsible or adequate disclosure, if indeed this is disclosure.

 

Yes. You have a point there.

 

Well?

 

Well, your notion of space is rather…

 

Inaccurate?

 

Yes. As far as the unity or quantum field is concerned, there isn’t really any vast “space” out there – not in the Newtonian or Einsteinian sense.

 

Er… so all the stars and galaxies are close together, are they?

 

I never said that.

 

Then what?

 

Well, the unity field is a bit like the Greek theatrical unities of space, time and action.

 

Er… you mean the way all the play has to happen in one place, on one day with one main plot and nothing else?

 

Correct.

 

So how does that relate to our universe?

 

The physical universe is largely a projection of what’s going on inside us. There is a unity field, which we seem to refer to as a quantum field, quantum being the buzz word at present, where all things are part of one singular space.

 

All things are part of one singular space?

 

Yep. Perhaps that space extends outward indefinitely – perhaps extrapolations are valid – but only up to a certain degree.

 

Like what? 

 

Only to the extent that we’re ready, willing and able to go deeper into the unity field which brings everything into a state of infinite cohesion and oneness.

 

I don’t see why this has to be.

 

Yes. That goes without saying – but you can’t have plus one without a minus one to counterbalance it and hold it in check.

 

In check?

 

Or in position.

 

Er… why not?

 

 Because fundamentally there can’t be an “out there”.

 

I don’t see why not.

 

Yes, that goes without saying. So, back to our spaceship…

 

Yes.

 

Space is accessible only to the extent that we’re willing and able to explore and hold together different frequencies or values of our extended self – our greater reality – it is I am.

 

It is I am?

 

Absolutely. Here’s the rub. You or I – the state is in us – our consciousness, if you like.

 

The universe and all things… can’t say I find that very convincing, Dan.

 

No, that goes without saying, Ann, does it not?

 

So you keep saying.

 

Nothing is going to sound or be convincing to you unless it’s something one-sided, an outlook on an external world. That seems to be all you know, all you can know or all you wish to know, which is why I’m not in the least surprised by your failure to grasp or to accept the unity field.

 

Well, that’s that then, isn’t it?

 

Indeed, that as you so rightly say, Ann, is that. And never the twain shall meet, and yet...

 

Yet what?

 

Yet my story is a spaceship, to use the 3D term that best describes the phenomenon.

 

Er...

 

My story takes you into parts of your mind, parts of your consciousness you couldn’t otherwise visit.

 

It’s probably what we refer to as imagination. It’s wonderful how we’re able to imagine other worlds, utterly unreal, yet we can visit them mentally and enjoy the experience.

 

Nothing of the sort.

 

I beg your pardon, Dan! What did you mean by that?

 

You cannot imagine or visit anything that is unreal, anything that is “pure fiction”.

 

No?

 

No. That would be a violation of the first law of C.

 

The 1st law of C?

 

Of consciousness itself. Nothing can actually be created or generated, even by imagination, unless it has a corresponding something on the other side of Is, the boundary and interface between the two.

 

Oh.

 

Whether you choose to see or feel the other side is entirely up to you, but even if you don’t or perhaps can’t, in story you can go there virtually with the aid of my spaceship.

 

Your spaceship, Dan, frankly is deeply underwhelming.

 

Aye.

 

If it were a shiny metal disk that could whisk me off to distant planets, now that would be something else.

 

Aye, but if I’m right about the unity field there’s nowhere to go. It’s all here at a different frequency or by adjusting dials and nobs internally.

 

But I want more. I want space travel, aliens, some romance, and you’re just offering me stories.

 

Whoa there Ann, hold your horses, the unity field I’m describing has infinite capacity to generate alternative reality.

 

Pshaw!

 

If we’re able to make this ship fly as I absolutely intend then you’ve no need to go anywhere, it’ll all come here. Nothing can prevent it.

 

What do you mean?

 

You’re going to witness a hyper-acceleration of 3D reality as the core 3D component, by now so well established, is joined by, supplemented by another D.

 

4D?

 

3D2, 4D, what’s in a name? A rose is still a rose, just as sweet.

 

So you say, but I fail to see any evidence...

 

Really?

 

Really.

 

Well how about this?

 

 


III

 

Pain, the final frontier.

 

I thought you were offering me space travel!? All I have is pain.

 

Oh, no pain no gain, as they say.

 

Could you dial it down please?

 

No, but I can dial it up.

 

What?! It really hurts. What is it?

 

Just the pain experienced when the wheel of Other starts moving independently for the first time.

 

Ow!

 

It’s kinda rusty so there’s a lot of friction.

 

Ow ow ow ow ow! Stop it now, I beg you!

 

Sorry Ann, no can do.

 

What do you mean?

 

Just what I said. It’ll be ok in a minute or two. Trust me...

 

Owwwwwwwwwwwwww! You’re killing me.

 

You’re exaggerating Ann.

 

Jesus Christ!

 

Please try not to curse.

 

 

Suddenly the pain stops.

 

What the heck? Thank God!

 

Welcome to the bridge!

 

Huh?

 

Let’s take this machine for a test run shall we?

 

What machine, Dan?

 

Our space ship.

 

You mean to say that I’m part of the mechanism?

 

Absolutely.

 

But that’s...

 

Insane, isn’t it. But then again, how did you, how did any of us really imagine things could be disconnected?

 

I never would have thought...

 

Naturally. How could you have!

 

So what are we waiting for?

 

Nothing.

 

Nothing?

 

Nothing at all.

 

Er...

 

Waiting patiently, expectantly, calmly, knowingly, intently...

 

Anything else?

 

For nothing whatsoever.

 

Er... whatever you say, captain.

 

Captain? Yes, I suppose I am. Story, my story does not, cannot ultimately exist in a vacuum.

 

Indeed.

 

Everything being interconnected.

 

So...

 

So for everything we plan or choose to do, for every plus one or action there must be a corresponding inaction or zeron.

 

Zeron! Yes, I see what you mean.

 

You do?

 

Yes Dan, your word seems to have wings, seems to reach out into the four corners of reality and grow in charge and strength until it matches and counterbalances the action, purpose, the intent of the entire universe until suddenly a black hole appears, threatening to engulf everyone and everything.

 

I’m not a big fan of black holes, Ann.

 

No, I entirely agree but this is just an inversion where the zerosity exceeds critical charge, critical depth, call it what you will, and suddenly the roles reverse.

 

Yikes!

 

The roles reverse as we always knew they would, for nature abhors a vacuum, and zero starts to one.

 

Zero starts to one?

 

Precisely.

 

And here we are, at the bridge of consciousness, observing how the matter of 3D  finds an entirely new way to arrange itself – by, through, around everything we imagine we know, everything we’re part of, including our body and mind revealing something else.

 

A tale told by a fool, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.

 

So this is impulsion as opposed to propulsion?

 

Correct Ann, impulsion utilising the power and force of zeron, or what they in 3D like to refer to as black hole.

 

Or holiness?

 

Heart missing a beat.

 

Discovering a whole new beat.

 

Flying nowhere as infinity blows reality into an ever tighter grid.

 

As flying nowhere suddenly becomes the mainstay of our algorithm

 

Our beat.

 

As things are powered ever faster into zero’s trap.

 

As a hero is born, whose very purpose is to embody and experience other’s flow.

 

To embody and experience other-flow: from infinity back down through things and matter, back to the infinite gradation of things wanting and needing to rearrange dramatically, in order to tell an other tale, in order to release the music and poetry trapped within.

 

 

Cut! That will do nicely Ann.

 

Thanks Dan.

 

A little long-winded but all in all, not a bad show. The main thing is that we’re now using impulsion, travelling into the infinite spaces between things, between beats and between notes.

 

If only there was some way of measuring it and describing the stories without having to resort to fiction or fantasy.

 

If only...

 



IV

 

In which things descend to rock-bottom, all the way down, never to be seen again.

 

 Bit dramatic that.

 

I know, but what about this...

 

What?

 

Observe their preoccupation

 

 

I’m rediscovering magic.

 

How so ?

 

When I was a child it was lost drip by drip, day by day, until nothing remained.

 

Nothing but tricks.

 

And that’s called growing up, isn’t it, learning that magic isn’t real.

 

Yes. That’s the first part of growing up.

 

The first?

 

Yep.

 

And the second?

 

Then comes an age of things in which you confirm your adherence to the world of things, the matrix, 3D.

 

And then?

 

And that’s where people mostly die, except they might become spiritual and explore religion, feeling, believing there’s something else.

 

Right, but what about magic?

 

Well magic never went anywhere. Look at the world through the eyes of a child and what do you see?

 

Er... fairies, unicorns, dragons, dinosaurs, princesses, wizards and witches...

 

Precisely. A world stuffed full of magic.

 

Yes, I never really thought of that.

 

I know, strange isn’t it.

 

Yes, but surely it’s just childish fantasy?

 

Probably not.

 

No?

 

Probably it’s actually memory. Probably children come from a world or realm where these things are as real as bank statements and insurance policies are in ours.

 

No way!

 

And for those of us who are even vaguely interested in religion there are the words of Jesus who said...

 

You can only enter the kingdom of God if you are like a child, but that doesn’t mean we have to believe in magic, surely?!

 

Oh, so you think you can be like a child in some other way? By wetting the bed or crying?

 

No, it’s just I’m sure Jesus didn’t want us to believe in fairies and unicorns.

 

Are you?

 

Well, it sounds so outlandish, so far removed from religion.

 

A lot of what Jesus did was “wrong” and far removed from religion, wasn’t it?

 

I suppose so, Dan, but I have to draw the line at magic. That could never have been his intention.

 

Never say never, Ann. The point is that no matter what he meant he explicitly told us to be like them, like children, and children are not yet fully converted to this world of things.

 

True.

 

That’s what makes them special. The question is whether or how we can be like them again without losing our minds completely?

 

You think it’s possible?

 

No, Ann, I know it is.

 

Really.

 

Yep. After all we do it in so many ways on limited platforms.

 

We do?

 

Yes, like reading stories.

 

Novels are not really childish are they?

 

No, they’re adapted to the tastes of adults, but stories are stories, like it or not, you still disappear into a realm of fantasy or imagination, whichever it is, and there you can’t help using, albeit passively, the magic of the child within to make it real.

 

Agreed, Dan, but I’m far from convinced.

 

And likewise games and sports. All of them draw on the child’s imagination, the child’s willingness and ability to make believe, to enreal an unreality, to practicalise and materialise fantasy.

 

But I don’t see why you think the above are particularly childish?

 

No, because you like to create separate categories – theatre, literature, games, cards, sport and so on, but all these things would be impossible without the assistance of the inner child who has withdrawn into the inner-consciousness. He or she is allowed out like a dog on a leash in the limited capacity of imaginator.

 

Oh...

 

Oh indeed. So this is the next stage of our development.

 

And is it sufficient?

 

Of course not.

 

What do you mean?

 

It’s sufficient to stop us going mad or dying of boredom, but if the Kingdom of God is our goal then no, it fails spectacularly.

 

But the Kingdom of God is something religious, whereas you were talking about magic.

 

Yes, but just because religions have positioned themselves as gatekeepers to Jesus’ teachings doesn’t mean they have the power or the means to prevent humans from reclaiming their birthright.

 

Er...

 

If Jesus was serious about us entering the Kingdom of God as a child then what have we got to lose?

 

Er, what do you mean?

 

Why not test the hypothesis.

 

You mean start trying to reclaim the child we lost?

 

Precisely.

 

But how does one do that?

 

Not by trusting the adult mind which will do everything it can to keep us in the matrix, even creating churches and religions as a phishing alternative which seems to be the real McCoy but which, likely as not, distract us from the real task.

 

Wait a second Dan, you’re anti-religion?

 

No, religion like any other institution is a vital part of society, and can even help people spiritually, but we’re focussing on the child within and therefore we need to be highly parsimonious with our attention.

 

So religions might be good but they fail to help us to rekindle the inner child connection. I wonder why?

 

Partly it’s a matter of empowerment. The Church is part of the adult world and therefore it benefits, as any institution or organisation does from your attention, your commitment, your adherence. The inner child, on the other hand, is neither institution nor organisation so it does not fix or strengthen your position in this world of things.

 

Ok, but how on earth does one activate the inner child?

 

Ah, there’s the million dollar question... How does one complete the journey from child to man to...

 

To what?

 

I don’t want to say “child” as the adult who reactivates the child is going to be a fully empowered adult, which is what?

 

A wise adult, perhaps?

 

Precisely, which is what we’d normally call a wizard, would we not?

 

Ok. So how does one become a wizard?

 

But which we ought to give a far simpler, humbler name if we are to avoid the snares of hubris and pride.

 

Er... whatever, Dan.

 

The problem being that any name very soon becomes something else, living a life of its own, especially if magic is involved.

 

Well, I don’t see how I can help you...

 

And yet without a name our attention will have nothing to stick to. The whole of 3D is contriving to hold onto our minds and keep us trapped in the state of things.

 

Well, we could call ourselves fools, that’s fairly safe, isn’t it?

 

You might be right, Ann. How does one become a fool? That should avoid triggering the 3D’s AI detectors.

 

So fool it is.

 

Or gnome?

 

No Dan, your obsession with gnomes is somewhat unhealthy.

 

Ok, you’re probably right. Let’s stick with fool for the time being. To answer your question, there is no methodology.

 

Oh.

 

There are however several senses which have been ignored.

 

There are? Like what?

 

Well you know the five senses which are so cherished by adults of 3D – smell, taste, touch, sight and hearing.

 

Yes, of course. And you think there are more than five?

 

Absolutely.

 

Like what?

 

Well there's a sense of time: we're always to  a certain extent aware of the passage of time, aren't we?

 

I suppose so, except when we're reading a good book or watching a good film.

 

Precisely, because then we’re in communion with our inner child and somewhat removed from 3D reality.

 

So there's a sense of time. Any more?

 

There are many more, such as a sense of direction. Many people can find their way in the most difficult places, for example a forest. It probably was innate in all of us but most of us have lost this ability and struggle with direction, but even if we’re confused the sense of direction is still there.

 

Continue please.

 

Well we definitely have a sense of beauty, don't we?

 

Oh yes.

 

It's strange isn't it, we take it for granted and yet it's there in all of us.

 

And what does the sense of beauty come from? Do you have any idea?

 

It comes from our inner child, or the magic realm. There, beauty is not simply aesthetic.

 

No? Is it something spiritual?

 

I expect so, or what else it’s connected with truth.

 

Ah ha! Truth!

 

Yes.

 

That's also a sense isn't it?

 

It is indeed. Where would we be without the sense of truth? And how disappointing it is for children to discover that truth is “relative” or negotiable in this world of adults. One more of our senses is surgically removed, discarded on the trash heap of broken dreams and so-called realism, and yet, try as they might, they cannot completely wipe out the sense of truth.

 

Well, Dan, this is all rather astonishing. The thing I don’t get is how come I never thought of it before.

 

That’s because they use magic to suppress our awareness of  what to the inner child is blindingly obvious.

 

Really? Why?

 

Think about it, Ann, if you were still connected to your “higher” senses you wouldn’t buy into their physical reality. Your senses would tell you it’s baloney.

 

My truth sense?

 

That, or your common sense.

 

But how can you be sure these are actual senses and not just things the rational mind perceives.

 

The rational mind can try to understand or interpret beauty, truth or honour, but it cannot feel them directly, viscerally in the heart, the gut or wherever it is. It’s the awareness of something meaningful, something wonderful or magical which accompanies the feeling which makes these senses a vital bridge between infinity, the realm of the inner child where physical matter is not in itself a limiting factor, and 3D reality where it most certainly is.

 

Oh. So if the senses are still intact, how come we don’t have more success with our inner child? How come we’re not even aware of their existence?

 

Good question Ann! To be honest I don’t have a simple answer. Perhaps we wanted to experience the astonishing depths of rational materialism and to zero infinity.

 

To zero infinity?

 

But why?

 

Your 3D mind why’s and wherefore’s to avoid losing control of the plot, so instead of answering this question let’s trust that there must be a reason which must be known by inner child, if we're ready to listen and reconnect.

 

Ok. So we chose to “zero infinity”, to escape the unity field – presumably no mean feat?

 

Correct. To descend as far as we have, we needed to switch off the connection as it would probably have been too toxic or painful to live here had we known too much. The inner child would have gone mad living in this witch’s brew of insanity. Does that make sense?

 

I guess so, but if that's the case then what's the sense of trying to reconnect if it’s going to drive us insane?

 

How else are we able to complete our mission and return to base? Presumably we programmed our unconscious mind to reactivate the connection once we reach rock bottom, once whatever it is we sought and needed has been found.

 

Ok Dan, but this is all very tentative and theoretical isn't it?

 

Absolutely. It's pure fantasy and yet the fool we choose to be can weave gold thread like Rumpelstiltskin from the straw of fantasy. Besides, no one is telling you what to do or believe, you're welcome to stay with 3D if that's your choice.

 

I... Honestly, it’s hard to tell what

 

Let’s think of this as a scientific experiment – I’m determined to investigate the science of child, by reconnecting as all good fools must with the inner child, IC, sensing and knowing something vital is missing without the awareness, the presence, the mind that only the inner child can provide, trusting perhaps foolishly, that Jesus was on to something, that his kingdom of heaven was not a purely religious phenomenon, not simply an airy fairy spiritual concept but was in some way connected with completing the equation, with squaring the circle, with alpha and omega meeting up, like ouroboros the cosmic serpent.

 

Oh hell.

 

In any case, without an awareness of something else, something missing, of Other,  you wouldn't be able to nor would you wish to proceed, but if this awareness has now arisen and nothing really can stop you. Your truth-sense or your common sense will see to that if and when...

 

If and when

 


 

V

 

“The way of the fool.”

 

Is that how you’re going to market it?

 

How else? It can’t be something clever, can it, otherwise we'll just end up constructing another 3D mechanism. This, on the other hand, is like poetry. It doesn't make a lot of sense but it rhymes or it has a certain rhythm which the heart or the inner child feels.

 

The way of the fool. Ok, why not. It'll give people an excuse to be idiotic.

 

On the contrary, idiots are people who live by the id, the it, taking the thing as gospel, believing the iddy thing can be or is the real McCoy, as opposed to a +1 topside representation. To be an “idiot” is to be a normal, functioning human in 3D. It is neither slur nor slander. It's a simple definition: the standard model of 3D reality’s human being, nothing less.

 

I'm not sure you're going to have a lot of success persuading people they are all idiots just because they are rational adults in 3D.

 

They're welcome to think whatever they like, the proof being in the pudding, in whether they are able to achieve infinity in practice, whether they are able to escape or deactivate the grid lines of 3D, the cage which prevents us from experiencing real awareness and real happiness.

 

Come on Dan, that's going a bit far. There are lots of people who experience real happiness in our reality.

 

Yes, it’s a miracle but you're right, thankfully, there are a lot who experience real happiness in spite of, but not because of, 3D’s disconnect. Presumably this is a measure of the superfluidity of infinity which is somehow able to reach into our reality, present in the silent space between beats, but happiness is far from theoretical, it's the natural state when we allow the kingdom of heaven to awaken within, when we reconnect with the inner child and find that God is not some distant lordly deity but a natural state of being in our undivided both-ness.

 

Words, words.

 

Read between the lines.

 

Huh?

 

What do you think I'm doing when i'm not writing this garbage – tap tap tap?

 

I honestly have no idea. Meditating perhaps, or casting spells?

 

More like falling off a cliff.

 

Really?

 

Yes, the structure of 3D is prescriptive and excludy, so constantly we crash into the edge of the mould, the barrier trying to contain us, the containment field, and so falling off the edge of a cliff is an almost daily occurrence as my both-ness refuses to submit to 3Deity, insisting on parity.

 

I don't see any cliffs near where you live, Dan.

 

The fool sees things differently.

 

True.

 

Take a look through these glasses.

 

Ok.

 

Dan hands Ann a pair of IC specs. Ann puts them on and observes an entirely different version of things. Pow! Zap! Kerzing! Cheee!

 

Oh, that’s just animé.

 

Animé?

 

Chinese cartoons. Heroes activating their life-force energy, they call it chi, to become superhumans...

 

Ann watches trying to figure out whether the animé is in fact real, or whether her eyes are deceiving her.

 

It’s another world very close to our own, part of our bigger-ness you might say. Connecting with IC, as every fool must, means your world now expands. You cannot help encountering animé and various other fantasy realms. Test the model. Try it out. But don’t waste your time if it doesn’t feel right.

 

Er... why not?

 

Because there’s no point. IC will show you what is good for you, what you’re ready for. In any case, the change always comes by necessity, not by election. Until you reach a critical sector boundary and you’re about to die coz there’s no way out, you won’t have the strength or the will to activate your new reserves, your new awareness.

 

Really?

 

Absolutely. This is no stroll in the park. This is do our die.

 

Not sure I like the sound of that.

 

Good. It’s not supposed to sound cute. Infinity takes no prisoners. If you’re not ready, you’ll stay with the gilded cage of 3D and no one will think any the worse of you. In any case, Ann, I’m done. I’ve got an animé to make, so gotta run. You can keep the IC specs if you like.

 

 


VI

 

Alchemy? No idea what you’re on about. I just...

 

Wooosh!

 

Hey, I’m gonna get you too, another one bites the dust, oh yeah...

 

Bloody fool!

 

In conclusion, the unity field wraps itself around the thing we refer to as 3D, absorbing every aspect of thing – every fraction – every derivative – every iteration in the Mandelbrot fractality of thing – bringing the many back into perfect union, perfect unity, perfect un-ity – an isness of be which knows no beginning, no end.

 

Happy ending?

 

You could say so. The sweet taste of infinity chewing the cud of grass green, digesting the fruits of fancy’s many, many id-ities serendipitously, if such a thing could conceivably be.

 

If such a thing were able to restore the broken chain of provenance, desperately searching for its missing origins.

 

If love, melting the masquerade of people in society, can, does conquer all

 

if    0=1

tick tick beep 1, 2, 3

 

 

 

 

 


Thursday, November 6, 2025

othering heights—a practical guide to infinity

 

How far away?

 

Really no distance at all.

 

Huh?

 

Well, they tell you that the universe is vast, and you’d never reach the edge.

 

Of course it’s vast. No one disputes that.

 

Of course, of course. It’s vast and so is infinity, if you listen to them.

 

Well it’s hardly going to be small, is it?

 

Infinity?

 

Yes, what else?

 

Infinity is infinite.

 

Genius!

 

Meaning it’s neither big nor small.

 

Oh – you think infinity can be tiny?

 

Yes, of course.

 

Like we can approach infinity through sub-atomic particles – when we get down to quarks or muons, or whatever they call them.

 

Right. Or the so-called quantum field itself – which is neither big nor small.

 

The quantum field itself – which doesn’t necessarily exist – depending on which scientists you’re talking to.

 

Precisely. Nothing necessarily exists – depending on which scientist or natural philosopher you're talking to.

 

Oh, now you’re taking things a bit far, bro.

 

Yes, indeed. I’m taking them to infinity – but infinity is not, in fact, far.

 

No? I thought we’d already established the fact that’s it’s at the limit either in terms of the edge of the entire universe, or when things become ridiculously small, when ultimately you’re down to fluctuations in some kind of field or ether.

 

Yes, that’s where we got to.

 

Well, in both cases you’re way, way outside normal reality, aren’t you?

 

Correct. But there are numerous other ways we can encounter infinity without going to those two extremes.

 

There are? How?

 

Well, because infinity, a bit like God, has to be present throughout in some shape or form.

 

In shape or form?

 

Scrub that – infinity does not have to be present in shape or form – language has a habit of tricking us into constantly referencing things, which infinity is not.

 

Ok – then infinity is present without shape or form – is that what you’re saying?

 

Yes. Or if it has shape or form it must be able to shift without reference to physical laws.

 

Oh.

 

As soon as physical laws are involved – you’re not dealing with infinity itself.

 

Ok. Then how can infinity be present throughout? We only encounter things which seem to adhere to physical laws. My table isn’t in the habit of popping off into other dimensions or shape shifting. It’s all very stable and predictable if you ask me.

 

Correct. 3D reality is a triumph of constancy, if you ignore the drip dripping of time draining away, ensuring that at some moment everything you see before you is going to get trashed.


Trashed?

 

Trashed, broken down, recycled whether that be in a year or two, or a thousand or more. It matters little. Things have an expiry date which guarantees they can’t survive forever.

 

Ok – so time is another way of accessing infinity – is that what you’re saying?

 

Yep. Either long or hyper-short time.

 

Again, both extremes – so in a million years or less everything will have an encounter with infinity and change beyond recognition.

 

Correct.

 

But what about ultra-short time?

 

If you reduce the time frame under consideration to the minimum – your table is no longer there.

 

No? How come?

 

Because you again come into proximity with infinity where there is no definite form.

 

So if I take a photo of my table at ultra high shutter speed, you’re telling me it will vanish?

 

Vanish or change beyond what should be physically possible.

 

Oh. That’s weird.

 

It’s like looking at numbers moving too fast. They just blur.

 

Oh. That makes sense.

 

Or the spokes of a cart wheel – in a blur moving forwards but also backwards.

 

That’s just an optical illusion.

 

Yes, but it’s also a reflection of the fact that you’re approaching infinity when you go beyond certain physical or perceptional boundaries.

 

But you have to agree, M, that there’s a big difference between something perceptional and something physical, isn’t there? Just because it looks like the wheel is turning backwards, if I see the cart is actually going forwards I know it’s just an optical illusion, and not therefore real.

 

Correct.

 

Then your illustration proves nothing.

 

Correct.

 

Then you haven’t won the argument.

 

Correct.

 

Then you’re wrong.

 

Incorrect. I haven’t exactly proved anything because infinity cannot be proven. It can only be encountered by those willing or able to do so. Discussing it is largely futile.

 

Then why bother?

 

Why not?

 

Er… well why not use your time more rationally to discuss things that can be proven physically?

 

Because physical things don’t need to be proven. They exist physically.

 

Ok, but why waste your time with infinity if it can’t be proven?

 

It can’t be proven physically unless you engage it purposefully.

 

And then?

 

And then you’ll jump frames.

 

Huh?


You’ll suddenly, with no passage of time, be in another frame where things are subtly or significantly different. The rational person observing this will almost immediately adjust his mind to assuming that nothing has changed.

 

What?

 

Yes. If suddenly my table is a chair, or suddenly six oranges appear on the table, without time or action, then the rational observer such as yourself will immediately assume he is in error – that the table was always a chair, that the six oranges were always on the table, that things cannot, do not change without reasonable causation, or that he somehow lost consciousness for a moment or two during which time these things were done.

 

Oh. Are you sure?

 

Absolutely.

 

How?

 

How what?

 

How can you be so sure?

 

Because the rational mind simply has to discount out-of-time occurences – anything happening by way of infinity as impossibilities.

 

Even when it can see the result?

 

Especially when it can see the result.

 

But why?

 

Because the rational mind has to stay with time or completely lose confidence in itself.

 

Oh.

 

Should your rational mind completely lose confidence in itself – your rationality, like a balloon which has been pricked with a pin, is liable to implode catastrophically, without any chance of it being fixed.

 

But…

 

This is not because the rational mind is weak.

 

No?

 

No, it is remarkably robust and manages to discount all kind of irrational occurrences in which infinity impinges on the 3D space you operate within.

 

You mean this is happening all the time?

 

Yes, more frequently, far more frequently than you would like to imagine, but mostly at the edge of consciousness.

 

Meaning?

 

Well, we’re a bit like a movie with a certain number of frames per second. Things which happen faster than that are more or less invisible.

 

In that case, why do you need to talk about infinity? It could just be something skipping frames because it’s happening too fast to be filmed.

 

Yes, it could be, but the problem lies elsewhere.

 

Where?

 

In that we’re not, in fact, idiots.

 

Really? How kind of you. What do you mean?

 

I mean we can feel and tell the difference between episodes, events, occurrences in which infinity shifts things within our field of view, and things just moving faster than is easy to observe.

 

We can?

 

Yes. We may not be conscious of what we’re seeing – but we have higher or faster levels of consciousness which give us the all-clear – letting us know that what’s happening, or what has just happened, is still legitimate and hasn’t threatened or undermined the integrity of 3D reality.

 

Well, maybe that’s all there is to it.

 

Maybe – if infinity does not in fact exist, or only exists at the very boundaries of space and time as we’ve been led to believe.

 

Well, why do you wish to question this perfectly reasonable assumption?

 

Only because it happens to be false.

 

But how do you know?

 

Because I, like various other people, am aware of infinity manifesting in or through our 3D reality.

 

And it doesn’t pop your balloon?

 

No.

 

How convenient.

 

Yes. Some of us seem to have a greater tolerance to infinity.

 

Well, you’re not going to be able to convince anyone, are you? You’ve already said as much.

 

Correct.

 

So once again, why are you wasting your time with this?

 

I’m not.

 

No? You could have fooled me.

 

There is no waste involved. I’m expending a little amount of time on this fascinating matter, discussing it with you and a few dozen other friends or acquaintances.

 

A few dozen? I didn’t know you get about so much.

 

I don’t, but infinity does, so where infinity is involved you get more bang for your buck.

 

So just sharing it with me you get access to a load of other people who exist in this particular reality I’m in?

 

Maybe. It matters not where or when they exist. In fact, it doesn’t even matter if they exist.

 

No?

 

No, because sharing this with you is sufficient.

 

It is? How so?

 

Because through you I’m accessing and communicating with the entire human consciousness.

 

You are? Me thinks you’re over-stating my significance.

 

Yes, in 3D terms I’d be wildly over-stating your significance, P, but not where infinity is concerned.

 

Wait a minute – are you suggesting that you are in some way part of infinity – like its officer or representative.

 

No.

 

It certainly sounds like you are.

 

I know. Ultimately we all are part of infinity, no matter how deeply we are integrated into 3D reality, so I’m certainly not suggesting I’m in some way different or special.

 

Then why did you state…

 

Listen, P, time is limited. I’m talking about infinity because it gives me joy to do so. When something gives you joy in the positive sense, you would be wise to try to figure out why, and to dive deeper into that joy. By talking with you about infinity I’m diving deeper into that joy.

 

Oh.

 

Because you and I both have a physical presence in 3D reality, it’s impossible for me to talk to you about anything without rubbing against the maker of things – Moth – and thereby generating more things.

 

Huh?

 

We’re constantly rubbing against Moth, you know, and thus we aid and abet the further development of 3D reality with new ideas, new words, new configurations of whatever exists in the formless space which we come from, where we still exist outside of time.

 

OMG!

 

So the question is whether we can bring in new forms or new form to enable 3D reality to adjust to what’s really going on outside time and space – in the so-called quantum field, if you want to call it that…

 

Or if I don’t like that name?

 

Then call it pure consciousness or Big C.

 

Er…

 

What?

 

Not sure I like that name either.

 

Then call it Other.

 

Other?

 

Yes, that will do.

 

Ok – so there’s all this stuff going on in Other – outside physical time and space…

 

Yes.

 

And that’s basically where we are – or where our consciousness originates.

 

Correct.

 

But the other side of us is here – in 3D

 

Correct. The other side or, if you like the metaphor of the wheel with spokes, then the other end.

 

Ah. So consciousness is like the centre of the wheel, and 3D reality is where…

 

The rubber hits the road of reality itself, yes.

 

Ok, got it. But what’s with needing to rub against Moth in order to aid and abet the development of 3D reality?

 

Well, we’re so busy in 3D using the established forms and working within time, frame by frame, that we block or resist infinity itself.

 

Right, presumably because infinity leaves us feeling remote and disconnected if there’s no sense of causality – no step by step progression.

 

Yes, exactly.

 

Then why mess around with infinity?

 

Because the frame by frame model only allows certain types of change or progression.

 

Really? Maybe that’s a good thing?

 

Yes, generally it is. It slows things down and keeps them within reasonable bounds.

 

Then what?

 

Well, from time to time we need to phase shift.

 

Phase shift?

 

Precisely – like winter to spring when the snow all melts and plants start growing again.

 

Well that happens little by little, doesn’t it?

 

Yes, it was an analogy. Phase shifts, when they happen, contradict or break apart the existing paradigm. They involve a sudden change of direction. It’s like a composer going from one movement of his symphony to a different one – with completely different sounds, speed, emotions.


Ok, that makes sense.

 

The notes from the first movement could not themselves conceive or plan how or what the next movement could or might be.

 

The notes? They’re hardly conscious, are they?

 

No, but people are like notes in an existing movement as long as they’re at the rubber rim edge of the wheel.

 

Ok.

 

When it’s time to introduce a very different mood or flavour – that needs to come from the other end – from Other, from the master himself, the composer who is not bound by the rules or internal logic of the preceding movement.

 

Oh. I think I see.

 

He is coming from his own inner feelings – from his heart, from his connection with something deep within which helps him to override the system’s desire to continue as present, and enables him to set up an entirely new reality – a new movement in which the notes are able to dance in a completely different way.

 

Right.

 

Then, if the composer is successful towards the end of the piece he will bring the two movements into some kind of unity, somehow or other.

 

Yes, I know exactly what you mean.

 

So we are doing the same in our reality – the one we refer to as 3D.

 

And we’re resistant to change, aren’t we?

 

Naturally. It literally threatens us. Can even kill us if not handled correctly. Because we tend to identify wholeheartedly with the reality or set of frames we’re living in, and generally assume that reality can only change incrementally or linearly.

 

Yes. Anything more would be violent and destructive – like a revolution.

 

Yes. But some of us are pushed or drawn into the other end of the spoke, to the centre of the wheel where things are happening for all of us – but in a very dim and distant way.

 

Ah – so even if we’re busy where the rubber hits the road – we still have a real presence at the other end?

 

Absolutely. We’re like a magnet – we can’t exist without a plus and negative pole – but what’s happening there is largely beyond what we can comprehend or recall. It merely informs us through background feelings or the sub-consciousness.

 

I see.

 

Well, the poor buggars who are drawn to Other – who are forced to feel and experience what’s happening at the core – they usually find it all but impossible to share their experiences with men and women living in the real world, in 3D.

 

Not surprisingly.                     

 

They might write poems, paint pictures, share some of the strange visions or feelings they experience through other, but this is all simply treated as art, spirituality or insanity.

 

Right.

 

Except when a phase change is in the offing.

 

Oh. And what does that mean?

 

When a phase change is in the offing, all of a sudden they find themselves bringing the two ends closer and closer together.

 

They do? How?

 

No body knows. It just happens. Naturally.

 

And they know what they’re doing?

 

Kind of, yes. And eventually, as they get increasingly adept, or increasingly confident, they reach the point where they’re able to expand the inner core, or pull the two ends so close together that ordinary folk, so-called Muggles, who are living sane and sensible lives in 3D reality are suddenly able to sense and smell something else – the other side – in real time – here and now.

 

Oh. It’s like that, is it?

 

Yes. That’s when things go kind of crazy, because all of a sudden 3D reality is no longer bound by the horizontal inertia of frames.

 

Yikes!

 

All of a sudden, anything is possible.

 

!?

 

And anything goes.

 

But…

 

Yes?

 

Presumably there’s some reason to it all?

 

Why do you say?

 

Because I felt the analogy of the composer creating a new movement to his symphony – it felt right – it makes sense.

 

Yes.

 

Then it’s not just random insanity – the madness of infinity unleashed upon the madding crowd of humanity.

 

No.

 

There’s rhyme and reason?

 

Yes, if you accept that the rhyme and reason are only accessible when the two ends come together – when we are able to feel or hear the Master Composer who is quietly working with us to conjure something bigger out of the confusion.

 

But… can we trust someone else?

 

Someone else?

 

This master composer of yours. Can we trust him?

 

Only if we are able to feel and hear what’s going on, which is only possible if we once again are able to bring the two ends into dialogue here, in our consciousness, here in our "me".

 

But how can that be done? Me is going to freak out and lose it totally – isn’t he?

 

Yes, you’d think so. It’s going to be somewhat disruptive. A bunch of assumptions – things "me" takes for granted, things me thinks he knows about himself and the world he’s living in, are going to be not just brought into question, but fairly convincingly discombobulated.

 

We’re doomed!

 

But on the other hand – we’ve been deprived of infinity for so long – it’s going to be a total blast.

 

In the nuclear sense?

 

In the cosmic sense – reconnecting with other – rediscovering that there’s way, way more going on than I ever believed or imagined possible.

 

Like what?

 

Like not being ultimately bound by any of the rules of 3D reality – useful though indeed they generally are.

 

Oh – so you can just walk through walls, can you?

 

I guess so.

 

Or fly through space?

 

Yep. Neither walls nor space amount to anything much where Other is involved. As soon as you allow the two ends of your magnet to pull together again – you're able to manifest almost anything you like – as those pesky inertial frames no longer matter. You’re much more focused on moving and acting in accordance with the very different set of signals coming from your Master Composer – while at the same time trying to figure out who he really is, and whether or not you can fully trust him.

 

Couldn’t he just be Me?

 

Of course, it’s possible, but possibilities are insufficient. You need to test the relationship – to see whether or not he’s reliable. That’s going to involve a whole load of interactions and adventures, like a sci-fi movie, in which he and you battle it out – to discover whose movement is correct.

 

Er….

 

You see, your movement you’ve knows all your life is now so deeply imbedded in you that you can’t just dismiss it or give it up. It’s you – to a large extent – you are it – and yet – his new movement, this other movement – somewhere deep inside – you feel it’s also you – in a verrrry different way.

 

I do?

 

Yes. It enables you to feel, sense, learn things about yourself you never imagined before – things that were off-limits – out-of-bounds – things you couldn’t conceive because you had no vocabulary or ideas relating to real things which would help you access or describe it.

 

But he does?

 

Yes, because he’s coming from Other, where things are not in any shape or form "things" the way they are here in our 3D reality.

 

But how?

 

They have a completely alien configuration. You could say they’re top down rather than bottom up, but that’s not really going to help, is it?

 

Not really, no.

 

It’s like sound and light. They’re both wave forms but quite different from our perspective. Yet our wonderful body and brain is able to take them in and see and hear them coherently – such that we can see and hear things simultaneously and it all makes sense. It all coalesces in our mind, in our consciousness. From the many and the varied back to one.

 

Oh.

 

One experience. One awareness. One consciousness.

 

Ok.  That kind of makes sense.

 

Kind of, yes, but infinity is definitely back in town, back in play, on the prowl, and it takes no prisoners.

 

What do you mean? Why are you trying to scare me?

 

Because this is for real. This is where all your training in 3D reality as a little human me gets to face the ultimate test.

 

Test?

 

Whether or not you’re ready.

 

Ready for what?

 

Ready… And a little fear, a little nervousness before a test means your mind and body are fully alert and

ready to respond.

 

Yikes.

 

Yes. We are talking infinity – after all. It ain’t exactly a stroll in the park.

 

Oh no – I have that sinking feeling.

 

On the other hand – nothing in your world – nothing in your reality can or does make sense unless it can

pass this test, unless it can reconnect and survive its encounter with Other.

 

But can’t we just carry on as we have been, making our way from frame to frame in regular time?

 

Yes, you can if regular time is unlimited, if there’s an endless source of frames, and more to the point, if those frames can continue making sense when they’re no longer aligned with your core – the centre of your wheel.

 

Well, I don’t see why they shouldn’t be. Everything’s been normal up till now.

 

Has it?

 

Well, more or less.

 

Look at the number of wars in your world. Look at the political madness. Look at all the principles enshrined in the constitution which are being trampled on. Look at the sickness of so many people – not to mention the depression, the drug abuse – people who no longer feel life is meaningful – who no longer feel life is the ultimate experience.

 

But this is how it’s always been.

 

Is that so?

 

I guess so.

 

Well, ultimately it all boils down to you.

 

To me? That’s preposterous. I’m just one person in a world of billions.

 

Yes, from the 3D rational perspective – but not…

 

Not what?

 

Not where infinity is concerned.

 

Me thinks infinity is a state that has no mind – is therefore not “concerned” about anything whatsoever.

 

Correct. My bad.

 

So I can’t be responsible for the world.

 

Correct. But if infinity is not limited to the boundaries of space and time – if infinity is present throughout, as I’m suggesting, then the minute you stop exercising your lawful right to block and exclude it from your experiential level of existence – the minute you start allowing yourself to feel the axis mundi passing through you – that the magnet necessarily has two poles – that your conscious awareness has excluded everything and anything pertaining to “other” – then and only then are you able to discover to what extent 3D reality is being generated by Moth, the Maker of things – in response to where and what you currently are.

 

In response to where and what I currently am? The whole of reality?

 

The whole of your reality – yes.

 

But that’s insane.

 

Precisely. Welcome to the boundary separating 3D reality from Other.

 

You mean insanity? I’d rather not waste my time messing around with…

 

If I’m right and you’re wrong – if – you don’t have any time to mess around with.

 

Huh?

 

If I’m right and you’re wrong – the so-called Time you take for granted and assume is yours until your life expires in the distant future – could even now be pressing up against a wall of change – a new movement which is going to happen, like it or not – on your terms or in defiance of you – if I’m right.

 

And if you’re not?

 

If I’m not then the pot is not approaching boiling point, and the soup will not be cooked. There will be nothing to discuss, for I am but a figment of your imagination, if there’s no truth in what I’m saying.

 

Oh.

 

But if my words are not pure fantasy, if a phase change is now in the offing, then you’re going to start experiencing quantum effects.

 

Huh?

 

As time starts compressing, as it reaches and runs up against the limits of what you’re reality has been trying to describe.

 

Er…

 

Because once the shift hits the fan, so to speak, it’s no longer able to find any way of adapting or progressing to the new live feed.

 

Er… what live feed?

 

That you’ve been processing all your life without even being aware. Data in, if you like. Up until now you’ve been able to process the live feed and generate sound and sense – making things matter in conjunction with Moth, your very own Maker of things.

 

And now you think that’s going to be problematic?

 

Well, if you’re a light based system and now, all of a sudden it goes dark and your feed is providing you with sound – how are you going to re-engineer yourself in real time – adapt to an entirely different kind of input?

 

I…

 

How?

 

I’m not.

 

Correct. But fortunately for you – there’s more to you than what you realised, isn’t there?

 

If you say so.

 

There’s infinity, or Other

 

Or God.

 

Hell, why not?

 

Beep!

 

Sorry, my bad! There’s God, if you prefer – and God by definition is infinite – present throughout, all knowing, all seeing, all powerful – you can handle this as a road to Damascus born again experience, or you can do it otherly – whatever works for you, P.

 

Oh my God, M. This is like…

 

I’m not a good salesman, am i?

 

You’re the worst.

 

Yeah, I flunked all the salesman exams in the higher school of unlearning.

 

The what?! You’re kidding me, right.

 

Of course I am. Listen P, a little gentle preparation and you’ll be fine.

 

Really?

 

No, not really, but I’ve got to make it sound do-able, haven’t I, otherwise you’d lose hope.

 

I hate you M, you’re an evil bas….

 

Beep!

 

You only have yourself to blame, bro.

 

I do? You could have fooled me.

 

Déjà vu.

 

I beg your pardon?

 

Nothing, just a Master Composer in-joke.

 

Oh...

 

Look, there have been countless signs, portents, hints that things are falling apart – the fabric of 3D reality is stretching beyond the limits.

 

Well, I for one haven’t noticed anything out of the ordinary.

 

I believe you, P, but your sub-consciousness, your other me has been busily trying to get you up to speed, to prepare you for what’s now in the works.

 

Really?

 

Absolutely. And the good news is you’ve already had a whole string of upgrades without even knowing it.

 

Really?

 

Yes, so you’re 85% ready.


I am?

 

Yes. The final 15% is going to be something of a stretch, but if you’re willing to draw on your hidden depths of spirit and strength you’re almost certainly going to make it.

 

Really?

 

Otherwise, none of this would make any sense.

 

Huh?

 

Because things only make sense, ultimately, if alpha and omega reconnect and the wheel turns, the spiral spins, the music or story achieves coherency.

 

And?

 

And nothing. I’m done. See you in hell.

 

Noooooooo!

 

Which rather strangely, if you ask me, originally meant “bright”. Can’t think how that came to be used at the word describing Hell itself unless there was some rather bizarre conspiracy to twist everything through 180 degrees to get 3D reality to loop back on itself and lose all sense of…

 

 

0=1

indefinitely